The week started out awesome!
Then I pulled a muscle and it’s excruciatingly painful. I thought it was just a tight muscle knot, but it hurts to move at all. Even pushing myself up from a position laying down. x_x I didn’t even try to train yesterday, and was super bummed that I missed sparring. I wanted to try out my new move I learned in mitts! ;_;
So, determined to have a good day, I did something I’ve been meaning to do for a few weeks: find the TUF house. Despite driving there every day for 6 weeks, I wasn’t familiar enough with Vegas to know the roads.
Then at Tuff-N-Uff, a couple who were fans came up to me and said, “Your house was right next to ours! We saw you taking jogs and we had to be quiet when the crew was filming!”
I was like, “…..WHERE DO YOU LIVE?!” haha SO I took a drive there, and omg it’s close to where I live now!
The feeling I got was so weird. It was like visiting an old friend, or an old hometown. TUF 18 feels like a lifetime ago, and it has been literally a year since I went to tryouts! I drove past the house like 4 times, and after leaving, I felt like I drove across the world. Man, I miss living there! It was such an intense experience. It totally changed my life.
I tried looking for tanktops at the Outlett mall, but the cheap store went out of business. ~_~ I’m VERY specific about tank tops. They can’t be too clingy on the chest, can’t show my bra straps at all, can’t be too tight under my arms, can’t be low cut at all….. impossible, right? I can never find what I want. I found one in IZOD, and they were $25, but I bought one anyway, because I FINALLY found one.
Taught the kids class…just barely because I couldn’t really move. ._. So bummed out. Jake Steckel (my chiropractor) saw me TWICE, once in the morning, and once in the evening, and it helped me a bit. But it still sucks. My body sucks.
I’ve been having indigestion ALL WEEK, something horrible. I’m afraid to eat ANYTHING because I suffer so much. ALL FREAKING WEEK constantly. I can’t figure out what’s wrong. I’ve been trying to do process of elimination for various foods and stuff. I’ve cut out soo much stuff. And the stuff I’m eating now, I’ve eaten with no problems in the past, so WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. I hate my body.
And don’t tell me to go to the doctor because I DO NOT HAVE HEALTH INSURANCE despite applying for it like two months agoooooooooooooooooooo damnit!
I should be more positive. :/
Today I was productive and wrote an article for my sponsor http://www.intimidationclothing.com/. It’ll be published later, I guess. I wanted to try going to team practice, but even after warming up, my back had sharp stabbing pain. wtfffff Mike Pyle taught class, too. I WANT TO LEARNnnnnnnn. ug
So I ate my lunch, veggies, English muffin, and Mom’s meatloaf. And I didn’t get indigestion. Then my buddy Bootsy was free, so he took me to his fav fast food mexican place in a gas station, and it was actually good. I had already eaten my carefully prepared portions, so I just got something small. He bought me a baby taco! SO CUTE, right?
I want to try it, but I can’t….and my weight isn’t going down as fast as I want….OKAY MUST BE POSITIVE!
I have good, good, thoughtful friends. And fans on Twitter and Facebook who wish me well when I make a gloomy post. You guys are a blessing and really cheer me up and remind me to be positive. Love you guys!
So a few months ago, this big guy came into our gym carrying the same UFC bag as me. Josh Clark, the “Hillbilly Heartthrob.” I had my suspicions….and then we find out he was on TUF! He got into the house! That’s all we can say So now I want to help promote him because he’s super friendly.
Follow him on twitter! @joshclarkmma