{"id":1075,"date":"2011-10-12T05:25:51","date_gmt":"2011-10-12T11:25:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/?p=1075"},"modified":"2011-10-11T14:24:33","modified_gmt":"2011-10-11T20:24:33","slug":"theres-no-courage-without","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2011\/10\/12\/theres-no-courage-without\/","title":{"rendered":"There&#8217;s no courage without&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>fear.<\/p>\n<p>Last week, my boss told me he&#8217;d be sending me to a kindergarten out service the next day. (That means another company or school hires my company to send teachers to their location.)<\/p>\n<p>I thought, &#8220;There&#8217;s no way I&#8217;m teaching large groups of screaming 4 year olds.  NO WAY.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I said to him &#8220;no way.&#8221; After much discussion&#8230;.much much discussion, he promised me training and convinced me to go watch.<\/p>\n<p>Roxy1:  Why don&#8217;t you want to? What are you, afraid?<br \/>\nRoxy2: No, of course not.<br \/>\nRoxy1: And you call yourself the Kids Coordinator!  What kind of teacher are you anyway?<br \/>\nRoxy2: Imagine, what if they cry and scream and fight and don&#8217;t listen and run every where and then the staff see you and think, &#8220;what kind of teacher is that?&#8221;<br \/>\nRoxy1: So bottom line is&#8230;you&#8217;re afraid.<br \/>\nRoxy2: No, of course not&#8230;.<br \/>\nRoxy1: &#8230;&#8230;.<br \/>\nRoxy2: Okay, I&#8217;m afraid. Very very afraid.<br \/>\nRoxy1: Which is why you should do it.<br \/>\nRoxy2: Damn you Roxy-logic!!! XO  Yes, I have to do it now.  That&#8217;s my motto after all&#8230;. &#8220;Always do something you are afraid to do.&#8221;  It&#8217;s the only way to get stronger&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>SO the next week ( today)  I just went and observed the previous teacher doing it, but I admit, I was extremely nervous.  It went super well. In fact, it almost couldn&#8217;t have gone any better, and I have some ideas for making it better.  Yes, I&#8217;m going to do it.  Seriously, those kids were so adorable.  One little girl grabbed my wrist and looked at my watch&#8230;and then said in Japanese, &#8220;What a pretty watch you have!&#8221;  I was like, &#8220;Oh gee, thank you! O_O&#8221; And she continued, &#8220;And this ring! So pretty!  Like a princess!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Princess?!  I was mellllllllllllllllllllllting&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230; *_*  SO CUTE OMFG.  And when they came thumping in shouting &#8220;Hello hello hello!&#8221; they spotted me and were like &#8220;OH it&#8217;s A LADY TEACHER!&#8221;  (Japanese)  And in English, &#8220;What&#8217;s your name?  WHAT&#8217;S YOUR NAME?!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>They all fought with each other to sit next to me and hold my hand.  One girl was crawling into my lap and the others were jealous and were like &#8216;get down!&#8217;<\/p>\n<p>Two boys were misbehaving, and one of two Japanese male staff members grabbed them by the collar of their shirts (like puppies) and dragged them off to the side (They&#8217;d been rolling around on the ground) so I wouldn&#8217;t even have to deal with discipline issues.<\/p>\n<p>Well, today was the easy part.  NEXT Week, it&#8217;s my turn &#8230;.. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>fear. Last week, my boss told me he&#8217;d be sending me to a kindergarten out service the next day. (That means another company or school hires my company to send teachers to their location.) I thought, &#8220;There&#8217;s no way I&#8217;m teaching large groups of screaming 4 year olds. 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