Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

need a photographer/profile shots/sports shots/model shots?

Posted in Uncategorized on January 31st, 2014 by roxyfighter

I want to promote my friend Heather Clark. She’s a pro photographer (like, she went to school) and does amazing work.
She’s in the Las Vegas area. Her contact info is:
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What is “the Happy Warrior?”

Posted in friends, training on January 30th, 2014 by roxyfighter

My nickname is “the Happy Warrior.” But it’s not because everything is always alright with me. It’s because I always manage to find some positive thing in every situation, and I try and focus on it, and forget the negative. I smile to cheer myself up, I smile when I’m sad, I smile when I’m mad to try and change it to humorous. I smile because it freaks the other person out, hahaha.

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Today, sparring was excellent. I love the way the class is lead, and I loved working my technique. I had some goals that I met, some strikes that I landed, some positions that I did really well in. I’m very pleased with myself.

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On the other hand, I got beaten up, too. But that’s to be expected, right? But I almost got dropped by this guy, and he was moving so fast, that sometimes I couldn’t even see his combination. Then after he hit me hard, he apologized and asked if he should tone it down. I didn’t know what to say….yes but no. It was like a knife into my chest, in my pride. I wanted to block and return, but he was too good. He wasn’t even so much bigger than me. He was…. a man. And then he said, “Okay, I’ll just move around with you.”

And the most painful thing was that I felt him slow down and lighten up, to ‘my level,’ but it was necessary because he was just too strong for me. I HATE when people take it easy on me, but I hate it most of all when people HAVE to take it easy, and I KNOW they have to take it easy. I can barely stand it. I didn’t want him to have to be nice. I wanted to be just as strong, just as fast, just as powerful, and give him a good challenge. Basically, I KNOW that most pro fighter males in the gym won’t get AS GOOD a work out going against me as they would another guy. I know this. I don’t want to be sexist… we women have a right to train too, blah blah blah, but I’m just talking about how much more athletic they are than I am. 🙁

I had about five seconds to come up with some encouraging internal coaching to get my head together, and it was this: “I need people stronger, faster, and better than me.” I kept repeating that for the rest of our sparring session.

After it was over, I must have had some look on my face, because my teammate Sean came over and was like “What’s wrong?” I blurted out, “I wish I was a man!” and then went to cry in the bathroom.

Hahaha I bet he wasn’t expecting that one.

We chatted more later. Thanks, man. Even the Happy Warrior needs a pep-talk now and then.

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I came outta there and made a bee-line for a Brazilian fellow who I like sparring, and went as hard as I could. I got kind of smushed once he got on top, but I accomplished a few things before that.

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A lot of other stuff is weighing heavily on my mind.
But I can handle it. There’s no such thing as pitch black. I will find the light and celebrate it.

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All pics taken by Heather Clark, my friend, photographer, fighter.

sudden crazy trip to NY and TuffNuff

Posted in every day, family and holidays, friends, training, work on January 25th, 2014 by roxyfighter

I had some things to do in New York, and I wanted to visit my cousin, who is very pregnant, so last week, I took an abrupt trip. I didn’t let on until now, because I have lots of friends and other family there, so I hated to have to tell everybody “Sorry, I can’t see you, I have no time in my schedule.” :/

The whole trip was ridiculous. I’ll try and write about it in a nutshell.

It all started on Sunday night when I told my mom that I decided to stay with my Aunt, Uncle and cousins in New Jersey and drive into the city.
“WHAT?! You’re going to DRIVE?” she exclaimed. “I don’t want you driving in New York traffic ! They are maniacs! It’s so dangerous! I don’t want you going!” I was like, “Mom, I’m not going to NOT go to New York just because you’re afraid of me driving.”

But no, it was a big deal for her. Sunday night at 9 PM I was packing and she burst into my room, almost shouting, “Now I’m so upset I can’t sleep, and I have to get up at 4 AM tomorrow to take you to the air port!”

;_; Dude, this is about ME. Not YOU. I have to be the one doing this. She was stressing me out. I tried not to get upset.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA SHE WAS TOTALLY RIGHT. But I that didn’t change the fact that I had to do it.

I flew to New York, read a lot of “Miracle of Light’ (WOT) and took a shuttle to the rental car company, which was …..somewhere away from the airport. (this will become a problem later -_-)

The attendant said there was gonna be a snow storm on Tuesday, so he asked if I wanted to upgrade from economy size car to standard. It would cost me extra money, so I declined, but he did it anyway for free. So I got this Ford, and it was heavier. :{ I’m not used to it…I didn’t like it. And a window frame was in my way when I looked over my left shoulder to check my blind spot. I kept freaking out driving because I couldn’t see well, and it was dark. I had to drive using GPs to my Aunt’s house, but I did it.

Tuesday I left for New York City at 9 AM and a drive that should have taken one hour, took THREE hours because THE BLIZZARD OF THE SEASON decided to rain it’s fury and wrath upon the New Englander who escaped her grasp by moving to Las Vegas!

I was crawling at 20 miles and hour for much of the ride. (I took pics when we were at a stand still.)
You’re supposed to be able to see the city and the bridge looming above! NOTHING!

My car was slipping and sliding and I thought I was going to crash literally 5 or more times. And I had to pee, and ended up going at random gas stations and even a toll stop employee’s bathroom. Going there, and then coming back (which took me FOUR HOURS) was literally the worst drive of my entire life. The previous record was held by me 8 years ago when I drove to the NAGA tournament and got into a traffic stand still around the same area, on the George Washington Bridge, for like 2 out of 5 hours. And my old car started over heating and shaking.

The whole time I was in traffic this time (aside from text messaging Brittany and Heather ‘omfg look at these weather pics, I’m gonna die), I tried to be thankful. I’m thankful I get to see my cousins. That I’m safe, not in a bad part of town. I’m warm!!! I’m protected from ice and show. I have PLENTY OF GAS (although my car had no windshield wiper fluid, wth), I wasn’t lost. :}

But I did what I had to do and had a good day, other than transportation.

That was good, so it was worth it.

Wednesday I spent the whole day with my family. I went shopping with my cousin Adele, who is due in March!
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It looks like we’re in an igloo, but it’s the car. lol

I learned a lot about being pregnant and having babies, which is not in my immediate future, but that information might be useful in someway some day. Haha I love my family. But I was hearing Aunt Connie’s voice in my mind as I was trying to sleep. Fellow kids teacher, a music teacher! Strong, commanding voice! :} I need a more commanding voice… I’m too nice.

Thursday I went back into the city, but BY TRAIN! Boo yeah. It was much less stressful. Was successful in my day. And then got picked up by my cousins Adele and Alison in a car. We ate together and it was nice.

Friday….HAHA CHAOS! My flight left at 6:45 AM. I thought it would take me 30 mins to get to the aiport by car. So I woke up at 2:45 AM, and tried to get out of the house at 3:45, but actually left at 4 AM. Plugged in the address I had for the car rental office, 99 Bessemer street, checked GPS and it said 45 mins. CRAP, fine. So I sped a little on the high way (I mean going 70 mph in a 65 lol.)

I approached the GPS destination via route 1&9. I saw a sign that said “Bessemer street” with an arrow, but my GPS said another mile. I was like, “huh?” So I kept going. I never actually saw a sign that said “This is Bessemer street.” Then my GPS said, “Turn right onto station road.” So I did. And THERE WAS A HUGE METAL GATE CHAINED SHUT with a sign that said “road closed.”

“What the hell?!” I cried out loud. I was on a high way, I couldn’t just turn around. So I followed my GPS aka The Devil’s Voice which took me on a U-turn route by going straight and taking exits, and I came back around…only I didn’t see that “to Bessemer street” sign again. I just somehow ended up at the same closed road! That took about 15 minutes, and I’m starting to stress about my flight.

I pulled into a Hilton Hotel next to my closed road, and said to the Front Desk guy, “excuse me, can you help me?” He had no idea. I checked some written directions the rental place gave me, and I could not figure them out. They were so confusing. I called my car company office and no one was there because it was like 5 AM! So I did the same U turn route again trying to pull into another car rental place, and they told me that had no idea what E-Z park or Drive-O was. Omgggggg and then I found myself at the stupid Hilton hotel again.

I started crying in panic and frustration because now it was 5:25 AM. (flight at 6:45, boarding at 6:15) . Okay okay, after swallowing my emotion via jedi mind trick, I called the Drive-O roadside help or something or other, and some lady told me no, she never heard of Bessemer street, but her address shows Cargenie street? I should go there. My gps said it was 20 minutes away. SCREW THAT!!! O_O;;; panic….

Screw you guys, I’m not missing my fight. I had committed to TuffNuff to man my table, plus take care of other stuff. SO I did the freaking U turn route again, and went to The Parking Spot, freaking parked my car, left the ticket stub in my car, and took a shuttle to the airport. Screw them, screw New Jersey roads, screw the snow, screw the cold, screw my GPS, screw everything but the very friendly shuttle driver who was very reassuring and sped me to my terminal.

I checked in on time, hurried through security just barely. I got a little relief laughing at this dude in a car hat. haha ;D

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I power walked to my gate, and ate some freaking FROZEN YOGURT, thus saving my sanity. YAY SANITY!!!
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See? My sanity. 6 AM, a new early record, baby! XD (previous record was 9 AM)

Flew to Las Vegas!!!! MY HOME!! WARM! Left at 6:45 AM, arrived at 8:45 AM because of the time difference. Read more Wheel of Time. I read 200 pages in my entire trip. The Last Battle is underway. Landed 30 mins early! :} Mom picked me up, and I decided I didn’t wanna stress her out, since she gets stressed out easily, so I didn’t rant about my trip. Then the car company called me on the ride home.oh well. LOL So she got to hear me be like, “I drove around for HOURS and I could NOT find your place, so I left your car in parking lot C spot L! go pick it up! And I don’t expect to be charged for the day!” They agreed not to charge me if I overnighted them the key.

After I hung up, mom said, “I don’t wanna know. Just keep on top of it.” THANK YOU, Mom! 😀

Went home, got my gear, ran to the post office, spent 20 bucks mailing them the key, and then made it in time for MMA training. IT FELT SOOOO GOOD to train. I had literally been doing nothing but sitting my whole trip. I trained with Heather and Jeramie and my team. And I somehow couldn’t find my gloves, to Guns lent me his. Thanks, coach. ;_; Life saver….

After practice, I had to call my health insurance company to confirm payment because I’ve been having problems for MONTHS with them. I actually called, got stuck on call waiting, and drove ALL THE WAY HOME listening to the ‘hold music’ before I got to talk to a human being. When someone answered, I was near home, but pulled into a restaurant parking lot. Got that handled! 😀

Then went to TuffNuff!
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I sold my books and T shirts, met people, took pictures! It was awesome. :}
Heather helped me.
photo taken by Silton.

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and we met a man in a pizza suit. LOL I was on my way to the restroom, and screamed across the hall, “HEATHER!!! COME HERE!!!! Heatherrrrrrr!”
The guy in the pizza suit actually started laughing.

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Lots of great, exciting fights! Syndicate team members did pretty well. Congrats to Caleb and Jamie on impressive victories. Even Corey who unfortunately lost, was beating up his guy, and side-kicked him in the head like twice. It was so cool.

Lots of people! TuffNuff is awesome!
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And I got to chat with Tonya Evinger a bit.

Thanks to Heather and her friends for hanging out with me and supporting me in selling my stuff.
Went to bed at 11:30 PM exhausted.

/end of craziness

For now ….

The Positivity Challenge (my day, training, pics, stuff)

Posted in every day, friends, training on January 16th, 2014 by roxyfighter

I woke up feeling physically crappy, and it lasted alllllll daaaaaaay lonnnnng. I suffered all day. ;_; It really sucked. I was cranky and even snapped at my mom. Training was hard.

So. Here comes the positivity challenge. I’m going to list every good, positive thing that happened, so by the end of this entry, we’ll both see just how great my day was, and that it was actually an awesome day.

1) I wrote more of my newest book (Positivity book, which was hard cuz I didn’t feel positive. lol) but I was productive with that!

2) the Muay Thai coach Master Nope introduced me to this Japanese girl, who just finished the morning Muay Thai class when I went in! We spoke Japanese. She’s from Saitama! It felt so good and natural to be speaking Japanese again!
😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 I hope she comes a lot! I hope she’s nice! 😀 I hope we make friends! 😀 I really want a Japanese friend!

3) Chaz and John taught me (and the class) a new kick. Well, not ‘new.’ John taught me one variation the other day, and this one today.

4) During sparring, I did that kick and also others, and also every combination I’ve been working on with Coach John. YES!!!

5) I tried the new Mango chicken plate at El Pollo Loco. I’ve been dying to try it for at least two weeks now.

6) Someone bought my book at the front desk! (I’m selling them at Syndicate now, autographed)

7) I’m starting to memorize that song, Bijuu Counting song from Naruto. I wish I could download it from somewhere. ~_~

8) one of the best team pics ever was taken

9) I got chiropractic treatment by steckel, and started feeling a little better in all ways.

10) popped over to Heather’s house….and felt really happy that I could be so close to a close friend.

11) Ran stairs at the Orleans, using a new method, which I think is gonna be better for me in the long run! Run. Haha. Instead of just going up all 21 floors, back down, and then up again, I’m going up and down ten flights a bunch of times. My legs burn out less and I get more wind. I’m pleased. Cardio!

There are a bunch of negative things I could have added, but I’m not.

Because look, 11 unique things happened, off the top of my head.

The pic:

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Okay, now look again….do you guys truly understand how awesome this picture is? Lemme point a few things out….

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As you can see, 50 studs on the mat today.

😉 Oh, it’s just an estimate. Haha Just teasing John. But seriously, there were a ton of people….we spread out into both mats, the cage and the ring to get enough room. I <3 Syndicate.

friends, T-shirts, training, NARUTO!!!

Posted in amusing, every day, friends, fun, training, work on January 15th, 2014 by roxyfighter

It’s been a good week so far.

I had dinner with my friends…hah I forget which day now, my mom’s memory is better and she’s older. lol My dad’s good friend from middle and high school is Bruce, and I made good friends with his wife, Anna. I enjoyed their hospitality and I got to hear some childhood stories of my dad! Apparently, he was a sports star, and was like the captain of the soccer team and baseball team? 😀

Bruce and I! 😀
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Aaaand training is awesome, as usual. I’m working on the angle of my kicks so I can stop kicking people in the privates. (sorry Raquel! 😡 and Jeremy. And everybody.) But I’m getting better, I swear. 😀 I will be safe before you know it! :}
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My teaaaaaaam! (click to enlarge)
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Learning technique. Thanks, John Wood, Mike Pyle, and John Gunderson.

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Sales of my books are going well! Thanks to everybody who bought one! 😀 you can get it here:
(fan named Molly )

I will be going to TuffNuff to cheer on my teammates, and also to meet fans and sell my books and T-shirts! Come say hello! Jan 24th at The Orleans Casino is where the MMA event takes place.
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I started a conditioning program with our resident S&C genius Norm Turner. First day was good. Man, my legs and butt hurt the next day. After the second session, I ended up crying from legitimate pain…hahaaaaaaa but I iced and the next day I felt better. YAY Ice. I love ice. Ice….cream…. yes. I caved in and had some ice cream today. ;_; Well, frozen yogurt, anyway. But from cutting it out and being stricter with my diet, I lost like a pound and a half since last week. I’m trying to diet a bit. *shifty eyes* And I bought my mom a napoleon dessert, and had to sample some to make sure it was any good. ._.

whoa went off topic there…
Today was my light day – morning private mitt session with coach John. Power’n up beforehand!!
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I’m wearing all red!

Speaking of new clothes, I supported my friends and fellow TUF 18 fighters by buying their T-shirts. Would you like to, too?
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yeah so anyway, in training and I arbitrarily renamed one of John’s moves (to a so-much-more-cool-name) that when he called out the old one, I was legitimately confused for a second as to what he meant. lol baka me

On Monday, I hung out with my friend Tony from Cali for a bit between my training and chores and stuff! 😀 We wandered around Fremont street, and went into this gift shop, and I gotta say….WHAT DOES THE FOX SAY?! XD

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Yes, I am goofy, and I don’t care!! :}

These past few days, I’ve been watching a lot of Naruto. I looked up fillers and skipped like 10 eps. I watched from like shippuden 311, skipped to 320, and now I’m at 330. Fillers means the production crew makes up some side plot episode to give the writer time to come out with new plot.

But MAN, watching these was like waiting for the planet Namek to explode! (DBZ ref.) There were SO MANY FREAKING FLASHBACKS but I couldn’t fast forward because they were interlaced with real new story. Tricky bast***s. ~_~; grr.
and then came episode 329 which is probably my favorite episode everrrrrrrrrr.
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I won’t spoil anything and I’d appreciate it if nobody spoils me, who’s seen more than me.

I had been laying in bed watching ep after ep and before I knew it, it was 11:30. (I always go to bed at 10:15 PM) lol So this was late for Roxy.

I love Naruto. I just realized that I’ve been watching this for 11 years. When they showed the flash back of the first episode ever, I remembered sitting in my college dorm room. I even forgot how I found Naruto in the first place. And then the Chounin shiken, I was in my host mother’s house in Japan. And then the Pain part of Shippuden, I was in Kawasaki. And here I am, 31 years old. It’s actually quite remarkable how the author manages to make this show NOT dumbed down for little kids…. although it’s fine for kids. Stuff emotionally involve us adults, and inspire people like me. Naruto is such a good series. I was so excited last night I wanted to jump out of my futon. Er, memory foam mattress.

I miss my futon. 🙁 I still prefer to sleep on the floor, so I got a memory foam thing and I sleep on that.

oh yeah, you can get my Happy Warrior T-shirt here:

[edit] omg I didn’t even realize I just posted a pic of the Nine-tails FOX from naruto. LOL I know what the fox says! “omae, korosu zo, teme!” LOL