{"id":3779,"date":"2013-09-26T09:58:06","date_gmt":"2013-09-26T15:58:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/?p=3779"},"modified":"2013-09-26T09:58:06","modified_gmt":"2013-09-26T15:58:06","slug":"watching-my-tuf-fight","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2013\/09\/26\/watching-my-tuf-fight\/","title":{"rendered":"watching my TUF fight"},"content":{"rendered":"

This episode of TUF was bittersweet for me. I really enjoyed what they showed of the house and our antics, such as me making Plato, and the nerf gun. It was cool hearing what other people said about me. Anthony\u2019s comments were so funny, skillfully spliced in with footage of me being just as he said.<\/p>\n

However, I was less than satisfied with my own performance. I was a little gassed coming into the second round, with muscle failure in my legs. In training in the TUF house, I wasn\u2019t able to do my normal cardio routine of running stairs. There were no stairs. I can\u2019t run on the treadmill because of a back injury. I just didn\u2019t have another alternate cardio routine, but I should have figured one out. I guess it’s my fault….? <\/p>\n

I started looking sloppy in the fight, and I\u2019m really disappointed in that. I want to show just as solid and crisp technique as any other UFC fighter. At least I kept fighting until I literally couldn\u2019t stand anymore. I\u2019m grateful for the ref for giving me every chance to continue to fight.<\/p>\n

Thanks to all of you for being supportive of me and nice. Some people say that I\u2019m too nice and past my prime and I should quit. Well, I\u2019m not ready to quit yet. I just joined a new team, and I\u2019m determined to get back into the cage at a higher level than I was before. <\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been super bummed out all week, but of course I couldn\u2019t let on. It started last week with me hearing my own scream on TV on the previews for the UFC. I hadn\u2019t even remembered that had happened, and I heard it and was like \u201csh*t, that\u2019s my voice!\u201d
\n It kept occupying my mind during training, but I did a decent job ignoring it and training hard. The loss is still fresh, and even worse after I rewatched it. I kept getting painful flashbacks of my fight during training, that I lost my cool a bunch of times, and had to hide in the bathroom for a while to compose myself. I have to keep reminding myself, \u201cThe more I gas in practice, the less I\u2019ll gas in the fight. The more it hurts now, the more I\u2019ll grow.\u201d<\/p>\n

I felt embarrassed I cried so much in front of Jessica, as I mentioned here.
\nlink to post-episode blog<\/a> I wanted to do it LATER. And I didn\u2019t mean to push Miesha away when she was trying to help me walk. I meant to say \u201clet me walk\u201d but it came out \u201clet me be.\u201d Sorry, that came out wrong.<\/p>\n

Well, I can’t talk about the future yet. The future hasn’t been set yet! But I still have to train hard. I’m so grateful to my new team, coach, and friends here in Vegas.<\/p>\n

It’s September 26th. I move to my new, permanent apartment on October 1st!<\/p>\n

This morning I feel like I’m going to break in half, so I’m going to take the day off. Which is weird, since I don’t have a job to refocus on… I miss teaching. :\/<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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