Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

I’m so so so excited to fight next week!! and stuff

Posted in fight on March 23rd, 2017 by roxyfighter

I am really really REALLY excited for my fight.

Every person has different reasons for competing. An MMA fighter has feelings in general about fighting, and then each fight feels a little different. For example, I compete in MMA first and foremost to test my ability and strength against my opponent, and prove that I can win. Then comes how I feel about each individual fight. I fought Sarah Kaufman in Strikeforce for the 135 lb title for that reason PLUS I wanted the belt and to prove that I was the best in the world in my weight division. Then, while I was on my 5-fight losing streak, my desire to fight changed to, “I just want to win a fight.”

My motivation for my third fight against Tara LaRosa was, “Now that I’ve changed my ENTIRE LIFE by quitting my job, leaving Japan, and training with the best coach I’ve ever met, can I still win in MMA?”

Yep, thanks to John and team Syndicate.
I try to not let myself get excited about belts or titles or rankings, although I’d be lying if I said I didn’t care at all. I have belts. I have three.


As we fighters gain various experiences in life, losing, winning, injuries, trips to places, relationships with people, our motivations come and go and change. As Coach John likes to say, nobody is forcing us to do this. Nobody is holding a gun to my head saying, “You have to fight in a cage!” I could get a different job, do jiujitsu for fun, whatever. Sometimes training is painful and sucks. We cry, barf, bleed, and agonize mentally over what we couldn’t manage to do.

We also cry tears of joy, rejoice, and celebrate things we are able to do, and especially, difficult things we BECOME ABLE to do after hard work.

Just because you train hard doesn’t mean you’ll win, but if you don’t train hard, you’ll never win.

When a fighter loses a fight and writes about it on social media, many people comment, “Don’t worry, it’s a learning experience!” “You win or you learn!” “You’ll be glad in the future!” or something. Yeah, it’s true we learn from our losses, but a fighter who loses is temporarily devastated. They SHOULD be devastated. This is because they put their heart and soul into going after their dream and they failed. It’s NOT “okay” to lose, especially on the pro level. This is a very unforgiving sport. People can get cut from the UFC after one loss,right? We want money and status to get our next fight. The day after the fight, it’s not a good time to read these things. However, a fighter DOES learn from their loss. We have to make the best of it, right? So yes, a loss is a learning experience but I’m never “glad” when I lose. when I lost fights, I thought to myself, “I have so much more I can do! Why did I lose?” and then I went about trying to fix it and strengthen my weaknesses.

I told one of my kid students this the other day when he started crying because he got frustrated. I said, “It’s okay to be upset that you didn’t win. That’s good – it means you are trying really hard and you care about jiujitsu. But you have to stay calm, keep fighting, and learn how to get better the next time.”

Smile and carry on.

My loss to Porto was REALLY really rough, and I was not okay. But I became okay, trained my butt off, and got better.

When I lost my title fight loss against Jennifer Maia, it was so weird. I felt that searing fiery pain in my heart from failing to win, but also a heady joy that I landed so many techniques successfully that I’ve been working on. I was okay with the contents of the fight, just not the outcome.


John told me that I needed to do more physical conditioning and get a little stronger. I started doing gi jiujitsu again, A) because I love jiujitsu B) because the pulling and that style of fighting strengthens my upper body and legs. I also found Lorenzo who I’ve been working with once a week every week since January. He’s been pushing for more but I literally cannot add anymore physical activity to my schedule.

I did a shark tank with John and Serena yesterday and John said this is the best shape he’s ever seen me in. I’m so excited.

I could go out there and still lose. There are no guarantees. Fighters have to know that they are not invincible. But I feel so great, so ready, so prepared. I have so many techniques I want to try. My opponent seems tough but I know I can win if I fight well.

I really can’t wait. I wish it were next week already! I just wanna go and do it! My weight is good. I want sushi and nachos. x_x

If you are relatively near Billings, Montana, please go see my fight in Fusion Fight League! While you’re at it, you could always “like” their facebook page. XD
https://www.facebook.com/fflmma/
I think it might be payperviewed on the internet… more info to come soon!

I’ve gotten some sponsors for this fight. Thank you!!
Remove it Restoration

Dragon Do Fight Gear

Aardvark Painting and Rob Hamilton

Cryohelmet

Jenkins Jiu-jitsu, an academy in El Paso, TX!
My Consumer I.T. and Bill.

The Void and Katie “Bad Wolf”!
Justin Taylor
Dominate your Game
Herbal Papaya
wetdryvac.net my webmaster

I have a fight! my training, sponsors, etc

Posted in every day, fight, friends, training on March 14th, 2017 by roxyfighter

I’m so excited I have a fight coming up! I’m still under contract with Invicta but they allowed me to take this fight with Fusion Fight League. It wasn’t easy finding an opponent, but finally Priscila De Souza was finalized.

It’s in Montana and won’t be televised, so you gotta go buy tickets! Serena was also given a fight on the amateur section! That’s pretty cool a card can have both, and how often do a a pro-friend and ammy friend get to fight on the same day?

Actually I wish we weren’t because I’m super emotionally involved in her fight and I get really nervous. But I guess it can’t be helped at this point. :/ I’m trying to be positive about it.

It’s gonna be fine. John’s gonna take care of us so I won’t be nervous. She’s been trying to get a fight for a while now, too. She has improved SO Much. I can’t wait to see her fight again!

I’m going with Coach John, and I’m flying in Captain because each team gets only one cornerman paid for. Most promotions have that rule.

You might see me posting about sponsorship. I don’t know how aware the average fan is, but the sponsorship scene has changed so much over the years I’ve been fighting. Back in the day like 10 years ago when the UFC was shown once every month or every two months, the fighters got thousands of dollars for wearing brand name shorts like Sprawl, Tapout, Affliction, etc. Then the market got saturated with fighters and brands and the companies realized that they weren’t making enough money back from such advertisement to justify spending such big money. So they cut back. And got picky with which fighters. Many fighters didn’t make an effort to show off their sponsors before and after the fights. Sometimes, fighters’ money they made from sponsorship was greater than their fight purse! I’m taking like over $50,000! Then the Reebok deal happened and UFC fighters were no long allowed to wear sponsors and only got like $2,500. From $50,000 to $2,500. Crazy, huh?

So my manager stopped being able to find me any good sponsors, and I started seeing fellow fighters posting on Facebook, ‘Who wants to sponsor me? E-mail me!” I thought, well, why don’t I try it?

And I started getting sponsors! Fans who owned small companies would give me some cash to put their logo on my clothes. Fans who didn’t own a company would contribute to put their name on my shorts or banner to show support. It adds up. In my last four fights in Invicta, I can say that other than Dragon Do, Cryohelmet, and Herbal Papaya, every single one of my sponsors was a fan. Well actually, the owner of Herbal Papaya contacted me because she was a fan. I am fan sponsored!

Crazy…

But I think I’m good for unique companies like Herbal Papaya and Cryohelmet because I do have a large social media following and they have unique products that are specifically good for me and the people who follow me. Everybody already has shorts. But do you have a product that can boost your immunity and help digestion like Herbal Papaya, or sooth headaches and migraines like Cryohelmet?!?

Someone suggested starting a gofundme account, but honestly, I wouldn’t do that because I’m not broke and I don’t wanna seem like I’m begging for money. No one is forcing me to fight. I do it because I love it. So I wanna do things that people will enjoy, like making my autographs accessible to buy, or putting someone’s name on my banner which will be shown on TV. 🙂

(click to enlarge)

removeitrestoration.com is one of my biggest, most consistent sponsors!
They’re also sponsoring Serena, Captain, and Naldo, so we took a group picture wearing their patches.

And this is me at this very moment typing this blog, wearing one of my two Cryohelmets.

(btw if you use the code: ROXYFIGHTER on the Cryohelmet website you get 15% off for the next month)

Anyway. So if you wanna buy this autographed photo, you can paypal $25 to basilisk875@yahoo.com and include your address! Or if you are interested in more, email me. And because money isn’t everything, even emailing me a “good luck” will make me super happy. 😀

I realized today that I started out this week with a faulty mentality. Last week I overworked myself to the point where I got sick, so I told myself this week I would take it down a notch. Also, John is away cornering Jessy in South Korea, and I’m super unmotivated to do striking when he’s not around. Today, while trying to do kickboxing, I realized that I mentally gave myself an out, so I tried to rev myself back up. However, I think I was still a little burned out from last week because I didn’t even feel aggressive while doing jiu-jitsu, and that’s rare.

I had such a headache that got worse after warm-ups, that every time I was hit, contact or blocked, my head would pound. Then everytime I landed a strike, namely on the heavy bag, my head felt like it was going to explode. It freaked me out because I’ve gotten a concussion before, and even though I KNOW today was just a neck-tension headache, I felt horrible.

Training to become a champion on your worst days, right?
I really wanted to go home after jiujitsu but didn’t.

Despite hating striking in general when John isn’t here, I actually really liked Tom’s ideas he was communicating today. I was trying to hard to give myself a goal during training, and ended up giving myself poor ones: don’t let my kicks get caught, and work on feints. They were poor because I didn’t specify how many kicks or how many feints, like “make someone bite on my feint successfully five times.” This locked me into a 100% success ratio expectation, so when someone caught a kick, I felt like I had failed. As I was getting my Cryohelmet out of John’s freezer in his office to try and recover a bit between rounds 2 and 3, I felt like such a loser and failure. Then I asked myself, “Okay, so how many times did you actually do it?” I looked back and realized that I had succeeded quite a lot, but my brain conveniently forgot about those times. I did a lot of good stuff, but my emotions weren’t giving me credit for them.

In the middle of the 4th round, I was going with Tony. Suddenly I heard Captain’s voice erupt from my right, “Let’s GO Roxy!”

I literally felt power enter my body. It was crazy, and very interesting.
He’s training for his own fight so he hadn’t come in today for class, but came in to hit mitts with Naldo.

I am very affected by 1) my trainers’ presences 2) music
I’m also 100% certain I could have ignored my headache a bit more if Rob Zombie was playing rather than the dumb rap and slow instrumentals that have been on in John’s absence.

Oh yeah, I didn’t tell about Tom’s goals yet. So he had us do combos but notice our how opponent blocks, or reacts. Then try and feint them and throw something else. It seems so simple, but we don’t often focus on JUST noticing specific patterns of our training partners. So I gave up my two goals and for the last two rounds adopted those, and man! I had so much success! Then Tom had us do rounds of only power punches.

I’m really proud of myself, despite feeling mentally sluggish and having a headache, I still got great practice in.

I canceled my Portuguese lesson today and I’m so glad, I can just lay down. I actually went food shopping instead. x_x and mailed out some autographs. Wait, so that means I’m not actually resting? I’m SO BAD AT RESTING. I need someone to lock me in my apartment. x_x

My Brazilian Brother Naldo held mitts for me on Monday. I really only want John to hold mitts for me, but I’ve found that if I don’t hit mitts on Monday, it doesn’t rev up my brain for kickboxing and I’m super unmotivated to do it for the rest of the week. Plus I was curious about Naldo, because I saw him holding for another teammate. I enjoyed my session with him! I really need to have a friendship or connection with my mitt holder to help motivate me to do it. -_- That’s another reason I asked him.

Thanks!!

This past Sunday, I made plans with Thais (my Portuguese teacher and Captain’s wife) to go to this Brazilian restaurant Boca do Brasil, and Captain came along. It was really nice! Great food, and the garlic didn’t make me melt since I’m a vampire. (i.e. give me an upset stomach)

Captain got a short-notice fight in World Series of Fighting, so he’ll be fighting in NY this Saturday, March 18th! It’ll be shown on NBC Sports! Please watch and cheer for him! He’s on the undercard.

Also Jessy jess in South Korea vs Sarah Kaufman in Battlefront, but I don’t know how to watch that… She has also improved a ton over the recent months! I’m so excited for her to fight and win!! Go Jessy!

I’m in such great shape. I can’t wait to fight!

Jessica Bakan took this photo of me hitting mitts with John. It’s pretty cool!

NAGA tournament, students, friends, fighting

Posted in fight, friends, fun, training on February 21st, 2017 by roxyfighter

First, remember these Japanese words, they will come up later: Sempai (a senior, older team-member, upper-ranked belt); kohai (a junior, newcomer, lower-ranked belt) . In the Japanese culture, the sempai have a moral responsibility to look after the kohai.

Next, wanna say thank you to my fans who became my friends, Jack and Jan, for the lovely dinner last week at the Orleans! They play KENO in the Orleans and I first met them when I walked by them on the way to run stairs and they recognized me as a fighter. 😀 We’ve been meeting up every time they come to Vegas. My grandparents all passed away when I was a kid, so I never got to talk to them as adults. I imagine Jack and Jan would be what nice grandparents would be like. <3 It's so cool to meet new people and make friends and connections with people from all walks of life. That's really the best thing about being a fighter (besides enjoying sport fighting). Thanks for the gift cards! Gas, groceries, and Tacos are exactly...EXACTLY what I need.


You guys are geniuses. They also bought me a Keno card, which is so cool because I don’t know how to play and I’ve been interested in learning gambling, but haven’t for two reasons: I don’t wanna lose big money, and my grandfather liked gambling too much so my dad freaks out if I mention gambling.

I was fighting a sore throat all week, and after collapsing after jiujitsu on Thursday, decided not to do MMA. I went home and rested, but did Yoga that evening. I woke up Friday feeling great and went to my conditioning session with Lorenzo and smashed all the exercises! He told me it was my best effort and I did great. I told him it was probably because I took it easy yesterday and wasn’t all yoga-hung over from coming straight from hot yoga, which was draining. hah He tried to convince me that I should skip certain classes and do more conditioning. HAH as if that’d ever happen…. “Until I drop!” is my motto!
I’m in such good shape. If only I had a fight…. I could fight next week! (if I lose a few pounds)

This past Saturday, I coached at the NAGA jiujitsu tournament! It’s so cool because I got all my grappling competition experience from NAGAs 15 years ago. And Kipp Kollar is still doing it! It was so cool to see him again and be involved! I mainly looked after the Garcia family kids, since I’m their main teacher.


It was easy to coach them since I taught them everything they know! (some credit goes to Enzo and Jessy, who’s awesome wrestling classes they’ve been taking ). Rick came to coach Hazel and the other teenagers, and I haven’t memorized their abilities yet, despite assisting in Rick’s class, so it wasn’t as easy. I was running around trying to listen for their names being called. At one point, I was in the middle of coaching Hazel and I saw Michael be called out on the mat ACROSS FROM ME! x_x It was like 3:30 PM and Rick had had to leave, so only Michael’s dad was there to coach him…. sorry Michael!

Phew! Just-turned-5 year old Jason lost all three of his no-gi matches on points, but won his gi match by points! He didn’t do a single thing I said. x_x
“Get your leg out of half guard or you can’t get points!” *grabs head* “Let go of his head!” *readjusts grip on head and holds*

But later he said he couldn’t hear me. I was trying to yell as loud as I could without screaming, because I don’t want my voice to crack and sound panicked and crazy….. if my coach was screaming at me, I would panic. LOL It was so loud in there, though. But Six-year-old Jose seemed to either hear me, or just naturally do what I would have said. Jose choked his no-gi opponent out with a rear-naked choke/ spine back bend move. LOL Poor kid tapped and started crying.


Then he lost his gi match on points.

Jason and Jose got swords for getting first!

It’s really hard because Jose and Jason are the best, toughest, strongest kids in class, so it’s really hard to challenge them. They always escape from bad positions even if their technique isn’t perfect because the other kids just can’t hold them there so it’s hard to teach them correctly sometimes. If I have them be partners with each other, they fight because they’re brothers. -_- Then when Gavin comes into class, Jose doesn ‘t wanna go with him. I don’t want them to get used to always winning….Big Preston did that and now doesn’t wanna train anymore when he gets tossed around in the big kids’ class. Little Preston is starting to become a challenge for them. I gotta figure something out. Maybe private lesson with a smaller older kid from the big kid’s class? hmm But I’m really glad that they lost one and won one, so they get that life experience. Hazel did, as well. Competition always makes people grow.

I told the big kid’s class this but I didn’t have the chance to tell Jose and Jason and Hazel…

It’s okay to feel upset and sad when you lose. It’s okay to take it hard. It shows that you care so much about jiujitsu. It’s okay to cry. Never tell your kids “don’t cry” at first…let them get it out, and then a few minutes later, say encouraging things. Competitors need to learn how to deal with those feelings…. feel the pain and overcome. Candy said that to me, actually, after I was devastated after my loss in November. I thought, yeah, she’s right. If you were just like “oh whatever I lost I don’t care, next time,” I think, man, does this person really want to win? If you want to win SO BADLY, you train hard and gain the skills and get better. Become stronger! I felt so ashamed and so low after my loss in November, that’s why I improved so much over these past few months because it made me put the work in.

Anyway.
Adults started at 4-ish and I was so tired already. lol
Our head professor Capitao was in Brazil, and Casey-sempai couldn’t make it. After my kids were all done, I ran around trying to locate my kohai and coached whoever I could find, like Tyler, and Kyle. Kyle was already kicking butt way before I found him! He got gold in both no-gi and gi divisions! WOW

Serena fought a girl who decided she didn’t want any of Serena’s wrestling and pulled guard. x_x


Now, Serena and I train MMA together every day, and we all know that the best way to get someone to open their guard is to smash them in the FACE. Which Serena is really good at. However, that is not allowed in jiujitsu tournaments. LOL So Serena spent like 3 and a half minutes out of 5 trying to break open this girl’s guard, and the girl kept trying to submit Serena, but Serena is very hard to submit. Dude, I can’t remember the last time I got Serena from guard. Then the ref warns Serena for stalling? what the heck? She was obviously trying to pass while defending all the sub attempts, just as the other girl was obviously trying to sub her. If the ref is getting bored, warn them both or stand them up. So Serena felt pressure and took some more chances to try a stand up pass, or something, I forget how it happened, and got triangled. x_x

Soooooo are jiujitsu tournaments useful to MMA fighters? Yes and no. I think there are some elements that are and some that aren’t. Back when I first started fighting, jiujitsu was used in MMA and that was it. Now, it’s evolved so there’s “sport jiujitsu” and “jiujitsu for MMA.” Like, I would never jump guard or do deep half guard sweeps from underneath, or give up mount to go for an arm-bar in MMA. I would, however, do side control, or mount, or armbars and triangles from guard, and butterfly sweeps, etc in MMA. Since I’ve been doing tons of Capitao’s classes, my sweeps have improved so much. So in jiujitsu tournaments you have to deal with points, guard-pullers, etc, in order to get the benefit of live combat dealing with the MMA-realm stuff. I still think it’s worth it.

When I did my tournament in Cali, it was a weird feeling and I almost didn’t feel like I did enough to win because I won by the points I got from passing guard and side control. That wouldn’t get me a win in an MMA fight, but it did in BJJ. Naldo won a NAGA belt on ONE advantage point he got, I forget out. I think a reversal of position or something like that.

So yeah, that was frustrating, but as long as you use any kind of experience as a stepping stone to go to the next level, it’s not a waste of time. That goes for good things and bad things.

I made sure I was there to support Naldo, Capitao’s friend who I made friends with, who is substitute teaching Syndicate jiujitsu classes while Capitao is away. His friend Derrik who speaks Portuguese was there, too. First he coached Naldo, but then Naldo joked later, “I don’t know what’s worse, Derrik who can speak Portuguese but doesn’t know jiujitsu, or Roxanne, who is a brown belt but can barely speak Portuguese.”

hahahahaha! I tried! Then this guy got worm guard on Naldo. I was like “OH! I know what that is! Because Casey-sempai showed me one day! BUT I have no idea how to do it myself or how to defend it!”


Naldo still won! He was so cool.


He got Gold in two gi divisions and bronze in no-gi.

This opponent, Bendi, is an MMA fighter and REALLY good at knee bars. Like, if you go with him, he WILL knee-bar you. Naldo won by one advantage point!

thanks, Eric and Beth at Remove it Restoration for sponsoring us! www.removeitrestoration.com

I won and got promoted at the BJJ tournament!

Posted in fight, friends on January 29th, 2017 by roxyfighter

Yesterday was a major day in my life.

I drove to California with my teammates and competed in a Brazilian Jiu-jitsu tournament called “Jiujitsu World League.” It’s a big tournament but not the biggest in the country or anything like that. However, it had something that other smaller, more local tournaments didn’t have…. women in my rank in my weight class! For the past two tournaments I had hoped to do, I was able to check online and no purple belt lightweight females signed up! 🙁 There are a lot of jiujitsu schools and good training in California, so there is more of a chance to be competitors there. I decided to go, and Serena wanted to come with me to support me, although not compete. My instructor Capitão heard my plans and immediately said, “I will go with you” without checking his schedule or anything. Wow, I was touched. His friend and fellow fighter Naldo was going to compete as well, but didn’t sign up in time. :/

So I had to diet for a few weeks and then cut a few pounds of water, which was stressful because I didn’t know exactly when I had to weigh in, but it turns out I could do it shortly after arriving at 11 AM. The tournament was so organized! They emailed me my competition time (3 PM) so I wouldn’t have to wait around all day, like I used to when I competed a lot 12 years ago! (12 years ago, wow lol)

on the road, at a rest stop!

So my team and I left at 1:30 Friday afternoon and arrived around 6, where my sponsors and friends Eric and Beth from Remove it Restoration www.removeitrestoration.com took us out for dinner. We ended up getting sushi. They also sponsored our hotel room!

I woke up Saturday morning and ate three granola/protein bars. That put me overweight so I did my walk/sprints/yoga warm up with my sauna suit on and sweat a TON. Also got a great stretch. That put me back on weight! I braided my hair the best I could, and got everybody moving out, checking out at 11. We drove 30 mins to the venue where I could weigh in and eat and drink up the few pounds I cut. We watched for 3 hours and I tried to pay attention and warm up my mind mentally.

This tournament felt so different than the last because last November I was trying it for the first time in 12 years. Winning wasn’t as important as finding out my level…. was I still a purple belt after all these years? I got my purple belt from Joao Amaral in 2005 and then went to Japan that year, only putting on my gi like 5 times over the 8 years I was there. My no-gi grappling got better but my gi skills faded.

I lost both my matches then. Got submitted by Raquel Pa’aluhi after a restart, which sucked because I know how to defend the bow and arrow but the restart happened so fast…. and lost on points to a girl I was dominating. I got a medal, which I almost left at the event, but decided to take it. I would hang it on my wall and look at it to remember my determination. I decided that every week I would do BJJ and MMA classes back to back on Tuesdays and Thursdays, even though I would be so tired for MMA and it would effect my performance. I decided I didn’t care and I would train until I passed out, even if it meant overtraining. I almost passed out a few times, actually. It really sucked not being able to perform as I wanted to in MMA and I couldn’t finish class a few times. But I got better at jiujitsu. I also did stuff like forearm/grip exercises because I remembered in my match my arms burned out and I felt so tired. Captain told me to climb ropes and I did and got splinters from them in my hands a few times.

Rock Lee, the original “genius of hard work,” would be proud of me. lol

I wrote about this before, but I used to think a tattered belt was cool and a sign of training hard. I made it my goal to gain the knowledge to make me worthy of a brown belt before it fell apart. Once I made that decision, however, every time I looked at my purple belt, I felt ashamed that I couldn’t do better and time pressure, so I dunno if that was a good mindset. lol

At least once a week I sat alone before class with scissors, trimming the threads that hung off so it would look neater at least, and I felt like crap. I want to be better!

When Casey, our gym manager announced a belt testing date in a few months, my heart felt troubled. I didn’t want my teacher to feel obligated to give me anything because there’s a date set. I know for other people it can be nice extra motivation and something to work towards, but …. not for me. At this point, I can’t really judge my skills other than see who I can beat and who I can’t. What if I know a ton of techniques but can’t always do them live? Or what if I don’t know a ton of techniques but I can do a bunch really really well and win? What makes a purple belt a brown belt?

So anyway, this time my mentality was different. I wanted to win so badly. I was so hungry for the win. I felt like listening to Rob Zombie and the songs I usually do before a fight. I felt focused, like I do before a fight. My last tournament loss devastated me just like a fight did. It was a jagged pill to swallow a few weeks after my title fight loss, but I knew what I had to do and I did it. My guts were in knots just like before an MMA fight. I went out there….and things didn’t go the way I had imagined, actually. I was determined not to get sucked into their guards, but both girls managed to get me in theirs before I could try and take-down.

The first girl played closed guard.

I heard Captain shouting “Grab her lapel and her sleeve!” I got her lapel, but couldn’t get her sleeve. Then I got her sleeve but lost her lapel. Then I got both and started working on breaking open her guard but she off-balanced me and I had to let go of something to brace and keep my base, and couldn’t get both sleeve and lapel…for like 3 minutes. LOL Finally I broke her guard with a standing knee in butt pass and passed and got side control!! That got me three points. She managed to get a sort of half guard and tried to sweep but I wouldn’t let her. I was running out of time and tried the choke I was going over with Casey just before, but knew I wouldn’t get it because she was too much on her side , but I tried anyway. TRIED TO SMASH HER FACE WITH MY FOREARM! and couldn’t get it sunk, but at least I tried to attack. I won by points! 😀

The second girl played more of an open guard. I liked that.

Thanks, Eric, for the pictures.

But she had such a strong grip on my lapel and was hanging off of me, I couldn’t break it. I almost passed de la riva like five times…that was cool, because that’s my game, but she had a hold on my lapel and I couldn’t break it and couldn’t pass with it there. I finally passed by doing what Captain said and reaching under her leg…and I forget if I got points from side or north south.

I think this picture might have been the moment!
I think I got side control. I got her in north south once but not sure if I held it for 3 seconds. I have come to really like north-south and was going for something but she escaped and tried to get half guard, but I sat on her leg. I could hear Captain very well but couldn’t always do what he said, but it was super good advice and I’m so glad to have him there. I admit when he said “Fifteen seconds!” I kind of stalled because I didn’t wanna get swept and lose. lol And I won on points again!

I didn’t get to try ANY of my techniques from bottom that I’ve been working, but to be honest, being on top is more dominant and I WANTED to stay on top. I wish I had submitted someone, but I lost on points to a girl I had been dominating before in the November tournament, so you know, I’m okay with winning like this. It’s better than getting no points and having the ref decide.

I was numb at first and then when I went over and hugged Captain I realized that 1) I had won not one, but BOTH of my matches 2) I got first place! 3) I had accomplished my minimum goal of winning once, plus more! 4) I proved I could beat purple belts 5) I could throw my old medal away 6) Captain said he was proud of me.

I started crying from joy. I was totally post-fight delirious, shaking from adrenaline, and couldn’t even untie my belt. lol Then the staff started ushering us, telling us to go to the podium. Already? I had just fought… usually staff need more time to get organized, but they had winners and competitors entered into a computer system so I guess it was so fast! I hugged Serena and Eric and friends and then let Captain lead me over there. It was surreal! Our gis were spotted with one of their blood. (Serena later quipped that I bathed in the blood of my victims. haha ).

So then the lady told me to get on the podium and Capitão was off to the side talking to someone. The other girls got on and then suddenly Captain came over with a brown belt! omg!! Usually the instructor promotes their students in the gym, but I think it’s SO COOL when it happens as a surprise on the podium after having won! It was kind of a dream of mine but I didn’t think it would happen this time! I hadn’t stopped crying from before and just cried harder. hahaha The staff lady also hung the medal around my neck. I was so happy!!



We took pictures.

I just wanted to blow my nose, I had been crying for like 10 minutes at that point.
Then Capitão took the belt off and told me to tie the purple belt back on, and I didn’t know what was going on, my brain was still post-fight brain, so I just did what people told me to. LOL My hands were shaking so hard I could barely do it. it was uneven but at least it was on my body. HAH Then I realized what had happened a few minutes later.

Capitão had decided at the last minute to promote me if I won, and hadn’t prepared my actual brown belt. So in the three short minutes it took for us to walk over to the podium and wait to step on, Captain located a random guy with a brown belt and asked to borrow it for the picture. LOL Then gave it back. hahahahahaha that’s so hilarious! I had looked at it like, ‘uh it’s a little small.’ That’s so funny!!! I love it! I love him! I love the whole weekend!

Then Eric and Beth took us out to eat at a Greek place, and we drove back 5 hours, arriving at midnight in Las Vegas. Spectacular two days! I can’t believe it was only two days. Two days I’ll remember for the rest of my life. It was so fun spending time with my two Brazilian teammates. Naldo is so great and I got a lot of Portuguese practice. I’m so grateful to Serena for coming to support me and being such a great friend! <3 Also my friend at The Void sponsored me also, and helped cover my expenses for this weekend! Thank you! <3 And I can't forget to thank Casey. He has been helping me from day one at Syndicate, before I ever met Capitão. Through private lessons I've been taking with him, I've developed my de la riva passes and take downs, defenses, various chokes, ways to break the grip, use the gi, everything. I've even gone to literally cry in his office when I had a rough MMA class and he was there and talked to me so I could calm down and go back out to train.
I couldn’t have improved and won and raised my jiujitsu level if it weren’t for these two men. I love you guys and thank you. <3 Jiujitsu makes my heart sing, and it'll help my MMA career, also. Now, I feel like I have to work harder than ever and learn more and more to be a good brown belt! Like Casey, the best sempai ever! Anything I ask, he has some kind of good answer for me. There are so many things I don't know. I have to get better at sweeps, for one and many other things. And I have to keep getting stronger. My motivation hasn't faltered at all! Every day I expect to get better and better, and one step closer to being a tatsujin (master) and having perfect technique. Ah yes and last but not least, I got to throw away my hateful loser medal!! YEAH!!!!!!! I earned a new one!!

BJJ tournament coming! Herbal Papaya capsules, anime, TV

Posted in every day, fight, friends, fun, training on January 26th, 2017 by roxyfighter

I’m having a pretty good week. Last week was good, too, despite being exhausted most of the time. I’ve been keeping up very well with all my classes, plus cardio, plus physical training. I’m in great shape and so healthy! 😀 It’s great. I just haven’t been to Taco Bell in over a week. It’s rough. SO ROUGH, I tell you.

Every morning I take my Herbal Papaya capsules to support my immune system, digestion because it has the enzyme papain, and specifically this mix supports blood function. I also love the tea but I have to get some more of it soon. For those of you who like health products, definitely check it out!
https://www.herbalpapaya.com/collections/papaya-leaf-extracts

REALLY good jiujitsu training. I’ve been getting 30 minute private lessons from Casey here and there throughout the week, mostly on days with no morning gi-class. He’s REALLY helping me tweak things here and there in my jiujitsu game and I feel ready for the tournament this Saturday. Well, as ready as I can be. I’m still not perfect, but I’ll never be perfect. I just wanna be better and better. Casey is such a good teacher and has the ability to explain things really well and clearly.

Yeah! I’m going to the Jiujitsu World League in Orange county, leaving on Friday and competing on Saturday! *checks website* OH BOY, looks like there are two other people in my division. YAY!!

Capitao’s classes are awesome. The amount of people attending are growing and growing every week. There’s a good rainbow of colors, from white belts, to blues, purples, browns (Casey and then Naldo who moved here), and even an extra black! Marcio from Brazil, who is Naldo’s trainer, joins, too. He tries to give me advice now and then. Last week I got so frustrated because Marcio was saying something I was doing wasn’t good, but I couldn’t understand what he wanted me to do because he only speaks Portuguese. And I wanted to know SO BADLY what he was saying. He made a big effort to take me aside and try and give me advice.

This is Marcio.

That being said, I understood half. My Portuguese lessons with Thais are going very well.
I wish my diet was going better. :/ I have to be 141.9 lbs max with my gi and belt on, which weigh about 4 pounds, so that means my body has to weigh 138 or 137. I’m waking up, and also ending practice dehydrated at 138, but I want to be able to eat breakfast and not be too dehydrated for my match. And it’s still unclear to me if I have to weigh in right before I fight or can I weigh in right when I get there. I WANT TO KNOW. 🙁 I’m waterloading and salt cutting right now. But since it’s same-day weigh-ins so I don’t wanna unbalance up my body’s chemistry TOO much. I guess I’ll be alright. I felt so weak yesterday so I had extra carbs, but I wasn’t sure if it’s because I’m always tired on Wednesday… I feel better today but also woke up a pound heavier. ~_~;;

My kids class is great. I had a few weeks of gigantic classes, and thankfully The Reen was there to help me.

The kids seem to pay more attention when we teach together because we goof around and Serena exaggerates stuff and it’s funny. 😀 Then she left to go work the coffee stand and I kind of lost a fraction of their attention.

Serena and I bought a new TV together! Jamie had lent us a 43 inch for a few months and I didn’t realize how much I would enjoy using it by having people over to watch fights and playing video games. We intended to go with 40 or even 39 inch to keep costs down, but for some unexplainable reason, the 42 inch RCA was cheaper than the 40 inch at $199! Plus taxes and the two year warrantee, it was $240. Not bad!

The Reen and I at Fry’s Electronics store.

People always ask us if we are sisters. Nope, just friends. Some people online have asked if we are dating. NO. Best friends. Yes, we are housemates and training partners and friends. But we are both straight and like hot guys, but don’t wanna bother with such distractions while we’re trying to become MMA champions, so we don’t talk about it or date.

That being said, I’m so fortunate to have such a great friend. I think I’ve mentioned before, but growing up I didn’t have many friends, so when I wished upon a star for my hearts desire, it was always “to have friends” and not be lonely anymore. So my heart is very happy. 🙂

Except when she calls a Super Nintendo a “SNES” (sss-nesss) which is not an actual word. 😛


XD It’s “Super NES (en-ee-ess) or Super Nintendo.” But I still love you, Serena! 😀 I did a poll on Facebook and found that after the Nintendo 64 came out, people started abbreviating the older models, so younger people tend to use the abbreviation more. Anyway. 😛 I’m so happy my old Super Nintendo works and I’ve been playing Donkey Kong Country 3 every morning for the past month ever since I discovered it in my dad’s basement. Weee.

I’m rewatching the Resident Evils so I can be ready to watch the new movie.
I took Serena’s recommendation and started this new anime Psycho-pass, which has a very interesting premise. It’s a police show, but in their universe, a computer system scans every human and reads their “criminal intent.” Most normal people read below 100 points, but violent types and criminals register higher, and then the police guns will unlock and emit a stun ray, so the police can arrest the person and give them counseling to help them and lower their number. It predicts if they are likely to commit a crime. If the person is an actual murderer, the number will be way high like 250 or 300 and then the gun will change to “kill mode” and the computer gives the cop authority to shoot to kill. So interesting.

At first the show was focusing around the woman, but then one of the cop’s backstory is kind of being highlighted now…he’s cool. *_* I’m watching it with my friend Candy now. We do that by watching a few eps, chatting about them, and then watch more. It’s cool since she’s in Texas. It’s hard when I have lots of time to watch and she doesn’t, or vice versa! I’m getting obsessed with this show now. haha