Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

fights, jiujitsu, training race, updates, Sarah is visiting

Posted in every day, fight, friends, training on March 20th, 2018 by roxyfighter

I’ve been feeling frustrated and burned out. Every day I come home in the evening not having the mental energy to even watch TV. I just want to sleep and not be tired anymore. I’m tired of running stairs twice a week and doing burpies and tons of physical training.

For me, life is a race to see how much I can get done. Training is a race. I always need to do as much as I possibly can in a day to get better. Who knows how much time I have left to fight, or train? Or walk? Or live? I could lose my leg tomorrow and never train again! Live in the day like there’s no tomorrow!

I think it’s a combination of my beliefs and my Modafferi blood. There’s a fire burning inside me (that only goes out when I get food poisoning LOL) to GO GO GO. Modafferi’s can’t relax. lol

I’m in fight shape, near fight weight (FIGHT DIETING FREAKING SUCKS)

I found out I probably won’t offered a fight date for a while. Yesterday I was upset. I went home and ate a mini refried bean burrito. (it’s sad when a tiny amount of carbs is your cheat meal. I know I would have nightmares if I did more! I had one a few days ago where chocolate was pouring out of my locker!) But then I thought about it. There are so many positives! I HAVE A UFC CONTRACT! I’m so happy and proud and honored! Thank you!

They want me to fight again!!
Last year in 2017, I fought SIX times! I won 1 by armbar, 3 by TKO, and lost 2 by close decision.
My training has made me stronger and better so far! I’ve never felt so strong and healthy. As time goes by? Pppffftt the world will be like….WHO IS THAT?

haters I don’t have haters, but doubters will be like, “I thought she sucked!?” And I’ll point to my sherdog record that says “KO” and say “um people who suck don’t KO people by accident in the UFC.” πŸ˜‰

At least the fight date doesn’t coincide with my bestie Serena’s fight April 14th. (She’s fighting in ICF/ Fusion Fight League in Great Falls, Montana! Go watch!)
At least I can go to my step brother Peter’s wedding May 5th.
At least I’m not broke so I can live off my previous fight money longer.
At least I have the best coach I’ve ever met, aka Big John Wood.
I’m working out the jiujitsu situation….I think it’s improving.

Speaking of jiujitsu….I REALLY WANT TO COMPETE GI.

Recently, I rolled with BJJ champion Tammi Musumeci (link embedded) and felt like a white belt again. Literally. I’m decent at passing De la Riva guard, so I approached her and the second she sunk in her de la riva, my knee turned inward and she was taking my back.

So after she tapped me out and I stood up and approached her again, I thought “Okay I’m gonna turn my knee OUT really hard and she’s not going to be able to take my back….” and suddenly I was being swept and mounted.

It was amazing.

I know that I’m only going to get better because I’m going to figure out how she’s doing that and learn from it!


Thanks to Casey and Rene for being good teachers, too. CASEY CASEY I did what you said yesterday and it was working, as did something Rene said.

aaaah. I feel like I’m neglecting to keep in touch with some of my friends, I’m so tired and busy.

Three of our kid students competed at the open house on Saturday! I’m so proud of them! The Dunham jiujitsu kids were tough! Eli and Artem finished their opponents


and Aleena had a tough match against a strong girl, but did well. She overcame some fear and insecurity to fight the second match, for which I was very proud of her.
<3

My buddy and training partner Chelsea got her stripe at belt/stripe promotions a few weeks ago, and I helped by being her partner.

I’ve got your back, girl. πŸ˜‰


Chelsea in turn has been helping me with my wrestling private lessons!


Rick Davis has been helping me out with jiujitsu by rolling with me after Monday and Tuesday’s class. I’M TRYING SO HARD TO MAKE TIME to train. But I think he injured his elbow in a minor car accident so I dunno if we’re gonna roll for a while? But I saw him rolling with Phillip in class yesterday… *sigh* He’s just like Lorenzo (my phyisical trainer). “Oh I got bitten a scorpion and couldn’t walk for a few days. No problem, I’m back today.” omg you guys.

Sarah McCann, native New Zealander living in Japan, is visiting us for a week! I’m enjoying having her here, and I think she’s getting a lot out of training!

I’m watching some Overlord II and I really like the Lizardmen. I wish they alone were their own stand-alone anime.

I rewatched the last 3 Jurassic Parks to refresh myself before the new one comes out in the summer.
I’m watching Godzilla vs Mothra. Hide the drapes and turn off the porch lights, Celia! LOL (inside joke). It’s slow paced, so I watch it near my sleep time so I fall asleep after five minutes. haha So I’ve been watching this movie literally for two weeks, five to ten minutes every day. x_x

Thank you for sponsoring me the new gloves, Kristy Crilly! πŸ˜€ <3 <3 <3
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I wanna fight! Fantastic training, stronger, Transformers, sponsors

Posted in every day, friends, training on March 4th, 2018 by roxyfighter

I had a really really great week!

I woke up on Monday feeling energetic, and just “on,” you know? I had my plans set, I was excited for them, and it turns out that I had a lot of success. My brain absorbed the info, my body produced results, for the most part. It was awesome! πŸ˜€ The previous week was a bit of a struggle. Just…various things stressed me out. I struggled with techniques, had a problem in my kids class I didn’t know how to resolve, etc, and I had a BUNCH of fight flash backs during training.

I’m hesitant to call it Post Traumatic Stress Disorder because I know people in the military have it far worse, but it was something to that effect. When someone is in a high stress situation and bad stuff happens, it stays with you and comes back in flashes. For example, a training partner was taking me down….I knew that if I hadn’t gotten taken down in my last fight, I might have won the decision and I might be UFC champion right now. So in that moment in training, I fought the takedown so hard, thinking “I’m gonna defend it!!!!!!!” but I got taken down. And internally started freaking out. My emotions shot back to the fight, and I was there, under the lights, when they announced the winner and my hand didn’t get raised. Crushing defeat swept over me. I had to go collect myself in the corner before I could roll again. Or when I had that armbar locked in on my training partner, in the same position during my last fight, and I was pulling on the grip, trying to break it…waBAM, I was suddenly back in the cage, with twenty seconds left! If I had armbarred her, I would be the champion right now, but I couldn’t get it. A tsunami of agony and sadness washed over me from the fight months ago. Or if I’m in guard and somebody starts lifting me off the ground, I freak the hell out because I’ve gotten KO-ed by slam TWICE.

As you can imagine, I drill the snot out of those techniques, and I’m pleased to say I am now way better at the arm bar from various positions. I’m harder to take down because I’ve been drilling defenses, and I never let myself get lifted anymore.

Thank goodness I still have a chin. I can’t imagine going into a fight knowing that I can get easily knocked out if a single punch lands…. These are fighter problems, guys. :/ I wonder what other fighters with a lot of experience have to deal with. These flash-backs of mine tend to fade with time. Or maybe that’s because I’ve fixed those problems. I mostly think about the negative instances in my most recent fights. A few weeks after the fight is the worst. I remember trying to hit mitts with John after fighting Sijara and really struggled to hold back tears, telling him “If she only hadn’t taken me down!” and I was afraid to throw a punch for a while.

SO that being said, that was two weeks ago but last week was amazing. Every Wednesday, Coach John teaches me a new wrestling technique for MMA that I specifically need, with Hannah as my partner, and I try hard all week to apply it.

This past Thursday I used it to take down someone I normally struggle to take down, and I was so happy! I also got a lot of, well, relatively a lot of gi training in. I can’t take classes anymore (which kills me).

I’ve been doing technique with Casey twice a week between mitt sessions and MMA class. This is in tune with the old saying, “Don’t find time, make time. ” I got to roll with youth trainer Rick after the big kids class, and he taught me a few things. I didn’t get neck cranked at all on Monday! πŸ˜€ YAY! He likes those. He got me with one on Wednesday and this armbar from the crucifix. He then taught me and then I got it on somebody in MMA sparring class on Thursday!

I was so psyched! I immediately texted him and was like…

My jiujitsu trainer Casey has also been spending a lot of time coaching me and watching me spar. I’ve been landing the stuff HE has been teaching me, too! A few times this week, I scampered over to his office after class, with crazy post-training hair, and reported success….

Haha.

I also free rolled with some people for the first time in like two months and they all said I was twice as strong as the last time.

I better be stronger! I BETTER be freaking stronger! I’ve been working so hard at it and sacrificing other things for it. I’ve sacrificed my gi jiujitsu training. I’ve been meeting Lorenzo, my physical trainer, double what I normally do, making myself go to the Performance Institute, obsessing myself with making sure every day something is sore from working out but not TOO sore that I can’t function. If my legs aren’t sore, I make sure I do burpies or stairs that day. If my arms aren’t sure, I do something about it.

IT SUCKS. It’s not fun. I dislike physical training. Wrestling makes my neck and back hurt. I have to ice bath constantly. A fighter is pretty much uncomfortable for every day of their fighting lives. So to hear feedback that I was stronger and better was amazing. I pretty much was floating on the joy of the praise for a few days. However, even thought I know I’m stronger, it doesn’t mean I’ll be stronger than my opponent. I was never very strong or athletic to begin with, so maybe I’m just average now. I can’t worry about that, though. I can only do the best I can possibly do so I can fight my hardest and sleep well at night knowing I couldn’t have done any more.

OH OH OH So on Friday I had a session with Lorenzo and he had me flip a big tire…it was bigger and heavier than the last one and he said “you killed it!” I went up a tire size! YAY! It did make me a little tired, though.

hahaha get the pun?!?

I got to meet one of my sponsors, Bill and his family, who were visiting from Texas. They’re the ones who own the I.T. company My Consumer IT. They treated Serena and I to a delicious steak dinner. I really enjoyed getting to know them. Thank you for that, and for your support! πŸ˜€
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Kids class is great. I taught them about sweeping. We just drilled the concept of hooks and sweeps. Artem always gets it fast!

My buddy and apartmentmate Serena finally has a fight set! April 14th in Great Falls, Montana, in Fusion Fight League!

She’s looking for sponsors, so usually a company or even a fan sends some cash and she prints a logo on her shorts or fight banner and does social media shout-outs. email serenasouthpaw@gmail.com for inquiries!

I finished watching the Transformer Prime series! I REALLY really liked it! I never watched the original Transformers (I was a girly girl at that age) but when I was a teenager and became a tomboy, I got REALLY into Beast Wars, and then Beast Machines. I think the following series was intended for younger audiences so I quit watching. Then I heard about Prime and got into it.

Dude, the battle between Predaking vs Wheeljack and Ultra Magnus was one of my most epic animated fight scenes I’ve ever seen! They used guns, swords, a hammer, an electrified whip, stalactites, other rocks, fists, and kicks!



My car, Lee, needs a new Exhaust Manifold. ;_; I got it diagnosed on Saturday but they had to order the part so I gotta bring it back Tuesday. >_< I watched The Black Panther with The Reen today. It was pretty good! So I really really want to fight but I keep being told I'll get an offer "soon." This is the life of a fighter. I don't get to control when I fight. I dieted down to a weight where I can take a fight on a week's notice, and I'm in decent enough cardio shape for it, too.

busy, eventful week, Fear the Fighter shirt, training

Posted in every day, fight, friends, training on February 18th, 2018 by roxyfighter

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Last week had ups and downs!

I got kind of frustrated with a few techniques that I learned and couldn’t do. However, I remind myself – be thankful that I got through those times of failure, because I have to fail a bunch of times before I can succeed once.

I didn’t feel on the top of my game Monday or Tuesday, but I got through practice and did some stuff. I’m grateful for great coaching and great training partners. Serena was sick all week! πŸ™ I missed training with her. Thanks, Chelsea, for helping me with my wrestling and jiujitsu private with Casey.

You’re a great training partner, and I’m glad we made friends! πŸ˜€ <3

On Valentine’s day, I got some chocolates and Valentine’s from my kid students! πŸ™‚ I’m so happy and I feel loved!

Oh, a mystery fan send me roses and chocolate and poem! πŸ˜€ How sweet! Thank you, mystery fan!

I got to hang out with my friends Jack and Jan on Tuesday. We had a very nice dinner together! It was so nice getting to see them again when they come to Vegas. Thank you for the nice Valentine’s Day card, treats, and gifts! Lee, my car, gets a treat, too! πŸ˜€


I’m so fortunate to have great people in my life.

I’ve been training so hard this week. If something isn’t sore, I do some kind of exercise to make sure it gets worked and gets sore. lol In my down time, meaning when I lay down before I pass out with my shows still on, I managed to watch the movie Lucy, and a few episodes of Hozuki no Reitetsu. I’m on the last season of Transformers Prime, but it’s taken me a week to get through one 30 minute episode, because I get about 5 in before I fall asleep.

Saturday morning before open mat and kickboxing, I got to roll with Captain at the UFC Performance Institute! Thanks for spending time with me! I miss him a lot. We don’t get to see each other that much anymore since he’s training elsewhere now. I don’t miss his side-control-of-death, though. x_x (This is my ‘mean’ face. It needs work!)


Kickboxing group!

I’ve been trying to support Alexa in her fight training! She has a fight next month against Carina Damm!

I love training with her, and I want her to win her fight!

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level up! Brown belt anniversary, anime con, kids jiujitsu

Posted in every day, friends, fun, training on January 24th, 2018 by roxyfighter

I’ve had a fantastic couple of weeks!
I’ve been training specific techniques. The learning curve goes like this: see and hear explanation, practice with no resistance, practice with a little resistance, practice with a lot of resistance, try to do in sparring with 100% resistance, become able to do multiple times in sparring. I finally got to the final stage in a few of these techniques.

There was stuff I couldn’t do in my last fight that I can do now!


That means I’m a different fighter than I was a few months ago.
I’m so happy!!

I’ve been doing a lot of striking and wrestling privates. I’ve been enjoying working with Hannah for wrestling. Coach John is such an amazing coach. He can teach me little details and combos and moves that improve me so much. I’m so glad I’m here at Syndicate.

Thanks for the picture, Ryan Loco!

I’ve been training a lot with Serena, of course, and also Chelsea, Jordan, and Natan!
I love team Syndicate.

This coming Sunday, Jan 28th, is the one year anniversary of me getting promoted to brown belt by CapitΓ£o. It was one of my favorite moments in my entire life. I had been a purple belt for like 10 years (which is like three times longer than normal). I tried a tournament a few weeks after my Invicta title fight, just to “see where I stood in the gi,” and I got tapped out once, and lost by decision to a beatable opponent in my second match. I was so devastated that I applied myself and trained SO hard. CapitΓ£o is such a great teacher. I started obsessively going to his classes, and he really taught me a lot. I love his teaching style. He also became a great friend.

It was hard to take a lot of jiujitsu classes ON TOP of all my other MMA training. I was exhausted all the time. My purple belt was in tatters. I felt depressed every time I looked at it, which was every day. Every day I wanted to get better. I was trimming threads off it every day. “I gotta reach brown belt level before this thing falls apart,” I thought to myself every day. My no-gi level was high, but through disuse, I had forgotten a lot of techniques involving the gi. Chokes, balance, muscles used are totally different! Anyone who says otherwise is wrong. It’s a different world and fighting style.

Finally, in January 2016, I went to another tournament in California, sponsored by Remove it Restoration! CapitΓ£o went with me. I won it!

He actually promoted me to brown belt on the podium! I always dreamed of that. It seemed like the coolest way to get surprised with promotion ever, but I never thought it would happen to me.

One of the happiest days in my life.
Now, CapitΓ£o doesn’t train or teach at Syndicate anymore and I’m so sad. I cried a lot about it, actually. Nobody knows how much I cried over it because I never mentioned it online before. But no matter what other teachers I train with, CapitΓ£o will always be one of my best teachers and a big part of my life! I’m looking forward to the next time we can train together.
We rolled last Saturday. I miss him so much!

Every week is so busy, but in particular, this past Saturday was crazy. Syndicate had an open house, during which they put on a mini-jiujitsu tournament, and Muay Thai exhibition matches between members. I volunteered to sign autographs at a table! Not a ton of people came over, but oh well. I met some nice people and chatted with others. πŸ™‚
I also did some jiujitsu with visiting fighters and some kickboxing.

Then Serena and I dragged ourselves and our gear to Planet Hollywood where we put on a demonstration and panel at Otakon Las Vegas! Otakon is the biggest anime convention in the USA, normally held in Baltimore and now Washington DC. This one was an affiliate or branch or … a baby! Yes. It’s Otakon’s baby. πŸ™‚ *cuddle*

I was impressed that 99% of the con-goers wore costumes. Like, literally everybody I saw cosplayed, and made a big effort, too!! I felt underdressed with my jeans and Dragon Ball Z hoodie. o_O;;;

I was afraid that 1) no one would come 2) no one would talk 3) no one would volunteer 4) no one would come say hi for pictures or autographs afterwards.

NONE Of those fears came to pass. πŸ˜€ A bunch of people came…. an organizer said it was one of the most highly attended panels! The room was HUGE, so it didn’t look like it got filled up, but I knew based on the whole con size, it wasn’t bad. Lots of people spoke up when I asked the crowd to name anime with MMA or fighting styles in it. Lots of people volunteered to come up to the state to try the moves we showed, for example, the hook sweep, mount escape, the take-down counter tomoenagi flip, cow catcher that Serena showed, etc. πŸ™‚

I then wore my Goku gi to do the demo, and when we sparred, I had on my Goku rash guard, and Serena borrowed my Vegeta rash guard. I WAS SO EXCITED to spar with her as Goku vs Vegeta….and for once, I think everyone understood our excitement! πŸ˜€

Dude, this girl’s Mei Hatsume costume is GOOD, right?! I Was totally fangirling over her. XD

My kids class is awesome. I love them. A lot of them are supposed to compete at the NAGA tournament in Feb so I’m trying to get them ready for that!

Especially Aleena is tiny and adorable and can armbar me and choke me. *_*

I was sick a few weeks ago and watched a ton of Arrow, Flash, and Hozuki no Reitetsu.

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announcements, The Reen’s b-day, TV & anime, events

Posted in every day, friends, fun, training on January 13th, 2018 by roxyfighter

First and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my friend/roommate/training partner/nacho buddy/movie buddy Serena “The Southpaw Outlaw” DeJesus, aka “The Reen.”

Gee, you have many names.

But there is only one Reen. πŸ˜€ She is 26, about a decade younger than me, but we get along so well! Sometimes I don’t know what the heck she’s saying due to her ‘young person lingo…..’

But these moments are becoming less and less. At least she’s more aware of using adverbs correctly nowadays. πŸ˜€

I realized that she wouldn’t throw herself a party, so this year I threw it for her! πŸ˜€ We invited a few friends and her family.



I never take anything for granted, especially friends. Having a friend like Serena is like having the overhead light on in the room. It’s always there, bright, cheery, constant, unfaltering, illuminating my daily life. I could survive without it, but I’d be groping around, struggling. She’s always there to share ideas with, to do fun things or chores with. Having a good training partner is so important beyond words. When you train a fighting sport with someone, it’s violent, so you have to trust your body and health to another person, trust that they can use control and not hurt you. In recent years, I’ve become more careful about my training. “My body is my business.”

I hope I never ever make her feel like I don’t appreciate her.

Stilllllll trying to figure out a balance in my schedule. I’ve been doing more strength and conditioning. I also had a great wrestling private lesson with Coach John and Hannah.


aaaah jiujitsu. x_x Why is it such a struggle for me to get good training in gi jiujitsu? Maybe because you’re living the life of an MMA fighter, Roxy, and are at the best MMA gym in Vegas. You know your goals.
Yeah….

I started doing mini jiujitsu gi lessons with Casey-sensei. He wrote out a list of fundamental techniques, and upon looking them over, I realized I didn’t know many by name. Before my fight, I made a goal to go over them all, and make sure I have the appropriate knowledge as a brownbelt should. Casey is such a great teacher. Serena and I are enjoying drilling with him. The 25 minute sessions go by too fast! ;_;

So in regards to my schedule……
My dad told me a story. When he was just starting out as a salesman and was soliciting people for business, people turned him down and it ticked him off. “What should I say to these jerks to turn me down?” He asked his boss. His boss told him, “You should thank them.” “Thank them?! Why?!” my dad asked. “Because nine out of every ten people will turn you you down, so you should thank them for being one of the nine you have to get through before you can reach the one.”

That is such a cool story, and I’m applying it to my life. So this week was supposed to be attempted schedule week #3, but I got sick! πŸ™ GRRRRRR foiled! I even had a fever. I have stuff to do, muscle to build, technique to perfect, kids to train. bah.

At least I will get better in a few days and am not seriously injured. Therefore, I’m really not that upset. I don’t even need something to compare that to, but unfortunately fellow fighter Tonya just had a serious injury, and a friend’s family member just got into a serious car accident, plus all over the Underground Forums is a gofundme collection for some ammy fighter who got into a car accident….. yeah the world is rough. I already appreciate where I am, my ability to do what I’m doing, my health, my family, etc.

Well, since I’m home sick, I can enjoy catching up on TV and anime shows. I NEVER get time to marathon watch stuff anymore. ONLY when I’m sick. So yeah, I enjoyed the heck out of it. I continued watching Arrow. I’m on season 5, ep 8.


Then Flash. I’m on season 3 ep 3.

I’m also into The Gifted, in the X-men universe!

I also researched some anime I had taken pics of in Japan and made a note to look up, including Hoozuki no Reitetsu, which is a hilarious parody of Japanese company life. XD

I watched a bunch of eps of that because I decided to watch Overlord with Candy and I’m waiting for her to catch up to where I am. Overlord…I dunno how I hadn’t heard about this before, because it came out a few years ago, but it’s like Sword Art Online, where this guy gets trapped inside MMORPG (massively multiplayer online role-playing game). The main character is actually the skeleton undead guy lol.

Also watching Ancient Magus Bride. It’s a weird one, but mystical and mysterious. I like it a lot!

oh, a few weeks ago, I saw Jumanji with Serena. FUNNIEST MOVIE I’VE SEEN IN A LONG TIME! I wouldn’t mind seeing it again in the theater! omg I dislike Jack Black’s movies but he was hilarious in this one! The Rock is an amazing actor, as well.

BTW I’m revamping my store. There are more options for my books – you can get a signed autographed photo now, and I’m also gonna sell Keith Mill’s photo and part of profits are going to charity. It’s not up yet, but soon.
http://roxannemodafferi.net/RSite/node/8

Also, my Happy Warrior T shirts have been reprinted so all the sizes should be in! No XXL, though, sorry about that.
https://www.maverickunbranded.com/products/mvrk-happy-warrior-tee

Oh, there’s going to be a Syndicate open house with stuff going on. If you are in Vegas, stop by! Jan 20th from 10 to 1 PM.

(*click to enlarge)
Also Jan 20th, I’m going to be a guest at Otakon Vegas, in Planet Hollywood, from 3:30! Demo, Q & A, and autographs.

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