Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

S-mount, middle of the desert, crazy animals!

Posted in amusing, every day, friends, fun on September 30th, 2013 by roxyfighter

quote of the weekend:
Roxy: Ewww, I think I just stepped in horse poop!
Anna: Don’t worry, I don’t think it’s fresh.

On Saturday morning, I planned to do the no-gi grappling class with Fredson, and then do kickboxing sparring. It was question day. I asked, “Excuse me, how do I keep people from standing up out of my guard?” So he taught us a bunch of points! Then he opened the floor again, so I asked again, “Excuse me, how do I hold knee on belly strongly?” Fredson motioned at Jamie to come, who was like, “NOoooooooo!” Fredson proceeded to crush the living s@$#*$# out of the poor guy. Over and over. And over. LOL SORRY, amigo!

Then we rolled and Jamie kicked my butt, along with this other guy. At first, I was super bummed, because I’m supposed to be the jiu-jitsu expert, right? Then I talked to myself.

“Roxy, drop the ego trip, and just learn from these guys. You know your game needs tightening up. You love this! Why are you bummed?”

So I turned on my brain and went back to the positions I lost in and got reversed in, and made some mental notes about what they did to get me. And how to get them off my face. I hadn’t heard of the S-mount until going to Syndicate. Lol how is that even possible? I was like “GRAH~ What are you doing to me? *taptaptap*” Jamie: Oh, S-mount.
jamie sempai

haha It was fascinating! They both taught me so much! Thanks, guys! 😀 Not only Fredson is a master, but my fellow classmates are freaking awesome!!! <3 <3 <3 I was focusing SO hard and it was SO great and SO awesome and gah! I got paper and a pencil and wrote it all down, because I can’t remember crapola unless I write it down. Then that class ended and the kickboxing/MMA sparring was supposed to start....but I really didn’t want to hit anything. 🙁 I was in jiu-jitsu mode! ._.; So I ambushed Jamie and he taught me MORE. For like 30 more minutes after class had ended. THANK YOU, sempai! 😀 (that means “senior rank” in Japanese) Who cares if I’ve been training longer in some cases. X_x If they can do it better, they can do it better. Bottom line. We always need to be students. I went to Fredson’s party in the evening! It was so much fun! roxy fredson bootsy

They played BEER PONG! It’s so funny! Throwing ping pong balls into cups of beer and then drinking? Good idea! Everyone was like, “Roxy, you’ve NEVER played beer pong before?!?!”
No. lol I don’t drink. In Japan they don’t do it, and in college, I did nothing but study and train and watch anime. Lol
I left early at 10:15PM, though, because I have a problem of getting really sleepy while driving.  It’s really scary, so I don’t want to stay out late.

My Sunday started off with me setting vegetables in a pot to steam, and then getting on Skype with my mom, so I didn’t notice when the water ran out. The put burned and smoked, which set off the smoke detector loudly (at 5 AM). My mom got pissed and hung up on me. And my pot is black and smells like farts. 🙁

At 9 AM, Victoria took me to Gold’s Gym on her buddy pass system, and I got in an excellent weight session. I went heavy. Sunday’s a day I wanna go heavy. I pulled a leg muscle doing stairs on Friday, though, so I’m limping. It’s so dumb. Dude. Gold’s Gym membership is ten dollars. TEN DOLLARS. Just…. TEN. OMFG my mind is blown. In Japan, do you know how much paid? EIGHTY DOLLARS A MONTH. $80~! Just…like… WHAT?! Ten dollars is like NOTHING. How do they stay in business?!

This afternoon/evening, I went to my friend Anna’s and Bruce’s house! They live in Red Rock, i.e. the mountains. Like, on a mountain. I was driving there and started freaking out because there was like…NOTHING but rocks and desert.

beautiful view
(I had my eyes on the road the WHOLE time, which is why the pic is at an angle) ^_^

If there hadn’t been power lines, I’d have been more nervous. I broke down a few times in the middle of nowhere in Western Massachusetts in the middle of the night, so I have anxiety from that trauma. And then my car started struggling…like slowing down randomly? Whoa, Lee, are you okay?! It’s a used car and I’m low on gas…

Then my ears popped. I realized that I had been going up hill! It was gradual, so I hadn’t noticed! Phew, it wasn’t a problem with Lee. (my car).

First, Anna took me to her friend’s house. She had horses and burros! 😀 The burros were so friendly! Once I gave them a carrot, they followed me around and nudged me, like a dog!
burro and roxy
And I stepped in burro or horse poop, and Anna said, “Don’t worry, I don’t think it’s fresh.” LOL
Anna took me to this Bar/restaurant! So many cool people there! I signed a dollar and glued it to the wall. O_O; Because apparently that’s the hip thing to do there?
dollars glued everywhere
Look, there are even panties and bras hanging down with dollars hanging off! hah

Anna treated me to RIBS!!! XD I never ate them in Japan, so I got a little excited, you gotta understand…. And then took me to her house and introduced me to her family! Her husband actually went to grade school with my dad and they were friends, so that’s how I came to meet them in the first place! I also met one of the sons, and many animals. Three big dogs. Then…two talking birds!
Then, A blue-tongued skink! Man, how freaky!(click pic to enlarge)

Its head was like a snake, but it had a lizard’s body!?
bearded gekko
Then, two bearded dragons!
Then a tiger gecko, was it?

My mind couldn’t have been anymore overwhelmed and surprised. Anna said, “here hold this one. Here, hold this one.” Just putting lizards on me and stuff and then walking away to get the next one. I was like “WOW a skink! WHOA a bearded dragon?! HOLY COW, a gecko?!” Like a little kid.

If Anna had said, “If you come into this room, we have a Siberian spider monkey!” I would have been like “oh cool, let’s go, can I touch it?” LOL at that point.

She made the best chicken fingers under the sun. And I met their kids (who are my age) and we talked about fighting and anime and sports and….! It was heaven!

“bruises,” training, friends, sushi!

Posted in friends, fun on September 27th, 2013 by roxyfighter

“Please tell me that I have grown
For I have bruises left to show”

“Bruises,” by Unloco

I pretty much felt like this all week. Bruises. Mentally and physically.

Anyway. It actually cheered me up a ton to hang out with Jessica on Tuesday.

I found out randomly that my tall TUF buddy Jessamyn Duke is in Vegas for some Olympia job she’s doing! So on Thursday? I raced over to her hotel and we hung out for a few hours!

jessy and roxy in hotel


I walked into the gym on Thursday and one of my coaches pulled me aside- I hadn’t even changed – and showed me some defenses for the slam. I knew it, but I hadn’t drilled them like I should. And another training partner offered to help me drill! But I was really touched that my coaches and training partners are so interested in helping me train. Thank you, Syndicate! 🙂 I love you!

And Heather and AJ took me out to belated birthday lunch!
heather aj roxy skinnyfat
I ordered this “tuna nuts” thing, with sashimi (raw tuna) with avacado on a cucumber ‘boat.’ There was supposed to be this cabbage salad on top, but I can’t eat cabbage.
tuna nuts

I woke up feeling like total crap today. Physically and mentally bad, but I went to the gym anyway and did some good clinching technique. Thanks, AJ! And Heather! but man, I felt pathetic.

On the way to Syndicate this morning, I was gonna go the local roads and stop by the post office, but just…the stop and go traffic got under my skin and I was like “GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I NEED SPEEEEEEEEEEEED!” So I turned around in the opposite directions and took the highway. Man, don’t you ever get into the mood to just STEP ON THE GAS?!

I made some new friends today! 😀 Well, we met in passing, but today after training Victoria and her boyfriend Brandon took me out for a welcome lunch of sushi at Goyemon! There was all-you-can-eat sushi for an hour. Man, so many creative American creations of sushi, but I loved it! Like this one was called like “Crunchy rice” and it had like tuna? cucumber, like tobio eggs, and a fried chunk of rice on top with some sauce?! OMGGGGGGGggggg
victoria and roxy and sushi
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We have a lot in common! I’m so excited to hang out more!

It’s nice not working a full-time job. But I kind of am…. it’s weird. Like now. I don’t wanna go out, I’m too tired from training.

:/ At least while I still have savings in my bank account…
I worked super hard at my job and saved hard for 8 years for this.

watching my TUF fight

Posted in fight on September 26th, 2013 by roxyfighter

This episode of TUF was bittersweet for me. I really enjoyed what they showed of the house and our antics, such as me making Plato, and the nerf gun. It was cool hearing what other people said about me. Anthony’s comments were so funny, skillfully spliced in with footage of me being just as he said.

However, I was less than satisfied with my own performance. I was a little gassed coming into the second round, with muscle failure in my legs. In training in the TUF house, I wasn’t able to do my normal cardio routine of running stairs. There were no stairs. I can’t run on the treadmill because of a back injury. I just didn’t have another alternate cardio routine, but I should have figured one out. I guess it’s my fault….?

I started looking sloppy in the fight, and I’m really disappointed in that. I want to show just as solid and crisp technique as any other UFC fighter. At least I kept fighting until I literally couldn’t stand anymore. I’m grateful for the ref for giving me every chance to continue to fight.

Thanks to all of you for being supportive of me and nice. Some people say that I’m too nice and past my prime and I should quit. Well, I’m not ready to quit yet. I just joined a new team, and I’m determined to get back into the cage at a higher level than I was before.

I’ve been super bummed out all week, but of course I couldn’t let on. It started last week with me hearing my own scream on TV on the previews for the UFC. I hadn’t even remembered that had happened, and I heard it and was like “sh*t, that’s my voice!”
It kept occupying my mind during training, but I did a decent job ignoring it and training hard. The loss is still fresh, and even worse after I rewatched it. I kept getting painful flashbacks of my fight during training, that I lost my cool a bunch of times, and had to hide in the bathroom for a while to compose myself. I have to keep reminding myself, “The more I gas in practice, the less I’ll gas in the fight. The more it hurts now, the more I’ll grow.”

I felt embarrassed I cried so much in front of Jessica, as I mentioned here.
link to post-episode blog I wanted to do it LATER. And I didn’t mean to push Miesha away when she was trying to help me walk. I meant to say “let me walk” but it came out “let me be.” Sorry, that came out wrong.

Well, I can’t talk about the future yet. The future hasn’t been set yet! But I still have to train hard. I’m so grateful to my new team, coach, and friends here in Vegas.

It’s September 26th. I move to my new, permanent apartment on October 1st!

This morning I feel like I’m going to break in half, so I’m going to take the day off. Which is weird, since I don’t have a job to refocus on… I miss teaching. :/

On my birthday, I played with Jessica Rakoczy & son in the park

Posted in amusing, friends, fun, training on September 24th, 2013 by roxyfighter

Jessica Rakoczy (pronounced “ra-KO-zee”) is a very special lady. We fought each other during our time in the TUF house, but before and after, we knew we’d be homies forever. She lives in Las Vegas! So after both of our training sessions this morning, we met up and hung out! First, we had to pick up some food, so we went to a supermarket. Her son Jesse kept wanting to buy a balloon, and she said to him, “But it’s not your birthday!” I pipped up, “No, it’s mine!” She was like “WHAAAT?” and insisted on buying both of us balloons, me lunch, and chocolate cupcakes. LOL
say cheese 2

We went to the park and jungle gym to try to chat, but Jesse kept begging for attention instead of playing. “He’s quite a handful,” she said. “All the time, he’s like this. I take him everywhere with me.”
jessica cupdates
btw do you like my Tussle shirt? support me by buying it here! 😀
Tussle Fight Gear website

Man, how does she train? It seem so exhausting! She’s a single mother. Her son is four. Just watching them, I can see that she is a really good mother. I already respected her, but it went to a whole new level seeing her run around playing with her son in the park, already exhausted from a tough work-out with her coach earlier in the day. She never gets a break. She’s remarkable.

jessica and jessy
I really enjoyed our time together. We talked about the episode we’re both in (because we get sneak peeks so we’ve seen it already) and about life in general.

Then I played on the slides!! 😀 I mean, I played with her son on the slides. Then I went on the swings!! I mean, I played on the swings with Jesse. THEN I climbed on the rock wall….! With Jesse. And this funky rotating bar-swing thingie?!
roxy and jessy swinging
I had so much fun. I was SO tired. Dude, I got tired before her kid! We decided to call it a day, and Jesse started pouting. hahaha This is why I’m not gonna have a kid while I’m still a fighter.

Oh yeah, watch us fight tomorrow on The Ultimate Fighter on Fox Sports 1 at 7 PM PT / 10 PM EST. 😀 😀 😀

Oh yeah, it’s my 31st birthday! 😀 I don’t care about the number…I just don’t want my body to start failing me so I can’t do MMA anymore. A fighter’s time is limited, right? But thanks to sports Chiropractor supreme Jacob Steckel, my back is feeling awesome. I sparred the whole time and it didn’t hurt a bit! Another body part was hurting for a few days, but once practice started, I didn’t even feel it, so I just went on it. I dunno about wrestling tomorrow…but today was awesome. I noticed some things about my balance, I landed a sweet move! And I threw some stuff that didn’t land, but I think at least my form was correct. I’m so motivated right now.

I just keep repeating to myself… The harder something is, the more you grow. The more something hurts now, the stronger you’ll get later. In some way or another. Excluding injury obviously.

But I managed to finish class and do that one last round with Ricky, which I wasn’t gonna do. Then Heather told me not to do it. So I had to do it. Hahahaha

And then everyone in the class punched me twice in the stomach for my birthday. 😀
And Heather and her boyfriend gave me cute little panda bags! I feel so loved! I’m so lucky to have found a great team and made great friends here in Vegas!
panda bag

Look at my new awesome Tussle shirts ! :D

Posted in Uncategorized on September 23rd, 2013 by roxyfighter

I’m so excited! I love my sponsor Tussle Fight Gear’s designs, and Slade (Owner) just sent me moreeeeeeeeee!

tussle red t shirt
(click to enlarge)

And these bras are good, I’ve had from a while back!
tussle sports bra
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If any of you guys buy any Tussle, you are actually supporting me, because I get money from Tussle in sponsorship! 🙂

Tussle Website
Just take a look! They have men’s and women’s styles.

I even have a sticker on Lee! (Slade, I expected a ‘bumper sticker.’ THIS IS NOT A BUMPER STICKER, hahaha)
tussle sticker on car