{"id":2890,"date":"2013-01-07T15:15:01","date_gmt":"2013-01-07T21:15:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/?p=2890"},"modified":"2013-01-07T15:17:11","modified_gmt":"2013-01-07T21:17:11","slug":"indecision-megumi-fujii-blog-translation","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2013\/01\/07\/indecision-megumi-fujii-blog-translation\/","title":{"rendered":"“Struggling” – Megumi Fujii (blog translation)"},"content":{"rendered":"

Struggling, by Megumi Fujii.<\/p>\n

I think that as a fighter, I’ve been declining ever since I reached my peak when I fought in Bellator. That was in 2010. <\/p>\n

Since then, I’ve been struggling with myself. My reaction time, between my brain and body, is one beat off. It’s less than 1%, but I feel it, and because of that, it messes up my flow.<\/p>\n

I’ve been doing everything I can in training to get rid of that and get my perfect flow back. <\/p>\n

But it’s difficult.<\/p>\n

If I keep going this way, with this slightly “off” balance, my struggles will never disappear. <\/p>\n

\"megumi<\/a>
\n(Megumi at Japan Vale Tudo Dec. 2012 )<\/p>\n

A fighter must practice hard, almost with desperation, every day. If they can’t or won’t train like that, nothing will become of them. They can’t even stand at the start-line. I don’t want to make the excuses of age and injuries. However, there are some things I can’t cover up and forget no matter how much I try.<\/p>\n

I wonder if it’s okay like this.<\/p>\n

I always answer my own question.<\/p>\n

My body won’t move…rather, it can’t move as much as I think. I wonder if it’s a problem of heart. But I believe it’s not that, because I’ve over come that already.<\/p>\n

\"megumi<\/a><\/p>\n

I have the feeling that I’ve reached the limit of how much I can use my heart to spur my body into action.
\nBut some fighters I respect have said that if I’m still worrying about this, it means it’s not the end of the line yet.<\/p>\n

However, I can’t help but worry about my reaction time slowing down.
\nIn the past, sometimes it seemed like my opponents’ movements were slow. Lately, that hasn’t been the case.<\/p>\n

I worried about writing this, but I want everyone to know the real me, so I decided to write.<\/p>\n

I want to be an explosive fighter.<\/p>\n

There are times I think I want to go back. I want to freeze time in one moment. <\/p>\n

Well, even today I still love what it means to be human, in our imperfection, sometimes unrefined.<\/p>\n

Even against weaknesses, I face it without averting my eyes.
\nIt’s just that the struggles never disappear.<\/p>\n

\"megumi<\/a>
\nAs a fighter, can I fight properly? As a pro, can I shine? Right now, “Megumi Fuii” is at this borderline point, I think. <\/p>\n

I’ll write more later.<\/p>\n

Read the original blog at: Megumi Fujii’s blog<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Struggling, by Megumi Fujii. I think that as a fighter, I’ve been declining ever since I reached my peak when I fought in Bellator. That was in 2010. Since then, I’ve been struggling with myself. My reaction time, between my brain and body, is one beat off. It’s less than 1%, but I feel it,…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2890","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-translated-blogsarticles","category-14","description-off"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2890","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2890"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2890\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2890"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2890"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2890"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}