{"id":6257,"date":"2016-06-15T23:21:42","date_gmt":"2016-06-16T05:21:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/?p=6257"},"modified":"2016-06-16T22:14:26","modified_gmt":"2016-06-17T04:14:26","slug":"contemplating-my-fighting-career","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/","title":{"rendered":"contemplating my fighting career&#8230;&#8230;."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I started martial arts when I was about 13  because I saw heroes on TV, like the Power Rangers and Dragon Ball Z fighters, and thought they were so cool and bad-@$$.  They were strong and protected people.  I wanted to be strong and protect people.<\/p>\n<p>So I did Tae Kwon Do and LOVED it. Ended up I switching to Kempo Karate and loved it more.  The combinations we did were real life self defense things, like what if someone attacked you from behind? I also had my first taste of kickboxing sparring. <\/p>\n<p>I started lifting weights in my living room when nobody was looking.  I was shy and embarrassed and had no idea what I was doing at 14 yrs old with no instruction, but I liked to listen to my Mortal Kombat movie sound track CD and lift my 5 pound dumbbells hoping I&#8217;d get stronger. <\/p>\n<p>Then we moved to Massachusetts and I tried a TKD school in Massachusetts, but I got bored and fed up with striking arts.  I decided that hitting people was morally wrong and I needed to be peaceful and non-violent. Everyone should love everyone and talk out their problems. \ud83d\ude42 I joined the Dalton Judo club. I trained with Sensei Harry and his daughter Carry Chandler a lot. I also commuted (my mom commuted us lol) to 8th degree black belt and silver medalist in the Olympics Jason Morris&#8217; club in New York once a week. This became serious business.<\/p>\n<p>I thought to myself, I wonder when and if I&#8217;ll ever fight bad guys. <\/p>\n<p>I loved Judo so much and trained there for three years, only taking a break for soccer season. I achieved a brown belt.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/caitlin_erin_me_judo\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6258\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/Caitlin_erin_me_judo.jpg\" alt=\"Caitlin_erin_me_judo\" width=\"339\" height=\"261\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-6258\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nThen I graduated high school and my senior ranked friend John said, &#8220;Hey, come to Brazilian Jiu-jitsu class. It&#8217;s this new thing.&#8221; I was like, &#8220;Ppffft, don&#8217;t need it.&#8221; But in reality, I had injured my back in a Judo tournament and falling and twisting hurt so much. I couldn&#8217;t do Judo well anymore.  So after weeks of badgering me, I went with him to a Rich&#8217;s Royce Gracie association (his basement) in Adams and got hooked.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/2001-royce-association-bjj-club-adams-ma\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6259\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/2001-Royce-Association-BJJ-club.-Adams.MA_.jpg\" alt=\"2001 Royce Association BJJ club. Adams.MA\" width=\"427\" height=\"351\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-6259\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nI knew by now that I wouldn&#8217;t be fighting bad guys. If someone pulled a gun on me, I&#8217;d give them my wallet.  If they pulled a knife, I&#8217;d run away. If he tried to grab me, I&#8217;d kick him in the balls and run away screaming.  Only if he got me down on the ground would I break his arm or poke his eyes out or something.<\/p>\n<p>Heaven forbid. My BJJ friends loved the UFC. Again John convinced me to come over and watch with the BJJ team, and I did and thought, &#8220;Whoa that&#8217;s so violent!&#8221; I think my first was UFC 34 in 2001 where I saw Caol Uno fight BJ Penn. Matt Hughes slammed Carlos Newton.  Josh Barnett fought. Dang my memory sucks but as I&#8217;m reviewing wiki to remind myself of this card, I kind of remember seeing these fights.  <\/p>\n<p>I wasn&#8217;t sold on MMA. <\/p>\n<p>I did TONS of BJJ grappling tournaments, mainly NAGA. I moved to Amherst, Mass, and tried to find a BJJ club.  It was nice, but Rob Feiner, the coach, said Kirik Jenness&#8217; New England Submission Fighting academy was great, too, so I went there and guess what, everybody wanted to do MMA. So I did no-gi and MMA for the first time.  Fast forward a few years and I was working for an MMA event &#8220;Mass Destruction&#8221; and I saw this fighter, Laura DeAugust, fight MMA. I thought to myself, &#8220;I grappled against her in the tournaments, I can do that MMA, too! If she can do it, I can do it.&#8221; So I decided to do it.<\/p>\n<p>2003 I did my study abroad and told my Japanese sensei, &#8220;I wanna do MMA some day.&#8221;  He said &#8220;uh ok.&#8221; A month later he was like, &#8220;So you wanna fight Shinohara Hikaru in Smack Girl in November?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>What?! Already?!  Sure&#8230;.<br \/>\nNo amateur back then. I won $100 for my first fight, $200 for my second fight and I forget the third. Probably $300.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/smack-girlvsshinohara-hikaru-11-2004-2\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6260\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/Smack-GirlvsShinohara-Hikaru-11.2004-300x200.jpg\" alt=\"Smack GirlvsShinohara Hikaru 11.2004\" width=\"300\" height=\"200\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6260\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nFast forward, I won three fights in a year, and then had a moment of clarity.<\/p>\n<p>It was while I was walking home from training the summer of 2004.  I was 3-0 pro.  I had a talk with myself.  I was a junior, studying for a major in Japanese Language and Literature.  What was I going to do with my life? It sure as hell wasn&#8217;t going to be fight full time, and I knew that.  A few hundred dollars per fight? I needed a good job- like a high paying  job- translator would be nice. I would have to finish graduating school, and get a nice job and train on the side. <\/p>\n<p>I decided that my goal was to be the first woman in the UFC!  I would work hard to make my dream come true.  Then I told my parents I was doing MMA. LOL Read my autobiography for details.<\/p>\n<p>My career took off and I was pretty successful.  <\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/kirik_roxy_belts2\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6261\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/kirik_roxy_belts2-241x300.jpg\" alt=\"kirik_roxy_belts2\" width=\"241\" height=\"300\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6261\" \/><\/a><br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/modafferi_rivers-blasso18\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6262\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/Modafferi_Rivers-Blasso18-199x300.jpg\" alt=\"Modafferi_Rivers-Blasso18\" width=\"199\" height=\"300\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6262\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nI met my future employer in an elevator in Japan when I went there to fight, and ended up getting hired to teach English. In that way, I got the job I wanted that had a schedule that would allow me to train and fight.  <\/p>\n<p>Eight years and many fights I was in Japan.  Then I started going downhill around 2010.  <\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/sarah-kaufman-vs-roxanne-modafferi\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6263\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/045_Sarah_Kaufman_vs_Roxanne_Modafferi-300x201.jpg\" alt=\"Sarah Kaufman vs Roxanne Modafferi\" width=\"300\" height=\"201\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6263\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>MMA had really taken off in America and was declining in Japan. I kept losing. One. Two. Three. Four in a row. I tried dropping weight classes, getting various striking coaches&#8230;but I could just NOT LEARN STRIKING well. Sean did teach me the shuffle step and thinking in angles and triangles.  We had a falling out but he did help me with my stepping &#8230;.until then I could only go forwards and backwards. I trained so much and so hard, and my grappling got better, but my kickboxing just stayed sucky. It was crazy. I went through periods of giving up trying, to trying hard, to giving up and despairing.<\/p>\n<p>But I kept losing. Had a lot of amazing experiences and met great people&#8230;.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/rosi-wins-cw\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6264\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/rosi-wins-cw-300x200.jpg\" alt=\"rosi wins cw\" width=\"300\" height=\"200\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6264\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>&#8230;and my body hurt.  It seemed like I could barely recover. I was falling asleep in front of my stunts at work, my back was so bad I couldn&#8217;t train hard two days in a row. I could barely raise my left arm half the time.  Every day.  BUT I KNEW that I had some potential, that I COULD do it if only&#8230;..something. I didn&#8217;t know what that was.  If only. I sensed it. So I refused to give up.<\/p>\n<p>Then the Ultimate Fighter season 18 happened!<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/1264521_10151886098284664_84845977_o\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6265\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/1264521_10151886098284664_84845977_o-300x200.jpg\" alt=\"1264521_10151886098284664_84845977_o\" width=\"300\" height=\"200\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6265\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/roxy-icon-2\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6266\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/roxy-icon.jpeg\" alt=\"roxy icon\" width=\"256\" height=\"256\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6266\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nI was on a losing streak but I got into the house! And I was  TV star! And experienced what it was like to train in America. WOW! SO DIFFERENT. And in ENGLISH. I could understand! so many times when I asked my Japanese teachers something, they&#8217;d be like &#8220;You can try it like this or this but figure it out.&#8221;  grrrr noooooo I don&#8217;t want to figure it out, I want you to tell meeeeeeeeee.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/ep4-20130612_tuf_18_prelim_jessicarakoczy_roxannemodafferi_al_powers_0348-jpg\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6267\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/Ep4-20130612_TUF_18_PRELIM_JessicaRakoczy_RoxanneModafferi_AL_POWERS_0348.jpg-300x200.png\" alt=\"Ep4-20130612_TUF_18_PRELIM_JessicaRakoczy_RoxanneModafferi_AL_POWERS_0348.jpg\" width=\"300\" height=\"200\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6267\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>So TUF 18 happened and I lost and got out and decided, &#8220;My body doesn&#8217;t have much time left, so if I&#8217;m gonna do this, I better do it now.&#8221; So I quit my beloved job and left my adopted country on two months&#8217;s notice (that I wouldn&#8217;t even leave after the power plant blew up and blasted radiation everywhere) and moved to Vegas. Tried Drysdale&#8217;s gym. Loved it. Almost joined. Decided to try Syndicate MMA out of courtesy for my friend Amanda H. (Lucas) who had been inviting me for years. Took John Wood&#8217;s MMA class and holy sh*t.  The type of training, style, and everything was so on point, it suited me, and I could understand what he was teaching.  After a few days of trial, I decided to join Syndicate.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/roxy-has-heathers-back\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6271\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/roxy-has-heathers-back-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"roxy has heather&#039;s back\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6271\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nAnd then there was Jake Steckel.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/jake-roxy-revgear-2\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6268\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/jake-roxy-revgear-300x225.jpg\" alt=\"jake roxy revgear\" width=\"300\" height=\"225\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6268\" \/><\/a><br \/>\n Super chiropractor.  He kept me from breaking and kept me training and fighting.  It was like a miracle.  I started taking striking private lessons with John twice a week every week. <\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/mitts-about-to-strike-2\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6270\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/mitts-about-to-strike-300x204.jpg\" alt=\"mitts about to strike\" width=\"300\" height=\"204\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6270\" \/><\/a><br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/john-and-roxy-ready-for-battle2-3\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6269\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/john-and-roxy-ready-for-battle2-300x300.jpg\" alt=\"john and roxy ready for battle2\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6269\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s kind of ironic that the two most important turning points in my career came from men named John.<\/p>\n<p>When I lived in Japan, I tried not to go on vacation or I didn&#8217;t buy expensive things. I got all my furniture from thrift shops and what people left outside on the curb. I shopped at goodwill. I almost never went out and splurged and ate at super expensive restaurants.<br \/>\n I had this feeling I would be living off my savings someday. Recently I met the super masseuse Teri and I haven&#8217;t felt this healthy since I was 25, and here I am at 33.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m signed to Invicta, a really great organization.  I&#8217;ve had a lot of fights with them. They treat me so well.  I have nice sponsors who decorate my fight clothes and support my training with their funds. and my weigh-ins will go down in history.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/kitana-and-sub-zero-weigh-ins\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6272\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/kitana-and-sub-zero-weigh-ins-285x300.jpg\" alt=\"kitana and sub zero weigh ins\" width=\"285\" height=\"300\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6272\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Now what&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>People don&#8217;t start fighting to make money.  Training is too hard for that.  We do it because we love it.  I&#8217;m at the point now where I wanna be able to make some more money that I can put away for when I can&#8217;t fight. Right now, if I didn&#8217;t have my savings, I&#8217;d be in trouble.    But&#8230;. I also want to just fight. FIGHT MORE.  I want to show the results of my training.  I want to show that I&#8217;m the best.  That&#8217;s what my heart desires. I want to fight more than twice a year, but it&#8217;s hard.  Every fighter wants to fight a lot but we have to wait for the promotion to set it up, and there&#8217;s stuff involved, so I can&#8217;t really blame promotions. It&#8217;s just the way the MMA game works.  <\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m so motivated.  The first thing I think about when I wake up.  &#8220;Am I going to be able to land XZY technique in training today?&#8221;  Every day is exciting. Every day is fun.  Every day I have a chance to perfect moves and then I inevitably want to try them in a fight. Except my future is not financially secure. I can ignore that for now.<\/p>\n<p>And somewhere along the way I realized that you don&#8217;t have to wear a costume to be a hero.  I&#8217;ve always wanted to be a Power Ranger, and maybe this is my way to be one.  Although I do have a Red Ranger costume. \ud83d\ude42<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/tony-batman-vd-roxy-pic-2\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6273\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/tony-batman-vd-roxy-pic-300x174.jpg\" alt=\"tony batman vd roxy pic\" width=\"300\" height=\"174\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6273\" \/><\/a> The Red Ranger fought Batman once.<\/p>\n<p>I have many costumes, actually.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m really happy with my life.  I&#8217;ve accomplished so much! I think people won&#8217;t forget me when I stop fighting.  But I&#8217;m still training so hard and improving so much every month.   I want to get stronger and stronger. With the help of Teri and John and Team Syndicate, I feel like I&#8217;m picking up steam rather than slowing down.  And I love being a mentor to up and coming fighters and my kids class.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/2016\/06\/15\/contemplating-my-fighting-career\/roxy-teaching-kids-04-6-7-16-2\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-6275\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/roxannemodafferi.net\/RBlog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/06\/roxy-teaching-kids-04-6.7.16-1-300x196.jpg\" alt=\"roxy teaching kids -04 6.7.16\" width=\"300\" height=\"196\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-6275\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I love spreading positivity to anyone who will listen to me. <\/p>\n<p> I hope I get to fight soon! I&#8217;ve learned some cool new stuff and I wanna do it on my opponent before I forget because my memory sucks. Ask anyone who knows me&#8230;..LOL<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I started martial arts when I was about 13 because I saw heroes on TV, like the Power Rangers and Dragon Ball Z fighters, and thought they were so cool and bad-@$$. They were strong and protected people. I wanted to be strong and protect people. 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