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Every morning these past two weeks I wake up, and my body thinks it’s fsking 70 years old.<\/p>\n

I have no idea if I’m getting stronger or not. Not fast enough, if at all. I want to notice, damn you body~! Damn you damn you body stupid body.<\/p>\n

I didn’t get enough sleep last night.
\nI tried so hard to pump myself up for work today- 7:45AM to 5:30PM.
\nI don’t want to complain about my work schedule publicly because I don’t want to be unprofessional, but I was NOT happy about it today. By the end of the day, I was a mess and totally stressed out.
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\nTears, sushi and TWO ice cream cones later, I found myself chatting with Michele on the way to the gym. Thanks for the trying to cheer me up, my friend. I did the PowerMax bike and got my worst scores ever. How pathetic?….<\/p>\n

I tried to shadow box, but and the strikes just didn’t come. Pathetic pathetic. I just stood there starring at myself in the mirror….or the blob that represented myself because I can’t see without my glasses. Masa-san held mitts for me and I did my best. But I hate hitting mitts. I was looking forward to grappling, but I couldn’t even stay on the mat….<\/p>\n

I feel so sh*tty at the moment. I know it could be a lot worse. But still. It’s not just one major thing, but a lot of things on top of each other. <\/p>\n

I did away with one stresser today. It was hard. I’m going to solve another tomorrow, and another on Tuesday. ~_~; “Stay calm, carry on.” Just go about identifying the problems and taking steps to solve them, one by one.<\/p>\n

DAMNIT I wanted to grapple SO BADLY but …… so fsking pathetic. ~_~; (btw, my fingers typed ‘I wanted to grappling’….just thought I’d mention that… Even my body is dazed and confused).<\/p>\n

I imagined Masa-san’s mits were one of my stressers and I ended up hitting it harder.
\nHah. I never do that. That was….amuzing. omg fingers, did you just type that? AMUSING. holy crap I should go to bed. <\/p>\n

So what was positive today? The assessment kid liked my lesson! But I think his father thinks we are expensive….crap they just canceled each other out. <\/p>\n

uh, I found this new tea. Ginger\/barley mix. No caffeine. It’s yummy.
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Every morning these past two weeks I wake up, and my body thinks it’s fsking 70 years old. I have no idea if I’m getting stronger or not. Not fast enough, if at all. I want to notice, damn you body~! Damn you damn you body stupid body. I didn’t get enough sleep last night.…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[5,4,3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1201","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-every-day","category-training","category-work","category-5","category-4","category-3","description-off"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1201","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1201"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1201\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1201"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1201"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1201"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}