Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

BJJ Rowdy Rollers, overtraining, BJJ seminar

Posted in friends, fun, training, work on January 17th, 2017 by roxyfighter

This Sunday, I went to a monthly or bi-monthly event called “Las Vegas Rowdy Rollers.” It’s a women-only Brazilian Jiu-jitsu training session held at various locations, this time, the Cobra Kai gym in North Las Vegas. I’ve heard about this before but never went, due to the fact Sunday is the only day I don’t train some kind of martial arts.

I’m hesitant to call it a “rest day,” since I never sit around and do nothing. I take a 30 min walk mixed with sprints, and then go to Yoga, and sometimes run stairs. That’s it. I’m usually so exhausted or sore from the previous day’s training I just want to lay down and watch anime, or go to a movie. Sunday is usually my movie day.

Well this Saturday, instead of doing yoga, stairs, BJJ, and kickboxing classes consecutively, I did a BJJ seminar hosted by Syndicate with Marcio Pontes. He is formerly Jose Aldo’s coach and is in the States to corner Naldo, who fought on WSOF a few weeks ago in NY. So that was So fun and educational but we didn’t roll hard, so I still had energy. Plus I had gotten elbowed in the eye on Tuesday and it still hurt, so I didn’t wanna do kickboxing. πŸ™


So yeah, I learned a trick on how to finish the straight armlock, a pass, a scramble, and I’m trying to remember what else…. I worked with Captain’s friend Naldo. (brown belt standing behind me) I like that guy a lot. πŸ˜€ He has such smooth jiujitsu! I could actually semi-communicate using what little Portuguese I know! Yay a chance to practice what I’ve been studying with Thais. Did I mention that? I’m doing a language exchange with Captain’s wife Thais. I also want to make friends since she seems so nice, but first we gotta be able to speak to each other. So yeah, we’ve been meeting once or twice a week for the past month. πŸ˜€ It feels so good to teach English again! I really miss my old job at Berlitz. I know how to build language ability from the bottom up, so I craft a lesson for her, and then get her to teach me the same stuff in Portuguese. πŸ™‚

So awesome seminar on Saturday, and I felt energetic enough to go to the event after yoga on Sunday! I liked it a lot! I really hoped there were upper belts there so I could test myself and I got to roll with a few. They gave me some tips, for which I’m so grateful. They were concerned about ‘overstepping their boundaries.’ Well, they’re not if I ask them a question. But maybe I shouldn’t ask a question? No, wait, we should always ask questions…shouldn’t we? I’m confused. Well, I’m one of those people against gym hopping. I used to go to various gyms for various things in Japan and I’m so weary of it. I’m so thrilled that I have everything I need at Syndicate….mainly, excellent coaching. I wouldn’t want MY students gym-hoping. I want to raise my students and feel good about their wins, and not have them show other rival gym’s people my moves. However, this event wasn’t really a class under a specific teacher. It was just rolling. So it was fine in my eyes…. I guess?


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But I learned a third way to shrimp. And a few bad habits I have! I’m so excited. I was also really impressed that nobody spazzed out on me. I was kind of nervous rolling with new people, to be honest…who knows if they’re going to spaz out and ELBOW ME in the eyeball again… I know it was an accident and I’m not really mad, because I’ve hurt my training partners by accident and it sucks for all parties. But yeah, I ended up not tapping anyone out, and didn’t get tapped out, well, I think the black belt tapped me once but she wasn’t trying to kill me.

I loved seeing my old student Rhyanna again!
I took a ninja snap shot while she was rolling. (bottom)

It was SO cool not to get out-muscled by other women! Like how Captain lets me sink in a full rear-naked choke and I couldn’t finish it. Meaning his neck and hand muscles are stronger than my entire body arching backwards. ;_; plus he prolly was offsetting the angle a bit. grrr My confidence evaporated because that’s my best move.

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Monday morning I had a dream that I was on a bus with my teammates (Khalil, Lorenzo, Serena, Jessy, John, and others were there.) We pulled up to a Mansion that had Harry Potter stuff in it, so I guess it was Hogwarts? There was supposed to be some kind of Judo competition in the basement and there were women walking around with gis but I couldn’t find mine, so I spent most of the dream running around the mansion looking for my gi.

Monday I woke up SO tired. Bone tired. Mentally and physically I just didn’t wanna be awake.
I had the devil of a time deciding what kind of training to do. I decided that not getting punched in the eye was best, so I ran stairs with Serena, did no-gi jiujitsu because I’m in better control of what’s going on, and skipped the MMA class. :/ After my shower I was about to leave the gym and thought, “Don’t look at the class. Don’t look at the class…” because I knew I’d feel bad about not doing it. But I looked. And they were doing interesting stuff. AND I FELT SOOOO BAD. ;_; and regretted not training. But I couldn’t move…..

So yeah. Went home. Took a nap while watching Dragon Ball super eps 52-54, and The 100. Haha the King of All Things is so cute. Went back to teach kids and Serena assisted. I’m so thankful for that because the class is getting big and I can send new kids or the partnerless kids her way.

It’s Tuesday now and I feel a little more energetic. I wanted to do a tournament on Jan 21st but NOBODY IS IN MY WEIGHT DIVISION AGAIN despite being in California, but I checked the Jiujitsu World League Jan 28th in Orange County and there’s ONE lady so far! πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ YAY so I signed up for that.
and my friends at Remove it Restoration will sponsor our trip! πŸ˜€ Thank you, Eric and Beth!!
And The Void!! <3

Graviola vid, jiujitsu stuff, double-teaming, Invicta preview, anime

Posted in friends, fun, training on January 10th, 2017 by roxyfighter

I made another video for Herbal Papaya! This time talking about the Graviola Powder product! Check it out! It’s only a minute long.

I wrote a preview article for Invicta 21! I got exclusive interviews with Celine Haga (that women has such an inspirational story! Please read!), Andrea Lee, and Raquel Pa’aluhi!
http://mmasucka.com/2017/01/09/roxanne-modafferis-invicta-fc-21-preview/

I really wanna fight MMA! I really hope I get on the next Invicta card!

I wanna do the http://nabjjf.com/ tournament on Jan 21st but there is STILL NOBODY IN MY WEIGHT DIVISION wthhhhhhh ;_;

There IS ONE PERSON signed up for the BJJ World League on Jan 28th. http://www.jjworldleague.com/ I gotta lose weight for that. They’re both in California. I really want to compete in January because I hope I’m going to fight in March but nothing is set yet.

I’ve been doing every morning gi jiujitsu class lately. They’re so great! The numbers are increasing more and more! We have new people all the time, and a few belted folks moved in from out of town or other gyms. Yay. Captain runs a great class. Last week he taught this reverse triangle from back control that had me super excited.

I had the honor of training with Captain’s friend Marcio, a black belt and coach from Brazil. He was so tired but still kicked my butt, and even gave me advice, which I had to have Captain translate.

Yesterday, after the big kid’s class, I asked Rick (head kids coach) if he would roll with me, and he spent about 15 minutes with me and alerted me to a few mistakes I was making. πŸ˜€ <3 Black belts. My little kids class was huge yesterday. I'm so grateful Serena came to help me. Lorenzo put me through a shoulder workout on Friday and I'm still in pain from it. I gotta do some legs today to prove that I can do my homework and get better before our next session this coming Friday. I've also been studying my Japanese and Portuguese, per my New Years resolution. I've been almost overtraining lately, but my body's holding together.
Here’s a great shot of me and Donny, seconds after our sparring ended on Tuesday. Thanks Jessica Bakan. link to her site That was the day I did stairs, BJJ class, MMA class, and leg conditioning for 4.5 hours. Too much. But I made it. Lorenzo wants me to meet with him a second time in a week, but Wednesdays are not good for him, but my only other light day besides Sunday. I don’t know how that’s going to be possible unless someone adds an extra day to the week. *shrug* Hey, I’m already doing triple the physical activity I did before my last fight when I made the vow about jiujitsu.

I hit a curb in the dark on Saturday, and although my tire was fine Sunday morning, went flat on the way to the movies with Serena that afternoon, so my tickets I bought ahead of time were wasted and I can’t get a refund. ;_;. We saw a different showing of Underworld: Bloodwars, though. It was good. Not as fantastic as I expected.

Going back to Saturday, Captain didn’t have a partner for one round of kickboxing so I approached him, but Serena was approaching him, too. He was like “Let’s go!” so we decided to double-team attack him. XD HAHAHA It was so funny!! I wish someone had gotten a video of that.

He looked at the space in between us and saw us in his peripheral vision, and threw out attacks and defended decently. I got hit in the face a bunch of times. hah I landed a few things….but I’m sure he could have killed us both if he really wanted to. He once said that he was undefeated in street fighting, and I can believe it. XD


Anyway, enough ranting about jiujitsu and Captain. What else. I used the last of my Fuzzy’s gift card having a girls’ night with Jessy and Serena last week. That was fun. πŸ™‚

I gave my student Kaiden a 4th stripe. I really want to promote him, but I want him to improve his armbar first. He outgrew his white belt, so I can’t wrap it around twice now. If I can just get him to do it like 20 times to me in a row, I’m sure he’ll get the hang of it.

Anime:
I finished Ajin season 2. People who can’t be killed and are experimented on, fight for human rights…

I finished Drifters season 1. Imagine gathering fighters across time to fight a war in a new world…

I rewatched Kabaneri of the Iron Fortress. Zombies called “Kabane.” nuff said. No, but it’s a unique story- one guy gets bitten but despite his body turning into a kabane, his mind is still sane.

My 2016 in pictures

Posted in every day, family and holidays, fight, friends, fun, moving, training on January 1st, 2017 by roxyfighter

In February, I did an MMA seminar at KSA in Tennessee!

Kerry and Emma visited for a few weeks from England to train! <3

I was invited to watch The Ultimate Fighter Season 23 elimination fights, where Jamie, Khalil, and Cory made it into the house. I got a nicer picture with Dana than I had before (when I had a huge black eye), and I took a pic of the camera crew interviewing Coach John because he’s awesome. I actually got in trouble for taking this cuz somebody noticed. They told me to delete it but I didn’t. lol Hey, I didn’t take a picture of any of the actual fights!!

In March. My kids class is growing, from three kids to a small group!

I started getting treated by Teri, the most fantastic massage therapist I’ve ever met, and she made my pain go away! My training and life improved so much!

Also in March, Invicta 16 happened and I got to become Mileena!


I got to meet my good friend Patrick, who I’ve known online for years but had never met before!


I won!
My friends dressed up and it was incredibly epic.

I won!

In April I got to see my Aunt Mary and Uncle Steve, then I went to my baby cousin’s baby shower with my Dad and Marion, so I got to see all of my family except my Uncle Fran! πŸ˜€ I even got to train with my old training partner/coach Dave and see Kirik!

In April, Serena won her Tuff-N-Uff fight!

At the end of April, Mom, who I’d been living with for almost three years, moved to New York, and I moved in with Hannah.

I decided to start doing more gi. I got a beautiful black gi from Dragon do.

I started asking Casey for private lessons in the gi. He’s an incredibly excellent teacher. I’ve grown because of him.

My friend Brittany visited Vegas from Japan and stayed with me. I dressed up as Rey from Star Wars for John’s son Maverick’s birthday party.

I finished Naruto!

I settle into my role as sole teacher of the 4-7 year old kids jiujitsu class and made it 5-7. I also took over Chris’ position helping Coach Rick teach the older kid’s jiujitsu class in addition to my younger class.

Aussie Jessy Jess Clark (purple hair) came to Syndicate and decided to join!

Hannah left me for a man and moved out, so Jessy moved in to the empty room. lol !

I came to realize that Captain is my favorite jiujitsu teacher of all time, and I want to be his disciple, kind of like the BJJ version of John. <3

I’ve tried to make more of an effort to spend time with my female training partner friends.

I fought in Invicta 19 for the title against Jennifer Maia. I got to be She-ra, the Princess of Power (and rocked it, if I do say so), and John got to be He-man. But he’s always been He-man to me. ^_^

And it was a war.


She won by split decision. I had fought really well and was happy with my performance. Of course I was very disappointed I lost, but my friends distracted me with multiple birthday parties, lots of cake, ice cream, and Taco Bell.

I turned 34 years old.

John told me to get stronger and put on muscle, so I started consistently lifting weights about three days a week.
I also decided to throw myself into jiujitsu gi classes, because I felt I was stronger when I was more into jiujitsu. I promised myself I’d train double classes, which I had always avoided because it made me tired for MMA class. I decided I’d do it anyway and trained till I dropped.

Every time I started getting frustrated in class, I started telling myself that a Jedi doesn’t need emotions. And it works.

My best friend Serena also lost her fight before that, and that was devastating.

In October, I hosted a Halloween party! and became Goku for Costume Sparring at Syndicate.

I moved into a three-bedroom apartment with Serena and Jessy!

I promoted a student for the first time! Preston gets gray white! Despite being challenged with Autism, he always tried so hard at jiujitsu and to be a good person and nice to his classmates!

I tried a jiujitsu tournament, my first in 11 years, and lost both matches. I was devastated. I kept the consolation medal so when I looked at it, I was reminded that emotional pain hurts more than physical pain. I’ll throw it away when I get one that I earn.

In December, two of my students competed in a jiujitsu tournament and they both won all their matches and got first place! I was so happy I cried a lot.

My kids class has gotten so big! πŸ˜€

I went to Boston to visit my dad! He told me to retire from MMA and get a better job, but other than that, it was nice. Who listens to their parents anyway? πŸ™‚

It’s a shame people are saying “2016 sucks.” I had plenty of negative things happen to me, but while looking through the pictures, I see all the positive things that happened, plus things I don’t have room to post.

I have goals.

I will put one of these in my closest and throw the other in the trash can. To do that, I must go defeat all the other purple belts at tournaments. I need to improve more and more and prove that I’ve improved. I don’t just want the symbols, I want to get so good at jiujitsu that everybody will know my subs are coming but can’t do anything to stop them. I want people to be like, “Oh she has the back, it’s all over!!!”

I also will restate my New Years resolution: same as last year with one addition. Study Japanese for at least 30 minutes every other day. I kept that one until my fight in September! That’s great, huh? For 9 months I kept that resolution! This time I’m adding 15 minutes of Portuguese every other day. I’ve started doing a language exchange with Thais, Captain’s wife. So if I keep that up twice a week, that’ll keep my resolution covered.

Also, I will fight a lot and win all my MMA fights! Get a knock out. Just to prove I have the ability.

At Syndicate, I found a coach who can teach me striking, a feat impossible before. This year I made up a technique – The Roxycopter! (Serena named it) I found a massage therapist, Teri. I found a jiujitsu coach I commit to, who is also an inspiration because he’s a teacher and fighter, just like me. I think I may have found a physical trainer I can trust. Can he help me fix what I haven’t been able to fix for a decade?

In Syndicate I trust.

And as you can see, people made up so much of what happened to me. I met people, made friends, became closer with friends I already had, was treated well by my sponsors. Thank you to everyone for being a part of my life, whether you be my mother, my roommate, my training partner, my friend, my fan who interacts with me on social media, or the fan who has never contacted me but watches me fight and wishes me well. Thank you for your energy!

My Christmas vacation trip

Posted in family and holidays on December 28th, 2016 by roxyfighter

I had a nice Christmas vacation.

I went to Boston from Friday to Tuesday morning. I trained not a bit other than taking two walks, jumping jacks, squats, and push ups. I ate A LOT. And it was great.

Throughout the year, I don’t talk to my dad as much as my mom because he’s so busy at work, so it was great to get to spend time with him. However, the first day I was there, he gave me the anticipated speech about how he wants me to stop fighting and consider another line of work. However, this time, it was way more forceful and kind of bummed me out for most of my trip. I’m prepared for my parents’ disapproval…. what parent REALLY wants their kid to fight for a living? But kids also desire their parents approval in general, and it sucks I can’t get mine.

Hey, if I were flat broke and I came to him, “Dad, can I borrow five thousand dollars to hold me over to my next fight?” then that is a different story. If I were him, I’d tell me, “No, dear, you need to take responsibility by making do with a more well-paying part-time job, or get a full-time job and train at night.” But I’m NOT doing that.

Of course I want a family and kids SOME DAY, and more money . I don’t date because a boyfriend is distracting, and I only meet people at my gym, and I don’t wanna date anyone from my gym. My step-brother just got engaged. My two cousins are married with kids. If I have a kid, I wanna be able to quit my job for a few years to take care of the infant and have a husband who has a job in which we can make do. I will not fight. I will not be one of those parents to brings their babies to the gym to cry while everybody else is trying to train. It’s not a priority right now in my life.

whoaaaaaaa I went off on a rant there. I’m sure my dad is glad I haven’t settled down with a fighterguy.
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I’m actually not allowed to write anything on social media while I’m visiting because Dad demands privacy. I got in big trouble for posting a picture of pizza on instragram…. One of my step-siblings ratted me out by accident…. thanks. It’s just pizza….
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I’ll probably get in trouble for this blog…unless I block all my step family on Facebook. πŸ˜€

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Anyway, ate good food, got scolded for not knowing current events (excuse me for not spending my precious time and energy on things that don’t effect my life and I won’t care about in another few months), ate the best Mexican enchiladas on the planet, watched lots of football, and got included in a card game with my step-cousins.

I got lovely presents and I am very grateful for them.γ€€γ€€However, all I really cared about was the time spent with Dad. “All I want for Christmas is you!” is totally true. Just buy me a plane ticket and call it my present.

AND THIS probably topped my Christmas gift experienced and it was a gift from like 20 years ago. XD
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I found it when I was looking through some of my boxes that I left in the basement. I can’t wait to find out if it still works.

I missed my mom and my extended family, but you know, I accepted the fighter life-style, which means missing family for the holidays. I hope I’ll get to fight in March. That’ll make 6 months since my last fight…

I’m going to do a jiujitsu tournament in California at the end of January. The one in Cerritos college is 4-5 hours away but looking online, nobody’s signed up for my weight division yet. The one in San Jose is supposed to be bigger but it’s like 8 hours away. πŸ™ I don’t really wanna do that but I really wanna compete…. I physically can’t sit that long. My neck, shoulders, back, and knees start hurting. It’s a problem.

This entry comes across as a little negative, doesn’t it. Well, life isn’t perfect but I’m glad to be back to Vegas and a place where people accept and admire me, and where I have self-worth….

I went to Captain’s evening jiujitsu class because I had missed morning training. I seriously felt like a zombie because I had woken up at 2 AM Boston time (11 PM Vegas Time) to travel 30 mins to the airport to catch my 6 Am flight. I was so tired but enjoyed class. I got to roll with Captain a lot.
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That was fun. I love training with him.
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I can’t submit him even with a choke fully sunk or armbar fully sunk…He said one of my chokes was close. Close is as good as I’m gonna get. haha

new women’s weight divisions in the UFC

Posted in every day, family and holidays, fight, friends on December 14th, 2016 by roxyfighter

Dana White had said there would never be women in the Octagon. Then enter Ronda Rousey. Then the 115 lb division happened. Now he and other men in charge are saying a 125 lb division would deplete 135 and 115. (meaning they are admitting half of those people in those divisions really belong in 125 . yep! But guys, changing weight divisions isn’t like buying a donut or not. It’s years of putting on or losing muscle, having such low body fats our periods stop or our kidneys and livers panic….) Then Mr. White said that the 125 lb div would probably be next. Then they go ahead and make the 145 lb division for Cyborg. What?

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Hey, I get it. It’s a business. I’m a HUGE Dana White fan. I don’t believe “he lies,” as someone people are saying. I think plans just change. He’s a great businessman.

However, the excuse about depletion is….well, not true, I think.

If Dana White or Sean Shelby read this, no offense, I love you, you’re my heroes. πŸ™‚ I do get it. I know it’s only a matter of time!

They found Alexandra Albu who was 5-0 in Poland. She’s hot as hell….I found out about her cuz the guys on the Underground Forum wouldn’t stop posting booty pics of her.

Looking at the UFC website now for lists of female fighters…..

Ericka Almeida I’ve never heard of but she’s 7-2 out of Brazil and seems like a bad-ass.
Izabela Badurek I’ve never heard of. 5-3 after her loss to Badurek.
Anna Elmose is someone I have no idea who she is. Looking at her record, she’s 3-2 which means she was signed at 3-0. She lost to Amanda Bobby Cooper, and before that, to Germaine de Randamine…hang on a second, Germaine fights at 135. So she went down two weight divisions. wtf?

So the point is, there are women people haven’t even heard of, plus more well known fighters that you probably could name off the top of your head. How can the excuse still be used that “there are not enough fighters in XYZ division?”

I’ve been fighting for 13 years. People like to ask me in interviews if I want to fight for the UFC. Guys, I’m signed to Invicta. When you are at your company’s press conference, you don’t say to the board of directors, ‘Yeah I’d rather be at the company next door, but thanks for the paycheck!’
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Of COURSE I want to see the 125lb division come into existence in the UFC.

Sometimes people ask me how I feel about Valerie Letourneau being in the UFC despite me having beaten her in the Ultimate Fighter season 18. I say, good for her. I got to have the public exposure and experience on the show that she didn’t have, so I’m glad she can also have a good career. I did win, though….

It’s too bad a lot of her publicity nowadays is the fact she almost died TWICE to make 115. Good for MMA that that stuff is being brought to light, bad for her. Dude, I met her at a Tuff-N-Uff amateur show in Vegas and we talked. She said that she would refuse to fight at 115 again and wait until they made 125 lbs before she fought. I was kind of excited to hear that. Someone was taking a stand, I thought!!

Then I heard the announcement her fight was set (that she just did) at 115 and I thought, “welp, have fun with that, girl….” And then she missed weight. She doesn’t have Cyborg or Ronda star-power in order to influence the UFC bosses to create a division just for her.

I know decisions are made around money. It’s a business. We are athletes but that is secondary. We have to fit into their schemes and plans. I’m not the one looking at the ratings, the profits, the expenditures. I don’t know all the contract details. Neither do guys, right? So I have my opinions, you have your opinions, but we don’t have all the information.

I’ve got people on my Facebook saying very STRONGLY “Oh obviously there aren’t enough women at 125 so 145 is obviously the best choice.” I wanna be like “Well, everyone is entitled to their opinions EVEN IF THEY ARE WRONG.” I can only name under ten 145 lb fighters off the top of my head, but tons more 125-ers.

I am a little disappointed about the creation of 145 lb division before 125, but I know it’s all a matter of time. I’m sure there is a financial backing for that decision. And hey, I’m not a huge, scary, Brazilian woman who’s one-of-a-kind in the world who has decimated most of her opponents in under a round, so I can’t demand a division be made just for me, right? Nor am I a hot babe like Gina Carano who only has to smile or wink and 1,000 men make gifs of said action. lol

Life isn’t fair and MMA life is a little less fair than normal life.

I totally get it.

I just want to fight. It sucks we fighters can’t control when we fight. We literally have to beg promoters and match makers to put us on the card. But as I said, life isn’t fair.

So, as for me, my Christmas plans are messed up now, but I’m trying to be optimistic about the holidays and about next year. My mom is a fan of the phrase “It was meant to be” or “Everything always works out.” I hate those phrases. They are very passive. I hate being passive in life. I believe in taking action to make things happen. As long as you don’t DIE, you continue with your life and do the best you can and try and find positive things, so therefore “everything works out” means that “other stuff happens that might also be good.”

I’m going to Boston to visit my dad. I’ll miss seeing the rest of the family, but wait, I gotta focus on the positive. My dad. I hardly get to see him throughout the year. I guess that’s it….

I haven’t lifted weights since I pulled my bicep muscle and shoulder, but I’ve still been driving myself through double-duty classes of gi jiujitsu and MMA. It’s better now but climbing ropes still gives me bicep cramps and I am bummed out because I wanted to work hard at that because Captain said so. ~_~; I’m improving my striking with every private lesson John gives me, and learning stuff in jiujitsu every day. I’m aiming for a jiujitsu tournament early next year. I’m really enjoying doing so much jiujitsu since it’s my favorite part of martial arts.
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I am keeping my weight down and my cardio up because I still don’t know when I’m fighting.

I had sushi with Jamie yesterday. It was a nice celebration for her UFC win, and nice to chat and catch up! Thanks, Jamie.
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Serena is gone for three weeks visiting her family. I miss her. :< [edit] I just realized I ended this entry on a negative note. That is unacceptable for The Happy Warrior. Let's see...I have a private lesson of striking with John, then a massage with Teri, who is magical, and the my kids classes! aaaah my kids!! im-so-excited

It’ll be a good day.