{"id":3573,"date":"2013-08-14T15:08:15","date_gmt":"2013-08-14T21:08:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/?p=3573"},"modified":"2013-08-14T16:29:07","modified_gmt":"2013-08-14T22:29:07","slug":"envy-and-embarrassment","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2013\/08\/14\/envy-and-embarrassment\/","title":{"rendered":"envy and embarrassment"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I didn&#8217;t used to be like this, but over the years, I&#8217;ve found myself becoming more meticulous when it comes to learning technique.  Maybe it&#8217;s because I&#8217;ve seen so many thousands of techniques over the 15 years I&#8217;ve been training.  But especially over these last 3 years or so, I can&#8217;t understand something if someone doesn&#8217;t explain it step by step exactly.  Not just &#8220;Put your hand on the neck and step back and pull.&#8221;  I need, &#8220;Angle your elbow down at 90 degree angle&#8230;then at the same time you pull down, drop your weight and step back, placing your foot 7 inches from this other foot, putting 50% of your balance on this leg and 50% on this leg.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Like, seriously, that is my idea of a good explanation that I can understand.  If you don&#8217;t do this, it takes me time to comprehend it, and I get really frustrated.  EVERYONE in the class got it and was doing it except me.<\/p>\n<p>As a pro with a record of 15-10, that&#8217;s really embarrassing.  For grappling it&#8217;s faster, but for striking it&#8217;s even worse.  If the teacher assumes I already know and just gives me a brief demo and expects me to do it, forget it, I want to cry already.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m so envious of everyone who just &#8216;gets it.&#8217;  What the hell happened to me? I used to pick it up so quickly. I&#8217;m trying to figure it out.  Maybe because I&#8217;ve had people explain a bit and then I waste my time and energy trying it out until I get it, like trial and error, I&#8217;m tired of it.  I don&#8217;t want the teacher to leave until I understand the concept so I don&#8217;t waste my time trial and erroring if they can just tell me. \ud83d\ude41 I dunno.<\/p>\n<p>I got really frustrated at Neo Judo last night, trying to do a technique, and I think I bummed everyone out.  I think I bummed the teacher out, and it wasn&#8217;t his fault at all.  I was just so confused, and it was so humiliating. ~_~  I didn&#8217;t know the Japanese language enough to ask the simple question I wanted to ask. That&#8217;s the worst.  <\/p>\n<p>I kind of got it in the end, but I couldn&#8217;t do it in sparring.  I guess we can&#8217;t always do new stuff immediately&#8230;but still. Or maybe my expectations are high and I want to do it perfectly the first time? Maybe that&#8217;s it&#8230;maybe I expect to be able to do it immediately.  <\/p>\n<p>I want to know if anyone is like this&#8230;.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I didn&#8217;t used to be like this, but over the years, I&#8217;ve found myself becoming more meticulous when it comes to learning technique. Maybe it&#8217;s because I&#8217;ve seen so many thousands of techniques over the 15 years I&#8217;ve been training. But especially over these last 3 years or so, I can&#8217;t understand something if someone&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3573","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-training","category-4","description-off"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3573","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3573"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3573\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3573"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3573"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3573"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}