{"id":3852,"date":"2013-10-14T21:02:56","date_gmt":"2013-10-15T03:02:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/?p=3852"},"modified":"2013-10-14T21:43:48","modified_gmt":"2013-10-15T03:43:48","slug":"find-a-way-to-win-training-fighting-thinking","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2013\/10\/14\/find-a-way-to-win-training-fighting-thinking\/","title":{"rendered":"Find a way to win! (training, fighting, thinking)"},"content":{"rendered":"

The plan was to do the 11:30-1 MMA class, then training with John from 4:00 to 4:30, and then the BJJ class in the evening.<\/p>\n

That didn\u2019t happen, because I was weirdly hyper in the morning, and I couldn\u2019t stand sitting home. So I did BJJ this morning, and then went straight to MMA training. Double classes aren\u2019t good for me\u2026. <\/p>\n

I am apprehensive about Gi classes because the last time I did BJJ with a gi was when I visited Drysdale\u2019s last month, and before that, like twice at Groundslam, and then before that, 8 years ago\u2026. So I\u2019ve forgotten the grips and how to play the Gi game. I\u2019m embarrassed to call myself a purple belt. <\/p>\n

So I\u2019m constantly fighting myself mentally, trying to chill the hell out because I have such high expectations of myself that I can\u2019t meet. \uf04c But if I just don\u2019t go, that\u2019s just avoiding the issue, and I can\u2019t do that. Plus I love BJJ. \ud83d\ude42 It’s my favorite martial art!<\/p>\n

I did warm-up drills I worked with this white belt guy, who was saying he was tired, so I was being all encouraging, like \u201cjust five more!\u201d etc. He kind of looked at me like \u201cgimmie a break.\u201d Then I noticed he had cauliflower ears. So I asked him if he did wrestling. He said, \u201cWell, I fight. I fought in the UFC.\u201d I was like, \u201cOh damn!\u201d oops ! I should shut up.<\/p>\n

Then I found out he was JOSH HAYNES from the Ultimate Fighter Season 3. OOPS. He came in to class wearing a white belt. I didn\u2019t even recognize him! Fail my life\u2026. X_x;;;<\/p>\n

I kind of struggled understanding initial instructions of the instructor because of my need for explicit pin-point detail, so Josh ended up teaching me all the techniques. Lol THANK YOU. He\u2019s so cool. <\/p>\n

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Man, I got so frustrated in class. Lots of people criticize me for \u2018thinking too much\u2019 or \u2018overthinking.\u2019 Geez, I\u2019m not \u2018overthinking\u2019 already! I just need to know every detail about how something works before I can do it. I know so many different variations and possible ways of moving, that I don\u2019t know which one and which way.<\/p>\n

Apparently it\u2019s too much to ask. \ud83d\ude41 BUT I\u2019m grateful that many of my coaches and training partners are willing to take the time to explain to me. =_= This one guy swept me like 5 times with the same move, and then showed me what I was doing wrong. So now I won\u2019t get swept. THANK YOU! I love my teammates. I love Syndicate. <\/p>\n

I jumped into the MMA class, which had already started, and did some kick-@$$ technique! I always get bummed out if I don\u2019t get stuff immediately. <\/p>\n

Again, fighting myself mentally. And my ABC was hurting like a @#$*# so I was having trouble doing the move. It not serious and goes away soon enough, but DAMNIT. ~_~ What a frustrating class. But I\u2019ve been looking forward to training for two weeks since my freaking eye got cut. I wore a water proof bandaid and I think it\u2019s okay. \ud83d\ude00 Except the adhesive is so powerful, and I changed it three times during the day, so it is ripping the skin off, so now my face is burnningggggggggg. HAHAHA HILARIOUS, RIGHT??!<\/p>\n

And also! This is important. I used to baby my injuries a lot in training, and not really go so hard because I was afraid of making it worse. But in one of my fights were I was injured going in, I don\u2019t feel I performed to my best because I was still babying it. I told myself, “Just use it!” But I couldn’t ‘just use it.’ So I knew I had to get out of the habit of babying my stuff in training. Either use it all the way and suck it up, or do something else, but don\u2019t go half @$$-ed. They say \u201cyou fight like you train.\u201d<\/p>\n

And in a fight, you have to find a way to win.<\/u> People break stuff in fights, and there\u2019s no \u201chang on a second!\u201d People feel sick. But you have to find someway to use your body and your skills and what energy you have to win anyway. Like a take-down. If I throw myself into it not carrying about anything, I\u2019ll get it. If I go in worrying I\u2019m gonna twist my neck, I don\u2019t get the take down and I MIGHT just twist my neck.<\/p>\n

You have to get into that mindset to FIND A WAY TO WIN<\/b> with how you are at that moment. Man, the Korean Zombie? Remember how he dislocated his arm in the fight and freaking tried to pop it back in right there? That. Because on paper, nobody cares how injured you were going into a fight. It\u2019s a big fat LOSS there. <\/p>\n

And Dana White\u2019s inspirational speech to us at the TUF elimination fights, I\u2019ll never forget. \u201cSometimes you wake up and you don\u2019t feel on. You might feel sick. Whatever it is\u2026leave everything you\u2019ve got in there. Because you don\u2019t want to be that guy on the bus on the way home.\u201d<\/p>\n

That was my mantra during the second class. \u201cFind a way to win.\u201d
\nThe last thing I wanted to do was sit in a freezing cold icy bathtub.<\/p>\n

So I ate some ice cream to comfort myself, threw three bags of freaking ice in there, put on \u201cFuel\u201d by Metallica, and jumped in. Freaking hell, ice baths suck! The only thing worse is how I feel if I DON\u2019T do it. Ice baths help with reducing soreness and inflammation. And Miesha Tate ordered me to do them. :< After Fuel ended, I counted 30 seconds (cuz the song is 4:30 seconds long) and got out. \n\nI said, \u201cF you body\u201d and went and did training with John Wood. And it was AWESOMENESS. Man, I always feel like I improve every time! So exciting!! :D Thank you!\n\nSparring tomorrow. I\u2019m gonna try to use Force Healing Powers on my ABC body part. I know it\u2019ll stop hurting soon, but I want SOONER. I got work to do tomorrow. Whenever I fight next, I\u2019m gonna find a way to win because I DGAF. :) As Britany Spears says, \u201cYou better work b*tch!\u201d \n:)\n\n\nToday was REALLY hard, but a good day all in all. I'm gonna get stronger!!\n\n\nThis was long. Did you really read everything? lol\n\n\nAnd now for your listening pleasure, the song that I\u2019ve been listening to in the car to pump me up before training. (and my ice bath)\n\n\nNightwish\u2019s \u201cPlanet Hell\u201d\nThe intro is long, but keep watching!\n\n\n\u201cSave yourself a penny for the ferryman\nSave yourself and let them suffer\u201d\n\n