Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

Last week (kids BJJ tourney, training, Thxgvng) TUF 26 ep 11 blog

Posted in every day, fight, friends, fun, training, Ultimate Fighter/UFC on November 24th, 2017 by roxyfighter

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Last Saturday my friend Serena and I coached our jiujitsu students at a tournament. Scarlett ended up fighting the same girl twice and won both times, giving her first place! I don’t know why my other student Griffin decided he didn’t want to compete…. his older brother did but didn’t win. They all fought hard, though.

She immediately got o-soto-gari, got side control, got mount, and worked for the choke. Couldn’t finish it, though, so won on points.

She’s soooooooo cute. She’s small and quiet for her age (I think she’s 6, almost 7?), so I’m glad she’s doing something like jiujitsu.

My friend who I met in Japan Brittany came and visited Vegas, and we had lunch together while she was here! 😀

I promise to keep in touch better, Buri-chan! I’ve missed you.

Training this week has been really really good. I’ve been really giving all I’ve got and can feel myself improving and getting stronger every day.
Part of last week and the week before, John was in Australia cornering Jessy….by the way CONGRATULATIONS, JESSY JESS! She was signed to fight Vanessa Porto in Invicta, but then got a short-notice offer to face Bec Rawlings in the UFC, so she took the opportunity. I was really impressed with her performance!

I thought she fought really well, and earned a unanimous decision, not the split that they gave her. But whatever, a win is a win and the fight speaks for itself. It was exciting and she landed more hard strikes, plus good ground control. I had fallen asleep due to Roxalepsy on Serena’s parent’s floor waiting for it to come on, but woke right up when she came on. Good job.

So I want to thank Captain for coming in on Monday just to coach me while John wasn’t here. Word cannot express how grateful I am for the support.

And everyone else at Team Syndicate, like Jordan and Adam, who take time to teach me stuff, or work with me on the side.
Yesterday I had Thanksgiving dinner with Serena and her family. Thank you for including me! <3 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ oookay on to The Ultimate Fighter. This episode was all about Barb vs Nicco. I have so much respect for both these athletes! Nicco is my teammate and slept on the bunk above me. Barb is a fellow-early-riser and I consider her one of my biggest rivals in my MMA career. I wanted to fight Barb so badly from the very beginning, and was wondering how they would seed us. I knew I'd have to make it to the end in order to get to face her. The episode started out showing footage of the prank Eddie pulled on Justin with parking the car. I had wondered about that because I hadn't been there for it! See, that's my kind of prank. Harmless but mischievous. Well done, Eddie. It's funny that they used footage of the PI in like the second week we were there. I know this because I only worked out there once, because we had to go on our rest day, so I avoided doing Strength and Conditioning on my only day off after a massage which I desperately needed. They show me pushing the sled, and they also show Lauren with Team Alvarez.

I love how you can see our art gallery! DeAnna and Shana requested colored pencils and paper and left it on the dining room table, so everybody drew stuff in their free time.

Actually, Sarj and I fought on the same day, right before Nicco and Barb, but for some reason, the TUF crew decided to show their fight first. You can see me cutting weight in the back by hitting pads with Luke. haha

So lots of interviews and then they fought!

The fight went everywhere! There was a lot of clinch fighting and cage wrestling. In the end, Nicco did more and got the decision win. I was actually watching from across the room in the shadows, because after my fight, they made me sit off to the side where I wouldn’t be in any camera shots.

Tune in next week for the final episode and to see my fight with Sijara! There are some other things I’d like to write about, but I’m not sure if it’s gonna be shown, so I have to wait so I don’t reveal anything too soon. 🙂

TUF 26 ep 10 blog – Life in the TUF house, Barb vs Rachael, Nicco vs Montana

Posted in Uncategorized on November 20th, 2017 by roxyfighter

8/11 I fought the previous day, but today, it’s fight day for Nicco and Montana. I didn’t know which of them would win. I like them both and they are both skilled, but I suppose I hope Nicco wins since I’m a bit closer to her. Montana was my favorite sparring partner, though. I never really like to try to analyze and make guesses on fights… I’m not good at it, and really, anything can happen in a fight. It’s like a gamble.

I had a really hard time sleeping last night. Not sure if it was the caffeine I took at 1 PM for my fight, or just the exhilaration of the fight. I never sleep more than an hour of dozing off the night of a fight, but this time it was in the afternoon so I thought I might sleep. It could also be the tension of watching and knowing my next opponent. Man, this weight cut is hard on Sarj. How could she make 125 for the title of she has to cut her hair every time to make 126? I worry about her health.

I had ordered sushi for a victory dinner a day in advance, but it hadn’t come. I was really disappointed and was complaining about it to my friends. Then one of the producers came out and apologized, and I felt bad and like a petty brat because I forgot they could hear everything I said on my necklace microphone. ~_~; I ended up eating veggies, eggs, and a bite of chicken for dinner, which is the most pathetic victory dinner I’ve ever eaten. I would have to fight in one week, though…. I ended up figuring out how to fire up the portable firepit table outside and made some smores! Nicco, Gillian, and Karine joined me joined me. That was nice and fun and finally felt like a celebration. I had trouble relaxing, but that helped.

I had been feeling a little queezy, actually. And my body was getting its period on and off for the past two weeks.
I know for a fact that it means my body still feels a little messed up from the weight cut- the stress and low percentage of body fat. I couldn’t eat a lot even if I wanted to.

That was yesterday, the day of my fight. This day I woke up at 2 AM and cooked rice and eggs plus broccoli I swiped from the fight catering that they bring us on fight days. I couldn’t sleep, so at 3:30 AM I sat at the kitchen table and drew two Japanese hanafuda cards with the colored pencils Shana and DeAnna requested from the House Fairies.

They came out not perfect, but pretty enough to make me happy. I posted one of them above, along with the original. Then I cleaned the kitchen and did a few loads of towels. During that time, an air conditioner on one side of the house broke, so one of the producers Mr. C came out and offered everyone fans, since it was really hot in the dead of summer. At 3 AM. I can’t believe he was still up! What a guy…. “I leave when my work is done.” Much respect to that. That’s why the show is such high quality! I went then outside and lay outside on the hammock under the stars. But I still wasn’t sleepy! Karine came out and we talked a bit.

Finally, I lay down around 5 AM and woke up around 6:30 AM. YAY more sleep.

The staff wanted to film me turning over Shana’s picture on the tournament line-up board and putting up Emily’s but I politely refused. I didn’t want to. It just felt sad to me. I mean, she already lost and felt sad about it, so to see footage of her opponent flipping it over is even more sad, right? I didn’t like it. I had to appeal to the upper level bosses, but it got okayed that I didn’t have to do it! 😀 They had been filming all of us doing that, but I don’t think they put any of that footage in after all. 🙂

Rachael vs Barb was super competitive. I honestly thought Rachael won the first round, and Barb won the second. I was surprised it didn’t go to a third! Their stand-up was back and forth.

Barb actually shot on Rachael, which surprised me since she knew Rachael was a wrestler, but got the take-downs! Rachael defended well and shook her off her back a lot. In the second round, Barb managed to keep top position and GnP more.
Nicco vs Montana was intense. Nicco was just so tough, moving well and cutting angles well. Montana shot in but Nicco defended the single well in the center and against the cage. Then Nicco kneed Montana, opening up a cut, took her down, and GnP. We all went “oooh” and kind of watched while wincing. It was a really hard fight for us to watch. Our team was kind of close. Nicco did what she needed to do, though. Much respect to her for that. Nicco ended up winning the decision. Phew man.

I was really impressed with everyone- what hard-fought battles!

That night, our coaches brought over 30 inch pizzas from Brother’s Italian Bistro (near Syndicate!) It looked normal but it was seriously the best pizza I’ve ever eaten!! I dunno, just the flavor and crust and cheese and omg! I had two small pieces but was sad I couldn’t chow down since I was cutting weight still. Like constantly cutting weight. ;_; We hung out with them, played charades, and went to bed when they left.

It’s crazy to look around the room at our team and realize that everyone but me and Nicco have lost. I used to be one of those fighters, just miserably waiting for the season to end, eating whatever I wanted, not caring about weight, wishing I could be back with my friends and family. I still had work to do, though.

In training the other day, we got one of the staff to cover up logos on Vinny’s gi (because logos are not allowed to be visible) and I rolled with him! It felt so amazing to train in the gi again! I had been going three times a week, and missed it. Jiujitsu makes me happy. He powered out of all my attacks, but it was funny. I couldn’t do anything but I tried, and it was hilarious. I got out of a bow-and-arrow submission, though. That was my achievement of the day. He took the time to now and then point out mistakes I made, or good ways to do some escape or attack. That was the best! It was so interested and really helpful. That’s my favorite way to learn jiujitsu, to point stuff out as it happens because I can understand the situation.

That really helped rejuvenate me mentally. Thanks, Vinny!

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hard but amazing week, and TUF 26 ep 9

Posted in fight, Ultimate Fighter/UFC on November 12th, 2017 by roxyfighter

This past week was hard because I started to catch a cold the previous Friday. I managed to rest and recover so I didn’t get a fever or anything, but I felt so drained and exhausted all of last week.

I still trained, of course, because I wasn’t in the contagious stage anymore. I had many great practices. I improved my jiujitsu with my private lessons with Captain. Man, I always feel like I level up after training with him. Did mittwork with John, always improving all aspects of my game. I feel so confident. Serena helped me with a shark tank with him in the cage, which is intensive training including striking, grappling, cage-work, and ground and pound. Serena helps me so much in training! I’m really appreciative. Lorenzo has helped me get stronger and get in great shape. I love him!

Last week my second fight aired on The Ultimate Fighter! I did an interview with the Las Vegas Review Journal with Heidi found here:
and then FOX sports flew me to Los Angeles to be on TUF talk! I did shark tank in the morning and hurried to the airport after that. I was so exhausted from training, plus my body finishing up killing my cold, but I think it was good for me to be on the show. It was such a cool experience!

A professional make-up artist did my make up…. I told her “natural.”

I had a dressing room with a star next to my name, next to Karyn Bryant! I got to talk to Daniel Cormier! I got to show off my Spiderman socks and explain my collection on national tv. hahaha!

The episode had my fight, Sarj vs DeAnna, and then what happened with the weight cut. Everyone was asking me what I thought of Lauren’s actions. Man, Lauren is taking a lot of heat right now. I kind of feel bad for her.
Yes, I think it was okay that she and like 5 other people started cutting weight. Yes, I think she should have vacated the sauna earlier when Sarj asked her to. BUT she apologized later. People make mistakes. All you can do is apologize for them, right? Lauren REALLY tried so hard to be cool with everybody, fighters on both teams, and the coaches, too. She was always polite when talking to people. She never exploded angrily and cussed anybody out, except when Eddie called her the wrong name. She wanted to win so badly! She wanted to fight so badly!
I also understand Sarj’s perspective, too. It’s upsetting to have someone trying to vie for your spot and opportunity, and she did have one more hour.

Unfortunately, there was only one sauna. AND only one scale.

Guys, it’s so rough to be in the TUF House. It’s a pressure cooker and there is no escape. You literally can not leave. You have no emotional support unless you made close friends while on the show. Someone on Twitter once said that my TUF blogs sounded negative, and what was wrong?

It’s REALLY HARD and not exactly pleasant to be locked away with no freedom, having to do exactly what the staff tell you to do, without your team, etc. I wanted my team, my gym, Taco Bell, my anime, my friends, everything. At least I had my pillow! Actually, this experiences wasn’t that bad for ME. The staff were really polite and bent over backwards to do what they could to make us comfortable and happy within the limits of their power. I’m really grateful for all their efforts.

I never like calling fights. When someone asks me who I think will win, I never really am convinced anyone will win. Anyone can beat anyone at any given time! Even if you analyze their skills and strengths. I fought Jessica Rakoczy on Season 18 She was 1-2 as a pro MMA fighter and beat me, and I was like 15-9 or something, I forget.

I know who I WANT to win. I really liked Sarj but I knew DeAnna personally from before so I wanted her to advance. I always just tell the questioners that my friend will win. lol I was so shocked at that head kick KO! It was…stunning. I thought Sarj was a boxer. Whelp, I guess she can kick, too! Damn! Well, I kind of didn’t want to fight DeAnna again because I had already fought her and won, but on the other hand I thought I would win again so that would be good…but I didn’t want her to LOSE to Sarj, which would be what would have to happen for us to NOT fight again.

That was a long sentence. Did you get that? lol

There were actually two fights that day. I had gone first, so I got to watch the second one from off to the side in the corner near the doctor check area.

About my fight, I knew Emily had skills. I thought I probably had more since I’d been training for longer. She also only fought at 115, so I figured I wouldn’t get out-muscled. I can’t say I thought I’d be stronger, because physical strength is not one of my strengths. (is that… a pun? not sure. moving on…)

When I got out there….man, I missed Coach John’s voice in my ear telling me what good combinations to throw.

He is the gamer. I am his character. He shouts it, I throw it. We are connected. It’s really cool. This time, I just kind of did my striking by instinct… for better or for worse! I did hear Luke Caudillo (on Team Gaethje) who gave pretty good advice which I followed. Of course when playing any video game, you gotta get used to the controls. He did a great job for a fighter he’d only been training for three weeks. I heard Vinny’s voice perfectly, and he did a fantastic job of jiujitsu cornering. I’m so grateful to them. I think I would have gone nuts if I hadn’t met Luke, who holds pads and coaches similar to John. He also took the time to give me reassuring talks. So grateful.

Maia was always by my side during weight cut, and helping me warm up before my fight. Thank you, my friend! I miss you! <3
Anyway, I had never actually trained with Emily ONCE because she hurt her rib right as I was getting back to training after my first fight. She probably saw me doing my spinning backfist stuff while she was training elsewhere. I complimented her on her ducking under it and shooting later, and she said, “I saw you thinking about it.” That’s kind of a cool statement.

No, that was not the Roxynado. I gotta be more careful in the future that people don’t read my super attacks.

One interviewer asked me if I felt her giving up in the fight. Um, no? I wasn’t really trying to sense her feelings. I was just trying to hit her as much as I could so the ref would stop the fight. People online are saying I suddenly am “vicious” or have a “new killer instinct.” I don’t really think so… I just know how to throw ground and pound better thanks to Coach John. It was one week after my fight against Mariana Morais in Invicta, where I was hitting her and hitting her and Big John McCarthy WOULD NOT STOP THE FIGHT. He whispered to me in the corner walking by, “You’re not hitting hard enough.” So I said to Coach John later, “Please teach me how to ground and pound better so the ref stops the fight so I don’t have to keep hitting her” And oh he did.

Once in the cage, I’m switched on. I’m no longer kind “Roxy,” I’m “Warrior” in The Happy Warrior, who has struggled, sweat, cried, bled, and bore the pain to get where she is now, to win, to prove herself. I feel no emotions in the cage until time is up.

I’m glad I won. I was just so relieved.

oh btw what was with not showing my weigh in clothes? Maia did my make up, and I wore her black dress which was SUPER tight because it was two sizes too small for me….. and I pretended like I didn’t wanna take it off. It had a zipper down the front. I am shy so it was hard for me, but that was my ‘weigh in dress up’ deal I did. Oh well….

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TUF 26 blog ep 8 – Emily vs Christina, coaches’ challenge

Posted in Ultimate Fighter/UFC on November 4th, 2017 by roxyfighter


Today is Saturday. Yesterday in the morning, I was still sore, and was so happy when Justin said it was a day for privates. I hit mitts with Luke for about 15 or 20 minutes in the ring, out of view from Emily, who was on the bike which is pointed towards the cage. Luke held foam bats to warm up. It was my first time hitting those. I liked the combos he had me throw.

Then, I did jiujitsu with Justin. Haha He let me get him in a full rear naked choke but his neck was so thick that I couldn’t choke him. He just flexed his neck muscles. I used all of the strength in my entire body and I couldn’t tap him! Captain does that to me! LOL It was funny.

This episode shows a lot of the history of Christina and Emily. I remember Emily said that she will be champion because she doesn’t have other things to distract her, like a family or kids etc. I agree in part with that, that if you are single and focused only on training, you aren’t distracted by other things or responsibilities.

Ask me how I know this. 🙂

It really sounds like she overcame a lot to make it this far in her MMA career! She’s 2-1 as a pro, but Dana said she had 10 amateur fights, which don’t seem to be all on Sherdog. Ask me how I know this. (I researched her and Christina and a few others just before the staff took my phone before I went into the house. I saw how scrappy, quick, and dangerous on the ground she was!)
I actually watched this fight online in the hotel room…

Emily’s like, “Hi, I’m gonna smash your face now.”

I also saw Christina, who seemed to have a lot of power, but lead with her kicks a lot. I was watching this fight with great interest since I would have to fight the winner. I thought that if the fight was drawn out and Emily was hit in the rib, Christina might win, but if Emily got her down, she might win. I didn’t want to fight Emily because 1) she was on my team, and 2) I would feel bad and conflicted knowing she was injured. But I also didn’t want her to LOSE, which would have to happen if I were to fight Christina.

Soooo I just tried to not care about anything except my own condition.

Emily did the smart thing and used the techniques she does best to take Christine down and submit her. I was super impressed! I was so happy for her that she overcame her injury and won. I immediately felt better about fighting her, but thought, “Crap,” at the same time. Mentally I could see how dangerous she was, so I knew I wouldn’t hold back when we had to fight. I always feel bad for someone in a short fight, because they didn’t get to show all they were capable of doing, like Christina this time.

Oh well, such is the fight game.

The coaches challenge wasn’t that interesting. I hate to offend anyone in charge of putting it together, but I was hoping for something unusual or weird, like dropping watermelons out of a helicopter onto a target, or jousting above pools of water…..

My shoulders and neck get sore after swimming for a while, and Justin wasn’t a swimmer. I thought Eddie might swim a bit. So we pretty much watched our coaches suffer for a while, and I was cutting weight so everyone around me was eating. I just felt bad for them both.

About Lauren changing teams….I’m glad she did. I can see both sides, how Eddie would be offended, but how Lauren is trying to do what’s best for her. She really made a big effort to talk to the girls on both teams and make sure it was ‘okay’ with them. She tried hard to be polite to Eddie, too. I mean, it’s natural that he gets upset, so I think that was unavoidable, and took guts on Lauren’s part.

Well, you gotta have guts if you’re a fighter. We were happy to have Lauren train with us. I like her. I know she was trying to keep her weight low just in case she had to step in due to an injury or weight-miss. Hey, every woman for herself in The House.

Read Lauren’s blog for her recounting of the situation:

I’m so excited that my second fight will finally be shown next Wednesday. Tune in!