Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

I’m back from Cage Warriors 40

Posted in fight on February 28th, 2011 by roxyfighter

I just got back from an amazing experience at Cage Warriors 40 in London. Thank you to Promotor Graham, matchmaker Ian Dean, Clare and everyone else for bending over backwards to take care of me and Kunioku-san in every way possible. It was a great honor to fight Rosi Sexton, and share ice cream and cookies after the fight. I hope I have the good fortune of fighting for Cage Warriors again.

To all my loyal fans and new fans, thank you for all the support. You are simply amazing and lift me up, whether it be on your shoulders after victory, or a helping hand up after I fall. The same feelings go out to my coaches.

I’m very happy when the fans tell me that they enjoyed watching my fights. That’s good. Thank you for that. And thank you Celine for flying in from Norway to be with me and corner me.

That being said..

…I am very very disappointed in myself in many ways. There are no excuses- Rosi fought the better fight on Saturday- but the next thing I must do is figure out how to solve my problems to perform better as a mixed martial artist.

I totally let down my coaches. Kunioku didn’t teach me to strike like that, and that’s certainly NOT what I learned from Sean. Of course, from a fan’s point of view, it was back and forth and exciting. For me, I’m revisited and haunted by certain moments where I thought, “If only I had done this…” “why couldn’t I do this?” “How could I have done this?”

Kunioku-san told me that it was experience for me to learn from for the next time.

By the way, I want to apologize to fans after the event. I left the cage and people were trying to talk to me or console me or something, but I was extremely upset and wanted to go back to my locker room. I couldn’t see anything without my glasses- I was essentially blind in the dark with blurry people swirling all around, disoriented and confused and I think Celine wasn’t sure where to take me, so if I yelled at one of you, I’m sorry. ^^;

I think I’m going to be kicked out of my ninja clan for this….

I can’t wait for my body to heal so I can get back to the gym. I’m going to have to make more changes to my training regime. somehow…. I must work harder and harder and get stronger!

leaving today on a jet plane….

Posted in fight on February 22nd, 2011 by roxyfighter

Yesterday morning I worked out lightly in the morning…I’m kind of nervous about my weight because I’m a little over, so I was reving up my metabolism, but then had no energy during the day so I ate…anyway. 🙁 I went to work and my kids classes were stressful. The lesson plan wasn’t so good for my rebels. The game I made up worked pretty well, except they just aren’t at the expected level, but I don’t get to choose the lesson content. I can only adjust how I teach it.

In my second class of older kids, one student about 13 yrs old was belligerent and kept stealing other’s writing utensils, drawing on the table and other’s stuff, tipping back in the chair, chatting to everyone and doing the opposite of what I said. I think it’s safe to say that my kids like me…. See, I try to Rule By Love, not by fear. Students do what I say because they like me. Why couldn’t she see that the WHOLE CLASS was giving this her disapproving looks for pissing me off? It doesn’t make sense…you’re the class clown in order to GET approval from your classmates, right? One girl was even encouraging me to just ignore her and play the CD. ^^;; But I couldn’t because she was vandalizing the desk and might crack her skull open if she fell backwards… I want her to relax, and let the English flow, baby!! Come on!

I’m listening to James Morrison’s “Under the Influence.” I like this song! So I’m listening to his other songs, but they’re mostly mushy love songs. Bleh. @_@ Speaking of love songs, I ran into this guy from another gym I met a few times randomly in town, and he was like “Oh Roxanne! 😀 Do you remember me? *chat chat* By the way, let’s exchange emails!” So we did…but the last thing I need in my life is a boyfriend. I can barely take care of my own needs…..He seems like a really nice guy….I should avoid him! 😀

So after work I went back to the gym and worked out really lightly, but I hadn’t had dinner except a fish sausage and veggie juice, so I had no energy or desire to do anything. @_@ My weight seems stuck between 127 and 130. Everyone says, “Oh no problem Roxanne, you’ll lose it easy!” Well it’s NOT EASY. –; Stop saying it’s easy, grar. Rosi posted a picture of chocolate cake on my facebook wall. Hah thanks!

Now I’m packing.

A fan from my chatroom who has become my friend sent me vitamins and supplements!! THANK YOU, Tony!! You are outstanding! <3 <3 <3 [caption id="attachment_181" align="alignnone" width="384" caption="Supplements from Tony"][/caption]

I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED. It’s really hitting me! I’m going to London! I’ve ALWAYS always wanted to go! Unfortunately I won’t have TOO Much time to sight see, and I’ll have no energy from cutting weight, but I’m going! 😀 I always tell people that if I could visit anywhere, it’d be London! I gotta focus on the fight. lol Rosi’s going to be a tough fight! I can’t wait.

I was interviewed by my ninja clan tonight

Posted in amusing, fight on February 21st, 2011 by roxyfighter

party with SY and Seijo colleagues

Posted in fight, fun, work on February 20th, 2011 by roxyfighter

My first student canceled yesterday, and she had three lessons.  After that I had a free prep period, so out of my six morning lessons, I taught two.  It was a relaxing morning for me.  Jack got a cancelation, too, so he gave me advice about what sight-seeing I can do in London if I have the time.  (He’s from London).

After lunch, I had an assessment, and then I shot over to the gym to do cardio.  After an hour of that in  a sauna suit, I lost one kilo (2 lbs).  I hoped it’d be more…I’m trying to do a test cut, but it WAS right after lunch and I was fully hydrated.  :-/

Tired!

I didn’t think I’d be able to go, but I  managed to go to the gym and get back in time for the gathering.  One of our staff was transferred to a sister school in the Unit, another one went overseas, and someone came from over seas to our school.  So it was kind of a welcome/farewellbutnotreally party.  I don’t drink alcohol, and couldn’t eat a single damn thing because everything was french fries, fried chicken and curry.  I ordered a salad with no dressing on top of the course.  My pocket book was not happy, but I was happy, so oh well.  That’s all part of being a fighter! and living in Japan!!  Plus I hardly ever go out with my co-workers as a group anymore.

SY power!

I really am blessed to work with such wonderful people.  I’m grateful for my wonderful working environment.  I’m glad I have things in common with many of my colleagues and that everyone is generally positive.  I had a lot of fun last night.  Thanks, everyone!

dieting and swordfish and imps

Posted in every day, work on February 18th, 2011 by roxyfighter

Today was a hard day because I couldn’t exercise because of work and stuff, so I had to just not eat a lot.

I taught my Friday class and they were little imps. ^^;; I wish they would stop sliding the flash cards across the table…I wish the girl would stop doing the opposite of what I said.  Well, I gotta cut them some slack.  They are 6 years old.  And cute.  And there’s a boy who always forgets his activity book and pencils, so today I spotted him in the lobby with his mom.  I asked him if he had his stuff, and made him open his bag, and of course, he didn’t.  The mother scolded him, but I didn’t mean for HIM to get in trouble…I meant for HER to realize that SHE needs to help him pack his stuff.

As I said.  He’s six.  And he has two siblings.  Come on, Mom, help him out!

I received home-made Valentine’s Day treats from my teenage students!!!! 😀

NONE OF WHICH I can eat. ;_; *sigh* So I gave them to my co-workers.

I was so tired all day…probably from reducing my calories and carbs.  I did have a rice ball and piece of bread and chicken and stuff, just not in large quantities.  That’s gotta be why I’m so tired even though I haven’t trained….

At 9 AM I fell asleep while watching Naruto and had a nightmare about Deidara and those creepy as hell mouths on his hands and chest….

I did treat myself to swordfish, though.   I LOVE sword fish, called “Mekajiki” in Japanese.  They sell it in Ito Yokado freshly grilled and seasoned with sweet soy sauce. omg heaven.  Kind of expensive, though…six bucks for two small pieces.