{"id":1266,"date":"2011-11-28T02:46:36","date_gmt":"2011-11-28T08:46:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/?p=1266"},"modified":"2011-11-28T03:48:47","modified_gmt":"2011-11-28T09:48:47","slug":"disappointed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2011\/11\/28\/disappointed\/","title":{"rendered":"disappointed"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I erased my previous blog entry because I felt kind of pathetic.<\/p>\n<p>Let&#8217;s just say I had a rough weekend.  Except that I sparred Akano-san and I felt an increase in my strength against her.  I&#8217;m really happy about that.<\/p>\n<p>Today, I found the motivation to go to Ground Slam.  I sparred&#8230;fewer times than I wanted.  I was actually very disappointed in my own sparring performance.  I did have one good round against BJ, though.  I talked to Katsumura-san about going to a night class.  I will next week.  Maybe Saturday!  Looking forward to that.<\/p>\n<p>I fully intended to go to the AACC tonight- I was looking forward to it, and I purposely didn&#8217;t push it an extra round at Ground Slam for that purpose. But over the course of the afternoon, my neck has been hurting more and more, and now it hurts a frick&#8217;n lot.  So it&#8217;d be pointless to go.<\/p>\n<p>I did physical training on Sunday, so I&#8217;m really sore so I can&#8217;t do more training.  I&#8217;m disappointed in my body&#8230;.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m just disappointing myself left and right nowadays, in most areas other than work.  *sigh*<\/p>\n<p>Tomorrow is my test weight-cut.  I had two ice creams today in preparation.  I don&#8217;t want to lose any more weight, and I may since I&#8217;ll skip dinner tomorrow.  I think I might have had sodium in my dinner because I&#8217;ve been drinking a lot and not peeing as much as I thought.   Oh well, tomorrow will be bland city, and I&#8217;ll be stoping consumption after lunch.  I&#8217;ll go to the gym after work, start the cut, and then finish it Wednesday morning.  I got my sauna suit ready. I gotta prep some recovery drinks by tomorrow.<\/p>\n<p>Damn I wanted to train this evening.  I&#8217;m not putting in enough time at the gym lately.  I&#8217;m disappointd. *falls over*<\/p>\n<p>Anyway.  I finally finally talked to Mom on Skype.  She&#8217;d moved to a different apartment so I didn&#8217;t get to talk to her for like two weeks. WAY TOO LONG.  I&#8217;ve been really lonely for my parents lately. ;_; Probably because I usually talk to Mom every other day, and suddenly NOTHING.  She said, &#8220;&#8221;Whatever happens, don&#8217;t view it as good or bad but an opporunity to learn something. Make it a positive thing. 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