Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

The week after my fight – BJJ, teaching & pics, MMA awards pics, plans, Jerkypro, SkinnyCow

Posted in every day, fight, fun, training, Ultimate Fighter/UFC, Uncategorized on July 16th, 2018 by roxyfighter

My week after my fight was pretty great.
I ate a lot and gained three pounds. πŸ˜€

I did a lot of gi jiujitsu. I literally cannot make it to Syndicate’s gi classes because they’re either ridiculously early, or during my kids class. I love Dunham’s BJJ Academy, (which I can only make if I leave early :/ ) and I love making friends with the guys there! You guys are fantastic.
(Sorry, Syndicate)
It wasn’t exactly giving my body the rest it needed from the stress of weight cutting and fighting, though. :/ I wasn’t injured, though, and what I wanted MOST of all was to do gi.

There’s a big jiujitsu tournament at the end of August…I’m not sure I’ll be able to do it. I’m not sure I CAN because I’m not registered as a brown belt due to stupid technicalities which I’m not going to even get into here. -_-;
I SHOULD train gi every day to prepare for it, do extra grip training, etc, but I just can’t compromise my MMA training that much. I still need to maintain myself and grow, and plus I have training partners who need me to help them train for fights and stuff. MMA is an individual sport but you need a team to take you there.

Sorry I keep ranting about the gi jiujitsu thing. I feel so strongly…. I’ve had multiple dreams about my frustration of wanting to do more. LOL oh well.

MMA is so unique and crazy. It’s like another dimension mentally for a fighter when they get in there, and I hope my blog gives readers a little bit of an idea.

So getting back to my week, I calculated how much money I spent on only private lessons between January and June and it was around $7,000. I was paying four different trainers cash every week! And their fees are reasonable. But it paid off in the end. My growth rate for skill and strength was high, and thankfully, my last payday in the UFC allowed me to afford it. I’m still not rolling in the dough, though, so I gotta be careful now.

I’m mentioning it because it illustrates how fighters don’t just go to MMA class every day. We have to do strength and conditioning specific to our needs, mitt sessions where the coach improves our personal skills, and I think grappling privates are less common than mitts, but they shouldn’t be! Mike Pyle and Casey helped me SO much with my top pressure game and guard game. I was super confident going into this last fight.

Last week I treated myself to a lesson with Rene Lopez, the head morning instructor at Dunham’s. We did breaking the lasso guard, passing spider, and stack passing. Rene is such a great teacher.

I did it on Saturday at Syndicate against a high level guy and I was like…

He was like, “Uh…sure…”
Maybe he let me…. that’s probably it. Oh well, I’ll just be happy. lol

I did Syndicate MMA class on Wednesday because it’s grappling themed. I always avoid strikes to the head for one week after my fight. I didn’t get a concussion this fight, but Barb did hit me pretty hard a bit, mostly the first round. I bruise super easily and only got a shiner, so that shows something.

I have to take care of my brain, right? So yeah, Wed. was nice, and then Saturday I did open mat and did light sparring with Chelsea in the cage, and also some Muay Thai open mat. I haven’t done that for a while.

I missed my grappling buddy, Chelsea! We have the best scrambles. XD I’ve missed you!

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The Reen! With her Mega-man shirt and showing off her mega-muscles. LOL
We are both wearing Mei Li Fighting shorts…my favorite brand! check them out here:

The SkinnyCow ice cream guys sent me a box of goodies and some free ice cream coupons as congratulations for my win! Thank you so much! I’m discovering even more flavors than I knew about previously! Which is all part of their plan to HOOK ME ON THEIR PRODUCTS. I can see right through you social media guys. Well you know what? It’s working. -_-; Show them some love on social media, guys! Their products are lower calorie than average, so check them out at your local supermarket! Walmart has their products, for sure.

My teammate Natan ninja-photoed some pics of me in the kids class! I’m rolling with one of my students, and then profiles of me and Coach Rick.

Oh, the week of my fight on Tuesday, we went to the MMA awards!

I got to sit with The Reen, John, and JoJo. I got to meet Big John McCarthy, Rashad Evans, and Justin Gaethje!

Also my interview and story I told about Big John was played on the big screen during his Lifetime Achievement award! I was super excited about that!

I wish I could fight again ASAP but we fighters have no control over getting fight offers. :/

I want to plan my yearly trip to Japan but I have no idea when I’m fighting next!
OH I’m doing a seminar at College Park Mixed Martial Arts in Beltsville, Maryland, on July 28th! For more info and to register, go to!

aaaand here’s a random picture of Reenzilla.

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My UFC fight in TUF 27 finale against Barb – before, during, and after

Posted in fight on July 8th, 2018 by roxyfighter

I am aware that there are two different layers of voices in my head – my conscious voice and my unconscious voice. I’m good at controlling my conscious voice and making her say positive things, such as, “You’re strong. You’re ready to fight! You have been training hard for so long!” The unconscious voice often whispers things that we can’t always identify, but it makes me feel certain ways. Earlier this week, I realized that I was feeling anxious about my upcoming fight, more than usual. Something felt off and I wasn’t sure what it was. I guessed it was something my dang unconscious was whispering but I couldn’t quite make it out.

Every time I lose a fight, I try and make some kind of change so the same negative results won’t be repeated. “Only the insane repeat the same thing and hope for a different result.” So despite me telling myself positive things…I always tell myself positive things. I realized I was worrying…. I mean, this was BARB Honchak, the person who choked me out seven years ago. I had been wanting to rematch her for SO long! For longer than some people’s MMA careers! If I had a child when my mom had me, it would be seven years old. So…my desire for a rematch is as old as a small child. hahaha
It was my DREAM for YEARS, to someday fight in the UFC and, hey, wouldn’t it be SO cool if we fought each other in the UFC? Hahaha that would never happen. Then OMG TUF 26 happened and we were both on it. WHAT IF WE FOUGHT? So now it’s actually happening. whoa…. what if I choked? She could absolutely knock me out, or submit me or ground and pound me out. She’s ripped and so skilled. She was the former Invicta champion.

So that’s what my unconscious voice was whispering to me. Then I started freaking out….I feel good but what if my HEAD isn’t right for this fight? They say the mental game is important. What if I’m not thinking what I’m supposed to think? What if I’m psyched out and then lose because I’m psyched out? Am I psyched out?! I never get psyched out. I started freaking out as to whether I was freaking out or not. hahaha I couldn’t tell because it’s never happened to me before. I’ve never wanted to fight somebody for 7 years before.

So Coach John had a ten minute conversation with me that totally straightened me out. He really is the master. He reminded myself that I had to not only have confidence in myself, but have pride in my efforts. I really have been training non-stop, SO hard, on specific things to improve ever since Dec when I fought Nicco.
It’s funny he said the word “pride” because the first thing I thought of was Vegeta, who always is very proud.

But he is strong because he trains his BUTT off.

John said that having pride in myself is different than being prideful, arrogant, or narcissistic. I have to KNOW that I’m stronger, KNOW that I’ve improved, KNOW that I have the skills, because of all the effort I’ve put into it.

I do SO many other things on top of normal MMA classes. I’m not even going to list them all here.
I’ve done so much. I’m tired every day. I fall asleep at 9 PM every night.

So then I knew. Barb went from this big, looming shadow over me, to a woman, a fellow fighter who had skills comparable to me, who I could beat. I told myself consciously all day long that I could won, but suddenly, two days before my fight, I believed it. I really believed it. I believed it in my heart. I was going to hit her hard, tackle her to the ground, get on top, and ground and pound. I wanted to do it – so much – and I believed I could do it.

John was pretty busy with two other fighters fighting that weekend, Mike Chiesa and Francis Ngannou, but he was always there when I really needed him. It was great of Mike to come with me to get my gear and sign posters during fight week, and also checking up on me.

Casey also. I’m so grateful to have them as trainers. I felt so strong with them behind me.
and Lorenzo!

My Invicta Roxy Posse came! Rob and Sheryl, Candy and Luz, Katie, and Justin! It was great seeing them again! <3
Fuzzy’s Post-weigh in dinner

I loved running into other TUF 27 contestants. I’ve been watching this season and I liked it a lot.
Luis Pena “Violent Bob Ross”

Brad Katona!!

We spotted each other in the hall and started fan-girl/fan-boying out at the exact same time over each other. hahaha
He was like “ROXY!” I was like “BRAD! OMG!” Him: “Can I…” Me: “….HAVE A PICTURE?!” XD

So….I got permission to wear a “blond wig” at ceremonial weigh ins. πŸ˜€ It was spiky and I wanted it to look like Goku’s hair from Dragon Ball Z. After I took off my shirt, I yelled to “power up and go Super Saiyan” and then faced off against Barb. IT WENT SO FLAWLESSLY!!!

I looked so cool. At least, I thought so, AND THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS because my mama taught me to like myself and not care what other people think, so there. This way of thinking is how nerds and dorky people get through middle school. XD

For my official weigh-in earlier, I did a Naruto ninja hand sign. πŸ™‚ Apparently Israel Adesanya did a whole series very skillfully…I respect that! I saw a video and he looked bad-@$$! I didn’t know he was a Naruto fan! so was Luis and Alex C. We had a cool convo in the room before weighins.

Here are some fight pictures.

July 6, 2018; Las Vegas, NV, USA; Barb Honchak moves in against Roxanne Modafferi during the TUF 27 Finale at Pearl Theater. Mandatory Credit: Stephen R. Sylvanie-USA TODAY Sports

July 6, 2018; Las Vegas, NV, USA; Roxanne Modafferi throws Barb Honchak to the mat during the TUF 27 Finale at Pearl Theater. Mandatory Credit: Stephen R. Sylvanie-USA TODAY Sports

July 6, 2018; Las Vegas, NV, USA; Roxanne Modafferi pins Barb Honchak to the mat during the TUF 27 Finale at Pearl Theater. Mandatory Credit: Stephen R. Sylvanie-USA TODAY Sports

July 6, 2018; Las Vegas, NV, USA; Roxanne Modafferi moves in with a hit against Barb Honchak during the TUF 27 Finale at Pearl Theater. Mandatory Credit: Stephen R. Sylvanie-USA TODAY Sports

July 6, 2018; Las Vegas, NV, USA; Roxanne Modafferi lands hits against Barb Honchak during the TUF 27 Finale at Pearl Theater. Mandatory Credit: Stephen R. Sylvanie-USA TODAY Sports

July 6, 2018; Las Vegas, NV, USA; Roxanne Modafferi pins Barb Honchak to the mat during the TUF 27 Finale at Pearl Theater. Mandatory Credit: Stephen R. Sylvanie-USA TODAY Sports

July 6, 2018; Las Vegas, NV, USA; Roxanne Modafferi is declared the winner against Barb Honchak during the TUF 27 Finale at Pearl Theater. Mandatory Credit: Stephen R. Sylvanie-USA TODAY Sports

July 6, 2018; Las Vegas, NV, USA; Roxanne Modafferi reacts following her victory against Barb Honchak during the TUF 27 Finale at Pearl Theater. Mandatory Credit: Stephen R. Sylvanie-USA TODAY Sports

I’m trying to make the smile and thumbs up my trademark pose.
Inspired by All Might. He is a super hero who tries to be everyone’s pillar of peace and justice, and smiling reassures people.

Anyway, I’m so so relieved I won. She hit me a bunch of times, mostly in the beginning of the first round. I wanted to try and take her down SO badly, and I was able to. When she went in and clinched up with me, I was like, “Ooooo! I’VE BEEN WAITING YEARS FOR THIS MOMENT!” and I didn’t choke. Everyone said I did some mid-air reversal hip-throw magical flip thingie. I have no memory. I just remember digging for the underhooks, feeling her weight, lifting my leg, and doing something Judo-esk. It’s funny, I’ve been training wrestling SO much, but Judo always comes out in my fights always, because I have a good sense of where people’s balance is. I think she tried to outside-foot trip me, but I ….spun around and stepped backwards. I thought I uchi-mata-ed her, but let’s examine:

So yeah.

Anyway, I no longer have to be stressed about being cut from the UFC for being on a losing streak. I can actually think about my next fight and my future! I can finally get paid enough to put money away for the future! πŸ˜€ Last night I bought two pairs of dress shoes to replace the two that broke, a battery pack to replace one that broke, and two anime t shirts I don’t need. There ends my fight-money shopping spree. XD My desire as a martial artist to do in live combat what I practiced in training has been fulfilled! I used my physical strength, as well! And my teachings from my awesome teachers! Thank you John, Mike, Casey, Lorenzo, and others who have helped me along the way! Shout out to some other teachers and training partners who have helped build me into the fighter I am today: Captain, Rene, Evan Dunham and gang, and Rich, Chelsea, Serena, and JoJo! Thank you! I am grateful to you!

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Fight prep for my UFC fight, Motivation, Jurassic World, I’m a Jaegar pilot, misc

Posted in fight on June 24th, 2018 by roxyfighter

I have a phone date with my mother at 3 PM every Saturday.
This weekend I told her I was going to see Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom with my bestie Serena.
“OH NO, WON’T YOU BE SCARED!?” she cried. I was startled at her extreme reaction. I mean, it’s not a horror movie…it’s just Jurassic Park, rated PG-13.

Oh Mom. I’m old enough…… I already know when I should close my eyes! πŸ˜€ hahaha!

I know my mom is sensitive to violence, too. For example, when I knew that guy’s arm was gonna get bitten off, I didn’t need to look at that. That’s what being nearsighted is good for. I peeked over the top of my glasses so my tender brain wouldn’t have traumatizing images stuck in there. It was a blur, and I could see when the scene was over.

Serena and I both loved the movie.

There were really little kids in there, and that kind of upset me…. I think many images will frighten youngsters. πŸ™ Especially near the end with the little girl? Well, I share my mother’s views of censorship. I know others don’t, so I’ll leave it at that.

I’m glad I have Serena as my movie buddy and buddy in general. It’s so great to have someone who’s a fighter with the same interests and can give me REEN ADVIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICE when I need it.

Anyway, last week was pretty good. It’s always difficult when my head coach John isn’t around, being away cornering and all, but I felt like my other coaches and trainers really took care of me, so that was nice. I usually have zero motivation to do kickboxing when John’s not around, but I liked Rich’s class.

My teammate Jessy Jess lost a close decision in UFC Singapore. It was a great fight! She looked great.

I really feel like I’m fighting next weekend, but I have two more weeks. I’m fighting JULY 6th ON FRIDAY on the TUF27 Finale!
I think I’ve been trying so hard to be ready and prepared, that I feel ready and prepared. My physical trainer had to take an unexpected work trip this weekend so couldn’t be here for my usual session, but he left me an assignment. I felt so unmotivated and worn out on Saturday. (not because of him) *shrug* I just kept reminding myself that I had a great day ahead of me, and tried to be excited about it.

I know that once I set my timer and hit “go,” I’m on and train with 100% effort.

First, I went to Dunham’s and rolled with the guys for only 45 minutes. I really just wanted to have a little light fun since I hadn’t been there in a while, but I pretty much couldn’t do anything against men bigger and better than …. Oh well, I love jiujitsu and it was an honor to roll with talented black belts! Oh I rolled with Taylor Ninja McCorriston, who is smaller. My accomplishment of the day came from defending one of his leg-locks!!! He tapped me like 4 times after that, but I got out of one! πŸ˜€ haha


This meme is accurate for me.
Evan himself taught me this cool way to maintain back control that I’ve been using a lot lately.
I was supposed to leave at 10:45 and arrive at Syndicate at 11, but there was an accident and I ended up arriving at 11:20, which SUCKED. ~_~;;

Well, I rolled at Syndicate’s open mat as much as I could. I got great training with Casey, Mike Pyle, and some others. G tucked his hand into his belt and rolled with one arm. I literally did not know what to do. I could not attack that arm because it was glued to his body. The other arm was keeping me busy somewhere. I could not choke him. He got me in half guard and I could not budge him. I could not untuck his gi lapels because his arm was pinning it all in. I was confounded. LOL

After open mat, Mike asked me what I was going to do next. “Conditioning….” I said, fixing my hair and getting ready to hop on the assault exercise bike. “You better get hyped up for that,” he said.
“I am not hyped up,” I said.
“What’s the alternative?” he said.
I didn’t even hesitate to reply, “There IS no alternative!”
And I proceeded to think of something positive about the situation, because that’s what my mama taught me.
At least I can listen to music. In the Ultimate Fighter, we weren’t allowed to have it to motivate us, and it sucked!
I put my Rob Zombie play list on and took off. It wasn’t fun, but I got it done. My legs WILL NOT get tired in my fight!!

Lorenzo had trained me for a three round fight last time, and I did a five-round surprise title fight. Lorenzo is the man. I can hear his voice in my head telling me to peddle harder.

The other day, I went up to Casey and said, “I have to go do burpies now, but I don’t want to. Please tell me to go do them.”
“F*CKING GO DO BURPIES!” he immediately cried out.
“OKAY!” I said, and ran over and did them.

I’m good at forcing myself to do what I need to do, but it’s really really nice to have people I look up to just be there for motivation. Thank you.

Thanks, Rich, for holding mitts for me and running my shark-tank fight prep. Thank you, Chelsea, for always being here for me! You’ve been really helping me.

I’ve been training a lot with JoJo (Joanne Calderwood). Thanks for pushing me and challenging me! We had a fun little 3 vs 3 episode on Friday with Chelsea…

I feel like Coach John has been away forever, but it’s only been seven days.
I’m trying not to be nervous about my upcoming fight. I know fighters have been cut from the UFC for two losses in a row. It’s weighing on me….. but I can’t worry about it. I just have to remind myself why I fight. I fight to prove I can do the techniques I’ve been training in live competition, and win. And smile.

“I want to create a world where everyone can smile and live together. A symbol is necessary for that to happen. A symbol of peace.”~ All Might, from “My Hero Academia”

A few fans sent me some lovely gifts from my amazon wish list! Thank you Jim! These supplements will last months, and everybody needs a little Dragon Ball manga in their lives. Thanks Julie, for the tea, and Katie! And the combat docket guys! I really appreciate the support and love.

Monique, an artist, drew Serena and I as Jaegar pilots from the movie Pacific Rim that we love so much! IT’S SO GOOD! OMG I love it! Thank you!

Serena and I did a parody video about doing the Fusion Dance in Dragon Ball Z! Watch it!

Thank you, Teri, the best massage therapist in the world, for keeping my body healthy and ready to train and fight! I can’t do without my 30 minute massage every Sunday!

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Results of my kids and my BJJ tournament! Belt promotions!

Posted in fight, fun, training on May 2nd, 2018 by roxyfighter

I feel very relieved and accomplished for completing one of my goals of fighting in a jiujitsu tournament this year as a brown belt. I was promoted last year by Captain in Feb 2017 after winning a tournament in California. It was one of the happiest days of my life! Since then, I had back-to-back MMA training camps, during which I put gi training on the back burner. Then I got involved with the Ultimate Fighter from June through August, and then had to train for a finale fight in December. Also, Captain left Syndicate, and Casey got knee surgery. I know how poorly I would do in a gi tournament if I didn’t train gi.

I know I have so many holes in my jiujitsu game. It’s a never-ending journey. I am strong in some areas and have holes in other areas. It’s also been on my mind to promote a bunch of my kids but I wanted to wait until they competed a few times as white belts before they moved up in competition. On the other hand, I didn’t want to hold them back TOO long because it’s good for kids’ motivation to get new belts, and also show their levels in class. It’s just that at tournaments, people sandbag. There are kids who’ve been training for like 3+ years and are still white belts, or put a white belt on just to compete. That’s wrong!

Anyway, I decided April 29th would be the day! The day of the tournament, the day my students competed, and the day after that I would promote them no matter how well they did.

I had to cut weight. I dieted down to basically my MMA fight weight, and cut a few points of water the morning of. Then I weighed in with my gi on and ate breakfast, while Serena warmed up the kids. The Jiujitsu World League organization is INCREDIBLY well-organized and emailed us all our division times a few days before. THANK YOU. So thanks to that, I knew I was going at 2 PM and the kids were going at 9 AM. I would have plenty of time to recover from the stress and tiredness associated with that.

The only thing was they ALL went at 9 AM. Ky and Ayden were on Mat 1, Artem was Mat 2, and Illia (pronounced “Eli” -he’s Russian) was on Mat 3. Illia is eight years old and his little brother Artem is five, almost six, I think.

So Serena went and sat with the first two boys, who are her little proteges, I sat with Artem, and glanced over at Mat 3 every minute or so, occasionally walking over there to make sure Illia (pronounced “Eli”) wasn’t up yet.

I was giving Artem my prefight speech (John’s prefight speech) about how not to be nervous because this is the same jiujitsu that he loves and does every day but the only difference is the environment, when some parent cried out to me, “Roxanne! Illia is going on Mat 3!!!”

WHAT? I jumped up. He was literally engaging with his opponent. WTF I just looked over there two seconds ago!! I didn’t have a chance to give him “the speech” yet! damn it!

I leaped out and made a mad dash down the tiny aisle between the bleachers and the judges table. I slammed into like three or four along the way, people making them grunt, stepped on somebody, knocked something out of somebody’s hand which clattered to the floor behind me…. SORRY! I was a madwoman. Get out of my way. My student is fighting.

I think I only missed the first twenty seconds. This kid was good! Strong! There was a messy takedown engagement, scramble, Illia (pronounced Eli) ended up on his back. I screamed, “Get your guard back!” He got his guard! Then ensued the struggle to pass guard. I was telling Illia to break his posture, pull his arms up, etc. Stuff happened. There was a scramble. Illia got mounted and the kid went for an armbar. The ref stopped it without a tap, but that’s usually with super little kids! These kids were older! WTH! Refs often stop kids matches too quickly without giving them time to tap. DAMNIT. Illia got up, like ‘wth I didn’t tap!’ I was so pissed. πŸ™ Poor kid. He cried… I told him he fought really hard and let his parents hug him as I ran back to be with Artem.

Artem lost his first match on points, and then won his second by points!

Then he had to face his teammate Ayden in the third round. I think Ayden was the same? I didn’t see the matches because Serena was coaching. I think lost the first, won the second, and faced Artem in the third.

Artem won by armbar. :/ That was SUPER HARD TO WATCH. I was so proud of Artem but I hated coaching against Ayden. Serena was in his corner. Well, at Syndicate they take turns winning. Ayden has triangled Artem, and Artem has armbared Ayden, so it’s a good healthy rivalry. :/ Artem went on to lose his 4th match, which would have gotten him third place. I thought he must have placed somehow since he won two times. Oh well, there were a bunch of kids in his division.

Ky won his first match by rear naked choke, and lost his second, giving him second place. CHOKES! πŸ˜€ Yay go Ky!

I kept looking over at Illia, who was standing right next to the table with his father. I even asked Coach Adam if he could hang out over there in case he had to fight while I was cornering Artem. It seemed like an awfully long time to wait. Every time I went over there and glanced at the table and papers, I saw Illia’s name on the one underneath, so I knew he wasn’t up yet. Finally after Artem was done and Illia wasn’t, I knew something was wrong. Suddenly they turned the TV screen on the table off!

“Hey, excuse me!!” I said to the staff guy. “What happened to Illia’s second match?!” He said, “What?” WHAT DO YOU MEAN ‘WHAT?’ “He only fought once!” “Oh, we couldn’t find him so we disqualified him just now. We called his name.”
“HE HAS BEEN STANDING RIGHT HERE FOR AN HOUR,” I said. “Please go bring them back! Give him his second match!”
“Illia, right?” (said “ill-ia” like familia) “NO,” I said, “It’s pronounced “Eli.” Damnit they were saying his name wrong so he didn’t answer to it! They claimed that they asked around if anybody was Illia and nobody answered. Bullcrap! They found him the first time, didn’t they?!?

We power walked towards the podium but they refused to do anything for him. They said it was too late. I was so upset! Not only did he have a had experience with a quick stoppage, they gypped him of his second try! They gave the family a credit for the next tournament, but who knows when that will be. Grrrr! It’s the coach’s responsibility to make sure there are no mistakes, so I feel guilty. I should have verbally harassed them, “HEY when is my kid’s next match?!” but I was looking over his shoulder every five minutes, sent Adam over, his dad was there, there wasn’t much more I could do! I had a feeling his name pronunciation was going to be a problem. I should have said something. ;_;

I’m so proud of their performances and their bravery! It’s hard to go out and do this as an adult, much less a six or seven year old! haha or maybe it’s easier. I dunno. I love them all so much. Thanks, parents, for your support, and for letting me teach your precious children! Thanks, Serena, for helping me teach, and also supporting me with preparation, being here, emotional support, and many other things.

I was pretty stressed after that. Everybody was going out to eat and I really didn’t want to go. I just wanted to be alone. But on second thought, maybe it would be good to get out of the stressful tournament environment. We went to a Hawaiian place and I had a snack, plus the food I cooked for myself later. It was nice to spend some time chatting with the families of Ky and Ayden! Such good people!

We went back around noon and I chilled in a corner by myself for a while. I was so tired, but felt my energy and motivation come back by 1 PM. I told myself, I only had two or three rounds with one girl! I can do it! I’m in great shape and ready! I started getting really excited. I warmed up from 1:00-1:30. Then Coach Casey came and stood by my side for the rest of the time. Some other Syndicate teammates came just to cheer me on. Thanks, guys! That was really nice of you guys.

Her name was Talia and she was pretty good. I felt we were similar in skill but she fought better than I did. She used the gi better. She continually attacked and kept me off balance. She got better positions. A few times she did a nice move, and I thought, “Oh that was nice…ROXY STOP MENTALLY PRAISING YOUR OPPONENT.” lol I was a little too conservative with my techniques. The first round was 0-0 points but she got the ref’s decision on aggression, I guess, which was correct. For our second match, I managed to sweep her and get points. I admit I stalled in her guard for the last minute of the round. She kept reaching over my neck…. I wasn’t exactly sure what she was doing but I sensed danger!

I won the second match and wasn’t thrilled with my performance in it.

The ref kept restarting the match and not telling us when to go. Like, I expected, “ready GO!” but instead she just stepped back and Talia started attacking me. I totally wasn’t ready two out of three times, and almost got choked out once. I mean, Talia still would have won regardless. It wasn’t her fault I’m blind and couldn’t see the ref. I was super annoyed at the ref. It’s considered taboo to blame the ref for stuff, so I’m not “blaming her for anything.” Just saying this action was annoying. I learned my lesson! In the third round I was determined to take Talia down, but struggled. I did a full-committal uchimata….! But I missed her body. HAH. My leg went straight up in the air. I unconsciously didn’t want my back taken so I didn’t get under her enough. Gah! I have a lot of training to do still! Talia was really good at defending and grip fighting. I have to get better at that, too. The flow of the match was similar to the first two except I started taking risks, like going for a choke from bottom instead of defending the mount. She mounted finally, and went for a choke.

I started to black out but managed to escape! I couldn’t recover the points and lost on points.

I’m really glad we fought! Thanks so much, Talia. She was pretty nice, too.

I’m gonna train hard and get better. Monday and Tuesday (yesterday) I’ve already started training and fixing stuff I did wrong. I’m really excited to get better. Maybe we’ll fight again later after my MMA fight in July! I’ll still be a brown belt.
Like I told my kids, it’s okay to feel sad and frustrated because it shows you care, and you’ll put the energy towards improving.

Thanks, Casey, for your instruction, coaching, and emotional support. Thanks to my other jiujitsu coaches, Captain, Rick, and recently Rene Lopez at Dunham’s for helping make my jiujitsu better!
I went out to eat at Fuzzy’s with Syndicate people afterwards! (sorry I cut somebody out by accident!) I was so happy you guys came! <3

I went home and had a big piece of this! πŸ˜€ I got it FREE with a coupon! It’s been living in my freezer.

I normally can’t have food like this around…so this is not an encouragement to send me stuff. haha Just post-fight treats!

Mentally, it wasn’t over for me. It wouldn’t be over until I promoted my kids. I couldn’t rest. I lay down that evening and tried to relax but knew I had to make a poster for the gym that night because I wouldn’t have any other time on the weekday, so I got up and went back out, printed pics, and put it together. ~_~;

I wish I could have had a day off, but I went back to my busy training schedule on Monday. After my mitt session with John and my jiujitsu private with Casey, I realized I wasn’t going to make it…. My shoulder and neck were in such pain I could barely use it. No injury, just overuse and a strain. My mind was tired and I was frustrated. I wasn’t sure what my mistakes were exactly and was upset. John was calling for people to get on the mat for MMA class while I was crying in the locker room for like ten minutes. Monday was my favorite day – grappling focus! Exciting!

I decided I would compromise with myself by doing the drilling technique but not live rolling at the end. I did one round that tweaked my neck more, but I really wanted to try the moves of the day.

I collapsed but only for like 20 minutes, and then I had to go back and teach kids.

Then I found out like 30 minutes before class Serena wasn’t coming because she was sick…..

I really wanted to promote the kids! So I asked the parents if I could wait until Wednesday, but that didn’t work out for everybody else’s schedules. I ended up promoting them on Monday like I had originally wanted to.

Mentally, I really really REALLY needed that. I felt such a weight off my chest, such a sense of pride as I tied their new belts around their waists!

They worked so hard! They improved so much! They were so happy! I told them all to keep working hard, and praised their efforts. Also in the big kids class we promoted Bailee, Chris, and Illia! I told Illia that I didn’t care that he lost his tournament match. He’s at a good level and strong, so he should keep training hard! πŸ™‚

Okay, so at least I did my one BJJ tournament of the year, I can refocus on strength and conditioning (which I slacked on and replaced with BJJ leading up to this tourney), and fight prep training, to prepare for July 6th!

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Jiujitsu stuff! Training for my fight vs Barb!

Posted in fight, training, Uncategorized on April 26th, 2018 by roxyfighter

Can you believe that something dumb like sleeping on the airplane hurt my neck? I got a tight muscle on Sunday and it got progressively worse and worse all week to the point where I could barely turn my head and train on the Saturday one week later. SO STUPID. -_-; Life happens? Remind me to never sleep on an airplane! (I frequently say this lol)
Thanks to my massage therapist Teri Wallace. What would I do without you? She always fixes me!

Anyway, it’s been a great week and a half. Some highlights are my kid students – I’ve been giving a few of the struggling ones private lessons and I can see vast improvements almost immediately! Like, I taught Lucas techniques on how to avoid getting mounted by blocking with the knee, shrimping, and framing, and he’s getting mounted like 75% less.

I have one child who gets really frustrated with herself, which didn’t used to happen. I think it’s because her level is higher now so I think she expects more of herself. I wish I had studied child psychology in school. I didn’t think six year olds got that way, but I guess she did! I told her, “You’re one of my best students, and just because you couldn’t do something, didn’t mean you were doing it wrong. Maybe the person was stronger or bigger or it wasn’t the right time. So don’t get upset, breathe, and try something else. I’ll always be proud of you as long as you do your best.” She didn’t get upset.
YAY so we (Serena and I) figured her out. Then, I saw her get stuck under someone’s powerful grapevine and I saw her face start to get upset. I ran over and calmly coached her out of it.

Like 60 seconds later, she got on top and did the SAME THING to the other kid!!!! I was like, YES!!!

(and I coached the other kid out of it, just to be fair lol)

She’s competing soon. I gave her and another boy a private on Monday and they did so well!


My own jiujitsu training has been great.

JoJo, our new Scottish UFC fighter teammate, has been a fantastic training partner. She joined Syndicate recently so she has a different style, strength, etc. She is good at foiling my techniques, which is great, because it means I’m not doing them perfectly and I can perfect them better. Thanks, JoJo! πŸ˜€ She has the most amazing control I’ve ever encountered in training. She hit me with an upkick to the face and it tickled my nose. I was like, “How DARE she upkick me in training….wait…I’m not hurt!? Cool!” I’ve never gotten hurt going with her despite her throwing all sorts of dangerous stuff. It’s remarkable. πŸ˜€ You guys, It’S AMAZING! I cannot stress how valuable that is to have training partners like that!

I’ve started taking grappling lessons with Mike Pyle, recently retired UFC fighter and Team Syndicate member. I was planning to start MMA-grappling lessons after my tourney, but he texted me, asking me if I was ready, and posted on social media that he was bored, so I figured it would be best to start a habit of giving me a lesson so I don’t lose my opportunity. lol I hadn’t intended on doing gi with him, but I’ve learned a TON of my first two lessons! Thanks, Mike!

I’m so excited for my tournament this Sunday! Four of our kids are competing, too. Yay!

My next fight has finally been announced! So finally, July 6th, Barb Honchak, in the TUF 27 finale in the Palms in Vegas! πŸ˜€

I’ve been watching TUF 27, also. The second ep was yesterday. I like it a lot.

Jodie Esquibel stopped by Syndicate and we sparred. It was great!

There were EIGHT fightergirls on the mats! Me, Serena, Jessy Jess, Alexa Connors, Jojo Calderwood, Meeks, Chelsea Rae, and Jodie! And obviously awesome dudes.

I saw the movie Rampage last Sunday.

I liked it a lot! Great, believable plot, action, great acting by Dwayne Johnson! I really like him. I feel like he’s been in a ton of movies lately. I have to say, though, ever since 9/11 and 3/11 (Japan’s disaster), I can’t enjoy a good building falling down anymore, or other destruction in a movie. I get really upset because I’ve seen the real thing and know how horrible reality is. ;_; I think I’m getting MORE sensitive as I get older, rather than desensitized….

On Saturday I taught a kid’s private lesson, then did an hour of gi jiujitsu rolling, then rushed to my physical training session. Lorenzo had me pull and push sleds, and carry heavy bags. Then he said, β€œOkay, *pause* now you’re gonna kick the heavy bag until it stands up on its end, and stack those giant tires over it.” He kicked the bag and smiled at me. I kinda thought he was kidding, but wasn’t sure, so I proceeded to gather three huge tires by flipping them. The first was easy. Then for the second one, I had to use a smaller tire as a step-up or wedge. As I was working on the third one, Lorenzo told me he was actually kidding but he loved my effort and wanted to see if I could do it! It was really hard! I partially pulled it up, partially got under it and pushed, and then I had to get it over the top of the heavy bag. I DID IT!!

GO ME! I was so dirty afterwards. Getting ready for Barb Honchak, July 6th. I’ll never get β€œtired” while fighting her.

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