Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

I won and got promoted at the BJJ tournament!

Posted in fight, friends on January 29th, 2017 by roxyfighter

Yesterday was a major day in my life.

I drove to California with my teammates and competed in a Brazilian Jiu-jitsu tournament called “Jiujitsu World League.” It’s a big tournament but not the biggest in the country or anything like that. However, it had something that other smaller, more local tournaments didn’t have…. women in my rank in my weight class! For the past two tournaments I had hoped to do, I was able to check online and no purple belt lightweight females signed up! πŸ™ There are a lot of jiujitsu schools and good training in California, so there is more of a chance to be competitors there. I decided to go, and Serena wanted to come with me to support me, although not compete. My instructor CapitΓ£o heard my plans and immediately said, “I will go with you” without checking his schedule or anything. Wow, I was touched. His friend and fellow fighter Naldo was going to compete as well, but didn’t sign up in time. :/

So I had to diet for a few weeks and then cut a few pounds of water, which was stressful because I didn’t know exactly when I had to weigh in, but it turns out I could do it shortly after arriving at 11 AM. The tournament was so organized! They emailed me my competition time (3 PM) so I wouldn’t have to wait around all day, like I used to when I competed a lot 12 years ago! (12 years ago, wow lol)

on the road, at a rest stop!

So my team and I left at 1:30 Friday afternoon and arrived around 6, where my sponsors and friends Eric and Beth from Remove it Restoration www.removeitrestoration.com took us out for dinner. We ended up getting sushi. They also sponsored our hotel room!

I woke up Saturday morning and ate three granola/protein bars. That put me overweight so I did my walk/sprints/yoga warm up with my sauna suit on and sweat a TON. Also got a great stretch. That put me back on weight! I braided my hair the best I could, and got everybody moving out, checking out at 11. We drove 30 mins to the venue where I could weigh in and eat and drink up the few pounds I cut. We watched for 3 hours and I tried to pay attention and warm up my mind mentally.

This tournament felt so different than the last because last November I was trying it for the first time in 12 years. Winning wasn’t as important as finding out my level…. was I still a purple belt after all these years? I got my purple belt from Joao Amaral in 2005 and then went to Japan that year, only putting on my gi like 5 times over the 8 years I was there. My no-gi grappling got better but my gi skills faded.

I lost both my matches then. Got submitted by Raquel Pa’aluhi after a restart, which sucked because I know how to defend the bow and arrow but the restart happened so fast…. and lost on points to a girl I was dominating. I got a medal, which I almost left at the event, but decided to take it. I would hang it on my wall and look at it to remember my determination. I decided that every week I would do BJJ and MMA classes back to back on Tuesdays and Thursdays, even though I would be so tired for MMA and it would effect my performance. I decided I didn’t care and I would train until I passed out, even if it meant overtraining. I almost passed out a few times, actually. It really sucked not being able to perform as I wanted to in MMA and I couldn’t finish class a few times. But I got better at jiujitsu. I also did stuff like forearm/grip exercises because I remembered in my match my arms burned out and I felt so tired. Captain told me to climb ropes and I did and got splinters from them in my hands a few times.

Rock Lee, the original “genius of hard work,” would be proud of me. lol

I wrote about this before, but I used to think a tattered belt was cool and a sign of training hard. I made it my goal to gain the knowledge to make me worthy of a brown belt before it fell apart. Once I made that decision, however, every time I looked at my purple belt, I felt ashamed that I couldn’t do better and time pressure, so I dunno if that was a good mindset. lol

At least once a week I sat alone before class with scissors, trimming the threads that hung off so it would look neater at least, and I felt like crap. I want to be better!

When Casey, our gym manager announced a belt testing date in a few months, my heart felt troubled. I didn’t want my teacher to feel obligated to give me anything because there’s a date set. I know for other people it can be nice extra motivation and something to work towards, but …. not for me. At this point, I can’t really judge my skills other than see who I can beat and who I can’t. What if I know a ton of techniques but can’t always do them live? Or what if I don’t know a ton of techniques but I can do a bunch really really well and win? What makes a purple belt a brown belt?

So anyway, this time my mentality was different. I wanted to win so badly. I was so hungry for the win. I felt like listening to Rob Zombie and the songs I usually do before a fight. I felt focused, like I do before a fight. My last tournament loss devastated me just like a fight did. It was a jagged pill to swallow a few weeks after my title fight loss, but I knew what I had to do and I did it. My guts were in knots just like before an MMA fight. I went out there….and things didn’t go the way I had imagined, actually. I was determined not to get sucked into their guards, but both girls managed to get me in theirs before I could try and take-down.

The first girl played closed guard.

I heard Captain shouting “Grab her lapel and her sleeve!” I got her lapel, but couldn’t get her sleeve. Then I got her sleeve but lost her lapel. Then I got both and started working on breaking open her guard but she off-balanced me and I had to let go of something to brace and keep my base, and couldn’t get both sleeve and lapel…for like 3 minutes. LOL Finally I broke her guard with a standing knee in butt pass and passed and got side control!! That got me three points. She managed to get a sort of half guard and tried to sweep but I wouldn’t let her. I was running out of time and tried the choke I was going over with Casey just before, but knew I wouldn’t get it because she was too much on her side , but I tried anyway. TRIED TO SMASH HER FACE WITH MY FOREARM! and couldn’t get it sunk, but at least I tried to attack. I won by points! πŸ˜€

The second girl played more of an open guard. I liked that.

Thanks, Eric, for the pictures.

But she had such a strong grip on my lapel and was hanging off of me, I couldn’t break it. I almost passed de la riva like five times…that was cool, because that’s my game, but she had a hold on my lapel and I couldn’t break it and couldn’t pass with it there. I finally passed by doing what Captain said and reaching under her leg…and I forget if I got points from side or north south.

I think this picture might have been the moment!
I think I got side control. I got her in north south once but not sure if I held it for 3 seconds. I have come to really like north-south and was going for something but she escaped and tried to get half guard, but I sat on her leg. I could hear Captain very well but couldn’t always do what he said, but it was super good advice and I’m so glad to have him there. I admit when he said “Fifteen seconds!” I kind of stalled because I didn’t wanna get swept and lose. lol And I won on points again!

I didn’t get to try ANY of my techniques from bottom that I’ve been working, but to be honest, being on top is more dominant and I WANTED to stay on top. I wish I had submitted someone, but I lost on points to a girl I had been dominating before in the November tournament, so you know, I’m okay with winning like this. It’s better than getting no points and having the ref decide.

I was numb at first and then when I went over and hugged Captain I realized that 1) I had won not one, but BOTH of my matches 2) I got first place! 3) I had accomplished my minimum goal of winning once, plus more! 4) I proved I could beat purple belts 5) I could throw my old medal away 6) Captain said he was proud of me.

I started crying from joy. I was totally post-fight delirious, shaking from adrenaline, and couldn’t even untie my belt. lol Then the staff started ushering us, telling us to go to the podium. Already? I had just fought… usually staff need more time to get organized, but they had winners and competitors entered into a computer system so I guess it was so fast! I hugged Serena and Eric and friends and then let Captain lead me over there. It was surreal! Our gis were spotted with one of their blood. (Serena later quipped that I bathed in the blood of my victims. haha ).

So then the lady told me to get on the podium and CapitΓ£o was off to the side talking to someone. The other girls got on and then suddenly Captain came over with a brown belt! omg!! Usually the instructor promotes their students in the gym, but I think it’s SO COOL when it happens as a surprise on the podium after having won! It was kind of a dream of mine but I didn’t think it would happen this time! I hadn’t stopped crying from before and just cried harder. hahaha The staff lady also hung the medal around my neck. I was so happy!!



We took pictures.

I just wanted to blow my nose, I had been crying for like 10 minutes at that point.
Then CapitΓ£o took the belt off and told me to tie the purple belt back on, and I didn’t know what was going on, my brain was still post-fight brain, so I just did what people told me to. LOL My hands were shaking so hard I could barely do it. it was uneven but at least it was on my body. HAH Then I realized what had happened a few minutes later.

CapitΓ£o had decided at the last minute to promote me if I won, and hadn’t prepared my actual brown belt. So in the three short minutes it took for us to walk over to the podium and wait to step on, Captain located a random guy with a brown belt and asked to borrow it for the picture. LOL Then gave it back. hahahahahaha that’s so hilarious! I had looked at it like, ‘uh it’s a little small.’ That’s so funny!!! I love it! I love him! I love the whole weekend!

Then Eric and Beth took us out to eat at a Greek place, and we drove back 5 hours, arriving at midnight in Las Vegas. Spectacular two days! I can’t believe it was only two days. Two days I’ll remember for the rest of my life. It was so fun spending time with my two Brazilian teammates. Naldo is so great and I got a lot of Portuguese practice. I’m so grateful to Serena for coming to support me and being such a great friend! <3 Also my friend at The Void sponsored me also, and helped cover my expenses for this weekend! Thank you! <3 And I can't forget to thank Casey. He has been helping me from day one at Syndicate, before I ever met CapitΓ£o. Through private lessons I've been taking with him, I've developed my de la riva passes and take downs, defenses, various chokes, ways to break the grip, use the gi, everything. I've even gone to literally cry in his office when I had a rough MMA class and he was there and talked to me so I could calm down and go back out to train.
I couldn’t have improved and won and raised my jiujitsu level if it weren’t for these two men. I love you guys and thank you. <3 Jiujitsu makes my heart sing, and it'll help my MMA career, also. Now, I feel like I have to work harder than ever and learn more and more to be a good brown belt! Like Casey, the best sempai ever! Anything I ask, he has some kind of good answer for me. There are so many things I don't know. I have to get better at sweeps, for one and many other things. And I have to keep getting stronger. My motivation hasn't faltered at all! Every day I expect to get better and better, and one step closer to being a tatsujin (master) and having perfect technique. Ah yes and last but not least, I got to throw away my hateful loser medal!! YEAH!!!!!!! I earned a new one!!

BJJ tournament coming! Herbal Papaya capsules, anime, TV

Posted in every day, fight, friends, fun, training on January 26th, 2017 by roxyfighter

I’m having a pretty good week. Last week was good, too, despite being exhausted most of the time. I’ve been keeping up very well with all my classes, plus cardio, plus physical training. I’m in great shape and so healthy! πŸ˜€ It’s great. I just haven’t been to Taco Bell in over a week. It’s rough. SO ROUGH, I tell you.

Every morning I take my Herbal Papaya capsules to support my immune system, digestion because it has the enzyme papain, and specifically this mix supports blood function. I also love the tea but I have to get some more of it soon. For those of you who like health products, definitely check it out!
https://www.herbalpapaya.com/collections/papaya-leaf-extracts

REALLY good jiujitsu training. I’ve been getting 30 minute private lessons from Casey here and there throughout the week, mostly on days with no morning gi-class. He’s REALLY helping me tweak things here and there in my jiujitsu game and I feel ready for the tournament this Saturday. Well, as ready as I can be. I’m still not perfect, but I’ll never be perfect. I just wanna be better and better. Casey is such a good teacher and has the ability to explain things really well and clearly.

Yeah! I’m going to the Jiujitsu World League in Orange county, leaving on Friday and competing on Saturday! *checks website* OH BOY, looks like there are two other people in my division. YAY!!

Capitao’s classes are awesome. The amount of people attending are growing and growing every week. There’s a good rainbow of colors, from white belts, to blues, purples, browns (Casey and then Naldo who moved here), and even an extra black! Marcio from Brazil, who is Naldo’s trainer, joins, too. He tries to give me advice now and then. Last week I got so frustrated because Marcio was saying something I was doing wasn’t good, but I couldn’t understand what he wanted me to do because he only speaks Portuguese. And I wanted to know SO BADLY what he was saying. He made a big effort to take me aside and try and give me advice.

This is Marcio.

That being said, I understood half. My Portuguese lessons with Thais are going very well.
I wish my diet was going better. :/ I have to be 141.9 lbs max with my gi and belt on, which weigh about 4 pounds, so that means my body has to weigh 138 or 137. I’m waking up, and also ending practice dehydrated at 138, but I want to be able to eat breakfast and not be too dehydrated for my match. And it’s still unclear to me if I have to weigh in right before I fight or can I weigh in right when I get there. I WANT TO KNOW. πŸ™ I’m waterloading and salt cutting right now. But since it’s same-day weigh-ins so I don’t wanna unbalance up my body’s chemistry TOO much. I guess I’ll be alright. I felt so weak yesterday so I had extra carbs, but I wasn’t sure if it’s because I’m always tired on Wednesday… I feel better today but also woke up a pound heavier. ~_~;;

My kids class is great. I had a few weeks of gigantic classes, and thankfully The Reen was there to help me.

The kids seem to pay more attention when we teach together because we goof around and Serena exaggerates stuff and it’s funny. πŸ˜€ Then she left to go work the coffee stand and I kind of lost a fraction of their attention.

Serena and I bought a new TV together! Jamie had lent us a 43 inch for a few months and I didn’t realize how much I would enjoy using it by having people over to watch fights and playing video games. We intended to go with 40 or even 39 inch to keep costs down, but for some unexplainable reason, the 42 inch RCA was cheaper than the 40 inch at $199! Plus taxes and the two year warrantee, it was $240. Not bad!

The Reen and I at Fry’s Electronics store.

People always ask us if we are sisters. Nope, just friends. Some people online have asked if we are dating. NO. Best friends. Yes, we are housemates and training partners and friends. But we are both straight and like hot guys, but don’t wanna bother with such distractions while we’re trying to become MMA champions, so we don’t talk about it or date.

That being said, I’m so fortunate to have such a great friend. I think I’ve mentioned before, but growing up I didn’t have many friends, so when I wished upon a star for my hearts desire, it was always “to have friends” and not be lonely anymore. So my heart is very happy. πŸ™‚

Except when she calls a Super Nintendo a “SNES” (sss-nesss) which is not an actual word. πŸ˜›


XD It’s “Super NES (en-ee-ess) or Super Nintendo.” But I still love you, Serena! πŸ˜€ I did a poll on Facebook and found that after the Nintendo 64 came out, people started abbreviating the older models, so younger people tend to use the abbreviation more. Anyway. πŸ˜› I’m so happy my old Super Nintendo works and I’ve been playing Donkey Kong Country 3 every morning for the past month ever since I discovered it in my dad’s basement. Weee.

I’m rewatching the Resident Evils so I can be ready to watch the new movie.
I took Serena’s recommendation and started this new anime Psycho-pass, which has a very interesting premise. It’s a police show, but in their universe, a computer system scans every human and reads their “criminal intent.” Most normal people read below 100 points, but violent types and criminals register higher, and then the police guns will unlock and emit a stun ray, so the police can arrest the person and give them counseling to help them and lower their number. It predicts if they are likely to commit a crime. If the person is an actual murderer, the number will be way high like 250 or 300 and then the gun will change to “kill mode” and the computer gives the cop authority to shoot to kill. So interesting.

At first the show was focusing around the woman, but then one of the cop’s backstory is kind of being highlighted now…he’s cool. *_* I’m watching it with my friend Candy now. We do that by watching a few eps, chatting about them, and then watch more. It’s cool since she’s in Texas. It’s hard when I have lots of time to watch and she doesn’t, or vice versa! I’m getting obsessed with this show now. haha

BJJ Rowdy Rollers, overtraining, BJJ seminar

Posted in friends, fun, training, work on January 17th, 2017 by roxyfighter

This Sunday, I went to a monthly or bi-monthly event called “Las Vegas Rowdy Rollers.” It’s a women-only Brazilian Jiu-jitsu training session held at various locations, this time, the Cobra Kai gym in North Las Vegas. I’ve heard about this before but never went, due to the fact Sunday is the only day I don’t train some kind of martial arts.

I’m hesitant to call it a “rest day,” since I never sit around and do nothing. I take a 30 min walk mixed with sprints, and then go to Yoga, and sometimes run stairs. That’s it. I’m usually so exhausted or sore from the previous day’s training I just want to lay down and watch anime, or go to a movie. Sunday is usually my movie day.

Well this Saturday, instead of doing yoga, stairs, BJJ, and kickboxing classes consecutively, I did a BJJ seminar hosted by Syndicate with Marcio Pontes. He is formerly Jose Aldo’s coach and is in the States to corner Naldo, who fought on WSOF a few weeks ago in NY. So that was So fun and educational but we didn’t roll hard, so I still had energy. Plus I had gotten elbowed in the eye on Tuesday and it still hurt, so I didn’t wanna do kickboxing. πŸ™


So yeah, I learned a trick on how to finish the straight armlock, a pass, a scramble, and I’m trying to remember what else…. I worked with Captain’s friend Naldo. (brown belt standing behind me) I like that guy a lot. πŸ˜€ He has such smooth jiujitsu! I could actually semi-communicate using what little Portuguese I know! Yay a chance to practice what I’ve been studying with Thais. Did I mention that? I’m doing a language exchange with Captain’s wife Thais. I also want to make friends since she seems so nice, but first we gotta be able to speak to each other. So yeah, we’ve been meeting once or twice a week for the past month. πŸ˜€ It feels so good to teach English again! I really miss my old job at Berlitz. I know how to build language ability from the bottom up, so I craft a lesson for her, and then get her to teach me the same stuff in Portuguese. πŸ™‚

So awesome seminar on Saturday, and I felt energetic enough to go to the event after yoga on Sunday! I liked it a lot! I really hoped there were upper belts there so I could test myself and I got to roll with a few. They gave me some tips, for which I’m so grateful. They were concerned about ‘overstepping their boundaries.’ Well, they’re not if I ask them a question. But maybe I shouldn’t ask a question? No, wait, we should always ask questions…shouldn’t we? I’m confused. Well, I’m one of those people against gym hopping. I used to go to various gyms for various things in Japan and I’m so weary of it. I’m so thrilled that I have everything I need at Syndicate….mainly, excellent coaching. I wouldn’t want MY students gym-hoping. I want to raise my students and feel good about their wins, and not have them show other rival gym’s people my moves. However, this event wasn’t really a class under a specific teacher. It was just rolling. So it was fine in my eyes…. I guess?


blurry gym code lines

But I learned a third way to shrimp. And a few bad habits I have! I’m so excited. I was also really impressed that nobody spazzed out on me. I was kind of nervous rolling with new people, to be honest…who knows if they’re going to spaz out and ELBOW ME in the eyeball again… I know it was an accident and I’m not really mad, because I’ve hurt my training partners by accident and it sucks for all parties. But yeah, I ended up not tapping anyone out, and didn’t get tapped out, well, I think the black belt tapped me once but she wasn’t trying to kill me.

I loved seeing my old student Rhyanna again!
I took a ninja snap shot while she was rolling. (bottom)

It was SO cool not to get out-muscled by other women! Like how Captain lets me sink in a full rear-naked choke and I couldn’t finish it. Meaning his neck and hand muscles are stronger than my entire body arching backwards. ;_; plus he prolly was offsetting the angle a bit. grrr My confidence evaporated because that’s my best move.

anyway

Monday morning I had a dream that I was on a bus with my teammates (Khalil, Lorenzo, Serena, Jessy, John, and others were there.) We pulled up to a Mansion that had Harry Potter stuff in it, so I guess it was Hogwarts? There was supposed to be some kind of Judo competition in the basement and there were women walking around with gis but I couldn’t find mine, so I spent most of the dream running around the mansion looking for my gi.

Monday I woke up SO tired. Bone tired. Mentally and physically I just didn’t wanna be awake.
I had the devil of a time deciding what kind of training to do. I decided that not getting punched in the eye was best, so I ran stairs with Serena, did no-gi jiujitsu because I’m in better control of what’s going on, and skipped the MMA class. :/ After my shower I was about to leave the gym and thought, “Don’t look at the class. Don’t look at the class…” because I knew I’d feel bad about not doing it. But I looked. And they were doing interesting stuff. AND I FELT SOOOO BAD. ;_; and regretted not training. But I couldn’t move…..

So yeah. Went home. Took a nap while watching Dragon Ball super eps 52-54, and The 100. Haha the King of All Things is so cute. Went back to teach kids and Serena assisted. I’m so thankful for that because the class is getting big and I can send new kids or the partnerless kids her way.

It’s Tuesday now and I feel a little more energetic. I wanted to do a tournament on Jan 21st but NOBODY IS IN MY WEIGHT DIVISION AGAIN despite being in California, but I checked the Jiujitsu World League Jan 28th in Orange County and there’s ONE lady so far! πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ YAY so I signed up for that.
and my friends at Remove it Restoration will sponsor our trip! πŸ˜€ Thank you, Eric and Beth!!
And The Void!! <3

Graviola vid, jiujitsu stuff, double-teaming, Invicta preview, anime

Posted in friends, fun, training on January 10th, 2017 by roxyfighter

I made another video for Herbal Papaya! This time talking about the Graviola Powder product! Check it out! It’s only a minute long.

I wrote a preview article for Invicta 21! I got exclusive interviews with Celine Haga (that women has such an inspirational story! Please read!), Andrea Lee, and Raquel Pa’aluhi!
http://mmasucka.com/2017/01/09/roxanne-modafferis-invicta-fc-21-preview/

I really wanna fight MMA! I really hope I get on the next Invicta card!

I wanna do the http://nabjjf.com/ tournament on Jan 21st but there is STILL NOBODY IN MY WEIGHT DIVISION wthhhhhhh ;_;

There IS ONE PERSON signed up for the BJJ World League on Jan 28th. http://www.jjworldleague.com/ I gotta lose weight for that. They’re both in California. I really want to compete in January because I hope I’m going to fight in March but nothing is set yet.

I’ve been doing every morning gi jiujitsu class lately. They’re so great! The numbers are increasing more and more! We have new people all the time, and a few belted folks moved in from out of town or other gyms. Yay. Captain runs a great class. Last week he taught this reverse triangle from back control that had me super excited.

I had the honor of training with Captain’s friend Marcio, a black belt and coach from Brazil. He was so tired but still kicked my butt, and even gave me advice, which I had to have Captain translate.

Yesterday, after the big kid’s class, I asked Rick (head kids coach) if he would roll with me, and he spent about 15 minutes with me and alerted me to a few mistakes I was making. πŸ˜€ <3 Black belts. My little kids class was huge yesterday. I'm so grateful Serena came to help me. Lorenzo put me through a shoulder workout on Friday and I'm still in pain from it. I gotta do some legs today to prove that I can do my homework and get better before our next session this coming Friday. I've also been studying my Japanese and Portuguese, per my New Years resolution. I've been almost overtraining lately, but my body's holding together.
Here’s a great shot of me and Donny, seconds after our sparring ended on Tuesday. Thanks Jessica Bakan. link to her site That was the day I did stairs, BJJ class, MMA class, and leg conditioning for 4.5 hours. Too much. But I made it. Lorenzo wants me to meet with him a second time in a week, but Wednesdays are not good for him, but my only other light day besides Sunday. I don’t know how that’s going to be possible unless someone adds an extra day to the week. *shrug* Hey, I’m already doing triple the physical activity I did before my last fight when I made the vow about jiujitsu.

I hit a curb in the dark on Saturday, and although my tire was fine Sunday morning, went flat on the way to the movies with Serena that afternoon, so my tickets I bought ahead of time were wasted and I can’t get a refund. ;_;. We saw a different showing of Underworld: Bloodwars, though. It was good. Not as fantastic as I expected.

Going back to Saturday, Captain didn’t have a partner for one round of kickboxing so I approached him, but Serena was approaching him, too. He was like “Let’s go!” so we decided to double-team attack him. XD HAHAHA It was so funny!! I wish someone had gotten a video of that.

He looked at the space in between us and saw us in his peripheral vision, and threw out attacks and defended decently. I got hit in the face a bunch of times. hah I landed a few things….but I’m sure he could have killed us both if he really wanted to. He once said that he was undefeated in street fighting, and I can believe it. XD


Anyway, enough ranting about jiujitsu and Captain. What else. I used the last of my Fuzzy’s gift card having a girls’ night with Jessy and Serena last week. That was fun. πŸ™‚

I gave my student Kaiden a 4th stripe. I really want to promote him, but I want him to improve his armbar first. He outgrew his white belt, so I can’t wrap it around twice now. If I can just get him to do it like 20 times to me in a row, I’m sure he’ll get the hang of it.

Anime:
I finished Ajin season 2. People who can’t be killed and are experimented on, fight for human rights…

I finished Drifters season 1. Imagine gathering fighters across time to fight a war in a new world…

I rewatched Kabaneri of the Iron Fortress. Zombies called “Kabane.” nuff said. No, but it’s a unique story- one guy gets bitten but despite his body turning into a kabane, his mind is still sane.

My 2016 in pictures

Posted in every day, family and holidays, fight, friends, fun, moving, training on January 1st, 2017 by roxyfighter

In February, I did an MMA seminar at KSA in Tennessee!

Kerry and Emma visited for a few weeks from England to train! <3

I was invited to watch The Ultimate Fighter Season 23 elimination fights, where Jamie, Khalil, and Cory made it into the house. I got a nicer picture with Dana than I had before (when I had a huge black eye), and I took a pic of the camera crew interviewing Coach John because he’s awesome. I actually got in trouble for taking this cuz somebody noticed. They told me to delete it but I didn’t. lol Hey, I didn’t take a picture of any of the actual fights!!

In March. My kids class is growing, from three kids to a small group!

I started getting treated by Teri, the most fantastic massage therapist I’ve ever met, and she made my pain go away! My training and life improved so much!

Also in March, Invicta 16 happened and I got to become Mileena!


I got to meet my good friend Patrick, who I’ve known online for years but had never met before!


I won!
My friends dressed up and it was incredibly epic.

I won!

In April I got to see my Aunt Mary and Uncle Steve, then I went to my baby cousin’s baby shower with my Dad and Marion, so I got to see all of my family except my Uncle Fran! πŸ˜€ I even got to train with my old training partner/coach Dave and see Kirik!

In April, Serena won her Tuff-N-Uff fight!

At the end of April, Mom, who I’d been living with for almost three years, moved to New York, and I moved in with Hannah.

I decided to start doing more gi. I got a beautiful black gi from Dragon do.

I started asking Casey for private lessons in the gi. He’s an incredibly excellent teacher. I’ve grown because of him.

My friend Brittany visited Vegas from Japan and stayed with me. I dressed up as Rey from Star Wars for John’s son Maverick’s birthday party.

I finished Naruto!

I settle into my role as sole teacher of the 4-7 year old kids jiujitsu class and made it 5-7. I also took over Chris’ position helping Coach Rick teach the older kid’s jiujitsu class in addition to my younger class.

Aussie Jessy Jess Clark (purple hair) came to Syndicate and decided to join!

Hannah left me for a man and moved out, so Jessy moved in to the empty room. lol !

I came to realize that Captain is my favorite jiujitsu teacher of all time, and I want to be his disciple, kind of like the BJJ version of John. <3

I’ve tried to make more of an effort to spend time with my female training partner friends.

I fought in Invicta 19 for the title against Jennifer Maia. I got to be She-ra, the Princess of Power (and rocked it, if I do say so), and John got to be He-man. But he’s always been He-man to me. ^_^

And it was a war.


She won by split decision. I had fought really well and was happy with my performance. Of course I was very disappointed I lost, but my friends distracted me with multiple birthday parties, lots of cake, ice cream, and Taco Bell.

I turned 34 years old.

John told me to get stronger and put on muscle, so I started consistently lifting weights about three days a week.
I also decided to throw myself into jiujitsu gi classes, because I felt I was stronger when I was more into jiujitsu. I promised myself I’d train double classes, which I had always avoided because it made me tired for MMA class. I decided I’d do it anyway and trained till I dropped.

Every time I started getting frustrated in class, I started telling myself that a Jedi doesn’t need emotions. And it works.

My best friend Serena also lost her fight before that, and that was devastating.

In October, I hosted a Halloween party! and became Goku for Costume Sparring at Syndicate.

I moved into a three-bedroom apartment with Serena and Jessy!

I promoted a student for the first time! Preston gets gray white! Despite being challenged with Autism, he always tried so hard at jiujitsu and to be a good person and nice to his classmates!

I tried a jiujitsu tournament, my first in 11 years, and lost both matches. I was devastated. I kept the consolation medal so when I looked at it, I was reminded that emotional pain hurts more than physical pain. I’ll throw it away when I get one that I earn.

In December, two of my students competed in a jiujitsu tournament and they both won all their matches and got first place! I was so happy I cried a lot.

My kids class has gotten so big! πŸ˜€

I went to Boston to visit my dad! He told me to retire from MMA and get a better job, but other than that, it was nice. Who listens to their parents anyway? πŸ™‚

It’s a shame people are saying “2016 sucks.” I had plenty of negative things happen to me, but while looking through the pictures, I see all the positive things that happened, plus things I don’t have room to post.

I have goals.

I will put one of these in my closest and throw the other in the trash can. To do that, I must go defeat all the other purple belts at tournaments. I need to improve more and more and prove that I’ve improved. I don’t just want the symbols, I want to get so good at jiujitsu that everybody will know my subs are coming but can’t do anything to stop them. I want people to be like, “Oh she has the back, it’s all over!!!”

I also will restate my New Years resolution: same as last year with one addition. Study Japanese for at least 30 minutes every other day. I kept that one until my fight in September! That’s great, huh? For 9 months I kept that resolution! This time I’m adding 15 minutes of Portuguese every other day. I’ve started doing a language exchange with Thais, Captain’s wife. So if I keep that up twice a week, that’ll keep my resolution covered.

Also, I will fight a lot and win all my MMA fights! Get a knock out. Just to prove I have the ability.

At Syndicate, I found a coach who can teach me striking, a feat impossible before. This year I made up a technique – The Roxycopter! (Serena named it) I found a massage therapist, Teri. I found a jiujitsu coach I commit to, who is also an inspiration because he’s a teacher and fighter, just like me. I think I may have found a physical trainer I can trust. Can he help me fix what I haven’t been able to fix for a decade?

In Syndicate I trust.

And as you can see, people made up so much of what happened to me. I met people, made friends, became closer with friends I already had, was treated well by my sponsors. Thank you to everyone for being a part of my life, whether you be my mother, my roommate, my training partner, my friend, my fan who interacts with me on social media, or the fan who has never contacted me but watches me fight and wishes me well. Thank you for your energy!