Man, it felt like this week really flew by.<\/p>\n
Part of me wishes\u00a0 I hadn’t lifted weights so hard on Tuesday…the rest of the week was SO painful, and my sparring was SO bad Thursday. \ud83d\ude41\u00a0 But I want to keep my muscle.\u00a0 I feel like my shoulders and back are boney. ~_~<\/p>\n
I’m constantly fighting myself and trying to manage my own urges.\u00a0 For example, through being a fighter and yo-yo dieting to control my weight, that switch that turns off my appetite got broken.\u00a0 Once I start eating, it’s hard to stop.\u00a0 I could eat so much and still want to eat.\u00a0 My dad was arguing with me the other day that I’m ‘just not listening to my body.’\u00a0 I wonder if that’s the case.\u00a0 But even when I go up in weight, I still want more.\u00a0 Or is that just because I wanna eat ice cream because it tastes good.\u00a0 I guess I don’t feel like eating then- it’s a combination of mental and physical.<\/p>\n
At any rate, it’s hard.\u00a0 After training on Thursday I was 131 lbs, so that’s good…. I’m eating a lot of protein.<\/p>\n
Every day, I’m getting more and more excited about going to London.\u00a0 I’m worried about food, though, since I have such a sensitive stomach and everyone tells me the food sucks.<\/p>\n
Oh, and it turns out there was a national holiday on Monday January 10th, but I am always off on Mondays.\u00a0 So our company has a policy called “Happy Mondays” where I can substitute that day for another one! \ud83d\ude00 I’m gonna use it to cover the day of my fight, so I don’t lose pay for that day! \ud83d\ude00\u00a0 See, I get wages,\u00a0 not salary.\u00a0 I already used up my paid vacation for the year, last summer.\u00a0 Every little bit helps.<\/p>\n
I really need supplement sponsors. ;_;\u00a0 A really nice couple, Claire and Michael Culver own a farm and actually donated to me personally… that’s SO nice of them. Thank you.\u00a0 I bought 100 bucks worth of protein and BCAA and vitimins using that.<\/p>\n
So it’s the weekend, and I work back to back lessons from 8 to 5:30 today, and from 8 to 3 tomorrow.\u00a0 It seems like a normal working day, but every lesson is high-tension performance, so it’s really more tiring than it would appear.\u00a0 I actually get out of work at 4:45 today instead of 5:30, and for ONCE I don’t like that.\u00a0 Usually I go straight to the gym, but this time I’ll have down time in between and I don’t want that.\u00a0 I wanna do my thing, go home, and sleep. u_U\u00a0 Nobody shows up to the gym early.\u00a0 I wanna spar sooner rather than later. hrm. I could go to ZST rather than the AACC since their class starts and ends earlier…but I’m not sure I can do the whole class, and since I’m crashing their practice as a non-member, that might be considered rude…I dunno what the Japanese would think, actually.\u00a0 They could just be\u00a0 acting polite….<\/p>\n
Look, I’m drawn into Manabelldo’s comic of Megumi Fuji!<\/p>\n
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