Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

I have a fight! my training, sponsors, etc

Posted in every day, fight, friends, training on March 14th, 2017 by roxyfighter

I’m so excited I have a fight coming up! I’m still under contract with Invicta but they allowed me to take this fight with Fusion Fight League. It wasn’t easy finding an opponent, but finally Priscila De Souza was finalized.

It’s in Montana and won’t be televised, so you gotta go buy tickets! Serena was also given a fight on the amateur section! That’s pretty cool a card can have both, and how often do a a pro-friend and ammy friend get to fight on the same day?

Actually I wish we weren’t because I’m super emotionally involved in her fight and I get really nervous. But I guess it can’t be helped at this point. :/ I’m trying to be positive about it.

It’s gonna be fine. John’s gonna take care of us so I won’t be nervous. She’s been trying to get a fight for a while now, too. She has improved SO Much. I can’t wait to see her fight again!

I’m going with Coach John, and I’m flying in Captain because each team gets only one cornerman paid for. Most promotions have that rule.

You might see me posting about sponsorship. I don’t know how aware the average fan is, but the sponsorship scene has changed so much over the years I’ve been fighting. Back in the day like 10 years ago when the UFC was shown once every month or every two months, the fighters got thousands of dollars for wearing brand name shorts like Sprawl, Tapout, Affliction, etc. Then the market got saturated with fighters and brands and the companies realized that they weren’t making enough money back from such advertisement to justify spending such big money. So they cut back. And got picky with which fighters. Many fighters didn’t make an effort to show off their sponsors before and after the fights. Sometimes, fighters’ money they made from sponsorship was greater than their fight purse! I’m taking like over $50,000! Then the Reebok deal happened and UFC fighters were no long allowed to wear sponsors and only got like $2,500. From $50,000 to $2,500. Crazy, huh?

So my manager stopped being able to find me any good sponsors, and I started seeing fellow fighters posting on Facebook, ‘Who wants to sponsor me? E-mail me!” I thought, well, why don’t I try it?

And I started getting sponsors! Fans who owned small companies would give me some cash to put their logo on my clothes. Fans who didn’t own a company would contribute to put their name on my shorts or banner to show support. It adds up. In my last four fights in Invicta, I can say that other than Dragon Do, Cryohelmet, and Herbal Papaya, every single one of my sponsors was a fan. Well actually, the owner of Herbal Papaya contacted me because she was a fan. I am fan sponsored!

Crazy…

But I think I’m good for unique companies like Herbal Papaya and Cryohelmet because I do have a large social media following and they have unique products that are specifically good for me and the people who follow me. Everybody already has shorts. But do you have a product that can boost your immunity and help digestion like Herbal Papaya, or sooth headaches and migraines like Cryohelmet?!?

Someone suggested starting a gofundme account, but honestly, I wouldn’t do that because I’m not broke and I don’t wanna seem like I’m begging for money. No one is forcing me to fight. I do it because I love it. So I wanna do things that people will enjoy, like making my autographs accessible to buy, or putting someone’s name on my banner which will be shown on TV. 🙂

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removeitrestoration.com is one of my biggest, most consistent sponsors!
They’re also sponsoring Serena, Captain, and Naldo, so we took a group picture wearing their patches.

And this is me at this very moment typing this blog, wearing one of my two Cryohelmets.

(btw if you use the code: ROXYFIGHTER on the Cryohelmet website you get 15% off for the next month)

Anyway. So if you wanna buy this autographed photo, you can paypal $25 to basilisk875@yahoo.com and include your address! Or if you are interested in more, email me. And because money isn’t everything, even emailing me a “good luck” will make me super happy. 😀

I realized today that I started out this week with a faulty mentality. Last week I overworked myself to the point where I got sick, so I told myself this week I would take it down a notch. Also, John is away cornering Jessy in South Korea, and I’m super unmotivated to do striking when he’s not around. Today, while trying to do kickboxing, I realized that I mentally gave myself an out, so I tried to rev myself back up. However, I think I was still a little burned out from last week because I didn’t even feel aggressive while doing jiu-jitsu, and that’s rare.

I had such a headache that got worse after warm-ups, that every time I was hit, contact or blocked, my head would pound. Then everytime I landed a strike, namely on the heavy bag, my head felt like it was going to explode. It freaked me out because I’ve gotten a concussion before, and even though I KNOW today was just a neck-tension headache, I felt horrible.

Training to become a champion on your worst days, right?
I really wanted to go home after jiujitsu but didn’t.

Despite hating striking in general when John isn’t here, I actually really liked Tom’s ideas he was communicating today. I was trying to hard to give myself a goal during training, and ended up giving myself poor ones: don’t let my kicks get caught, and work on feints. They were poor because I didn’t specify how many kicks or how many feints, like “make someone bite on my feint successfully five times.” This locked me into a 100% success ratio expectation, so when someone caught a kick, I felt like I had failed. As I was getting my Cryohelmet out of John’s freezer in his office to try and recover a bit between rounds 2 and 3, I felt like such a loser and failure. Then I asked myself, “Okay, so how many times did you actually do it?” I looked back and realized that I had succeeded quite a lot, but my brain conveniently forgot about those times. I did a lot of good stuff, but my emotions weren’t giving me credit for them.

In the middle of the 4th round, I was going with Tony. Suddenly I heard Captain’s voice erupt from my right, “Let’s GO Roxy!”

I literally felt power enter my body. It was crazy, and very interesting.
He’s training for his own fight so he hadn’t come in today for class, but came in to hit mitts with Naldo.

I am very affected by 1) my trainers’ presences 2) music
I’m also 100% certain I could have ignored my headache a bit more if Rob Zombie was playing rather than the dumb rap and slow instrumentals that have been on in John’s absence.

Oh yeah, I didn’t tell about Tom’s goals yet. So he had us do combos but notice our how opponent blocks, or reacts. Then try and feint them and throw something else. It seems so simple, but we don’t often focus on JUST noticing specific patterns of our training partners. So I gave up my two goals and for the last two rounds adopted those, and man! I had so much success! Then Tom had us do rounds of only power punches.

I’m really proud of myself, despite feeling mentally sluggish and having a headache, I still got great practice in.

I canceled my Portuguese lesson today and I’m so glad, I can just lay down. I actually went food shopping instead. x_x and mailed out some autographs. Wait, so that means I’m not actually resting? I’m SO BAD AT RESTING. I need someone to lock me in my apartment. x_x

My Brazilian Brother Naldo held mitts for me on Monday. I really only want John to hold mitts for me, but I’ve found that if I don’t hit mitts on Monday, it doesn’t rev up my brain for kickboxing and I’m super unmotivated to do it for the rest of the week. Plus I was curious about Naldo, because I saw him holding for another teammate. I enjoyed my session with him! I really need to have a friendship or connection with my mitt holder to help motivate me to do it. -_- That’s another reason I asked him.

Thanks!!

This past Sunday, I made plans with Thais (my Portuguese teacher and Captain’s wife) to go to this Brazilian restaurant Boca do Brasil, and Captain came along. It was really nice! Great food, and the garlic didn’t make me melt since I’m a vampire. (i.e. give me an upset stomach)

Captain got a short-notice fight in World Series of Fighting, so he’ll be fighting in NY this Saturday, March 18th! It’ll be shown on NBC Sports! Please watch and cheer for him! He’s on the undercard.

Also Jessy jess in South Korea vs Sarah Kaufman in Battlefront, but I don’t know how to watch that… She has also improved a ton over the recent months! I’m so excited for her to fight and win!! Go Jessy!

I’m in such great shape. I can’t wait to fight!

Jessica Bakan took this photo of me hitting mitts with John. It’s pretty cool!

great week- Katie & TKD, kids promotion, training

Posted in every day, friends, fun, training on February 4th, 2017 by roxyfighter

This week was great.

I went back to training on Monday still feeling burnt out and a little over-trained, despite taking Sunday off from training. Well, I didn’t do MMA but I did yoga and lifted weights and did sprints…. *ahem*

On Tuesday, I felt like my body was really fighting a cold and I felt really crappy and exhausted, I only did jiujitsu class and skipped kickboxing. “Only” jiujitsu. Hah. Double classes in a row are hard… anyway, yeah! So tired. Got some chores done, though. Didn’t go to my language exchange. ;_;

Wednesday I woke up SO excited to go to Katie’s TaeKwonDo tournament! It was the US open, and lots of people flew in from other countries. I woke up early (3:50 AM) because I was so excited, got up at 4 AM, ate breakfast, and then went to 24 Hr Fitness gym and did some weights and Lorenzo’s Hellish Strength and Conditioning Leg explosive jump squat routines. x_x I still felt crappy, so I did two sets (which contain a bunch of activities) instead of 5 (which render me useless for the rest of the day.) Then I did some of Lorenzo’s Hellish upperbody and abs workout. Have I mentioned that Lorenzo is the best physical trainer I’ve ever worked with? I’ve had to skip the past two weeks and I’m sad but rejoicing at the same time, you know what I mean? haha
I’ve still been doing his stuff on other days, though. My diamond pushups have gone from 6 max to 11 max. YAY #results I will make the efforts as long as I know what to do and how to do it. Guide me and I will get it done.


So I forced a decent workout and then went to Westgate Casino were we waited around ALL morning and into the afternoon, but I expected that. Tournaments are like that, not knowing when you’re fighting and always running behind. We got to see only the first of her three matches. She won the first! 😀 And then we had to go, and she unfortunately didn’t win the second, but won the third. She got a silver medal. Congrats, Katie! You were cool! ^_^

(in blue)

Then I went to teach kids.
Thursday, Katie joined us for jiu-jitsu! She’s gotten so much better since I convinced her to join me like half a year ago!!


Hahah Captain’s face in this picture!! XD He’s so happy choking me.

And I convinced her to do MMA! It was sparring day! I know it’s different because you can’t punch the face in Tae Kwon Do. John didn’t run class cuz he’s in Texas to corner Khalil who is fighting today! ….and we didn’t actually “spar.” (Well, I did two rounds with Serena after class ended)

Guns ran us through various drills and stations, which was actually the perfect thing for Katie! She got a taste of ground and pound, scrambles, wall-drills, submissions, etc.

I’m so proud of her. And I enjoyed the guillotine and arm-bar practice. And it was cool seeing Serena’s grappling improvement. She totally doesn’t give herself enough credit, but I notice. But we fighters have a tendency to forget the stuff we do well and fixate on the stuff we mess up. I know this because I do the exact same thing daily. lol I had asked Capitao some questions, saying, ” I struggled with this in my tournament!” and he was like, “But you finally did it right in your fight!!” I was like, “I did?!” LOL I had forgotten I did it…. He said I did everything right. When I heard this, I was like…

We went out to lunch. Then Serena did some physical training, so I took Katie back to my place and forced her to watch the anime Norigami, and she likes it. 😀 <3 This kind of change of pace was exactly what I needed. I trained but I no longer feel overtrained. And I really missed my friends since I didn't go to the last Invicta, so I'm glad I got to hang out with Katie! I miss Candy and Rob pretty badly, though. And my other friends who come see me fight... 🙁 oh well... I promoted Joshua to solid gray belt! I'm so proud of him! He's gotten good!

Today is jiujitsu, and kickboxing… Naldo has been calling me out all week to spar but we haven’t been training in the same sessions! x_x I wanna do jiujitsu and he wants to do kickboxing and he didn’t show up to the MMA class (where I actually have a chance…actually who am I kidding, I have no chance, he’s a bad-ass 25-5 pro from Brazil!) hah!

I felt so loved yesterday when my friends invited me to come hang out via live instagram video feed…but I was sleepy so I went to bed anyway. lol it was 10 PM! I get Roxalepsy!

Then watch Khalil fight tonight! And tomorrow Serena and I have to take the TV back because 1) the port that connects my gaming systems is shorting in and out 2) the speakers suck 3) it’s refurbished and I didn’t realize that until I took it home. X_X;; grrr

I wish I had a fight set.

BJJ tournament coming! Herbal Papaya capsules, anime, TV

Posted in every day, fight, friends, fun, training on January 26th, 2017 by roxyfighter

I’m having a pretty good week. Last week was good, too, despite being exhausted most of the time. I’ve been keeping up very well with all my classes, plus cardio, plus physical training. I’m in great shape and so healthy! 😀 It’s great. I just haven’t been to Taco Bell in over a week. It’s rough. SO ROUGH, I tell you.

Every morning I take my Herbal Papaya capsules to support my immune system, digestion because it has the enzyme papain, and specifically this mix supports blood function. I also love the tea but I have to get some more of it soon. For those of you who like health products, definitely check it out!
https://www.herbalpapaya.com/collections/papaya-leaf-extracts

REALLY good jiujitsu training. I’ve been getting 30 minute private lessons from Casey here and there throughout the week, mostly on days with no morning gi-class. He’s REALLY helping me tweak things here and there in my jiujitsu game and I feel ready for the tournament this Saturday. Well, as ready as I can be. I’m still not perfect, but I’ll never be perfect. I just wanna be better and better. Casey is such a good teacher and has the ability to explain things really well and clearly.

Yeah! I’m going to the Jiujitsu World League in Orange county, leaving on Friday and competing on Saturday! *checks website* OH BOY, looks like there are two other people in my division. YAY!!

Capitao’s classes are awesome. The amount of people attending are growing and growing every week. There’s a good rainbow of colors, from white belts, to blues, purples, browns (Casey and then Naldo who moved here), and even an extra black! Marcio from Brazil, who is Naldo’s trainer, joins, too. He tries to give me advice now and then. Last week I got so frustrated because Marcio was saying something I was doing wasn’t good, but I couldn’t understand what he wanted me to do because he only speaks Portuguese. And I wanted to know SO BADLY what he was saying. He made a big effort to take me aside and try and give me advice.

This is Marcio.

That being said, I understood half. My Portuguese lessons with Thais are going very well.
I wish my diet was going better. :/ I have to be 141.9 lbs max with my gi and belt on, which weigh about 4 pounds, so that means my body has to weigh 138 or 137. I’m waking up, and also ending practice dehydrated at 138, but I want to be able to eat breakfast and not be too dehydrated for my match. And it’s still unclear to me if I have to weigh in right before I fight or can I weigh in right when I get there. I WANT TO KNOW. 🙁 I’m waterloading and salt cutting right now. But since it’s same-day weigh-ins so I don’t wanna unbalance up my body’s chemistry TOO much. I guess I’ll be alright. I felt so weak yesterday so I had extra carbs, but I wasn’t sure if it’s because I’m always tired on Wednesday… I feel better today but also woke up a pound heavier. ~_~;;

My kids class is great. I had a few weeks of gigantic classes, and thankfully The Reen was there to help me.

The kids seem to pay more attention when we teach together because we goof around and Serena exaggerates stuff and it’s funny. 😀 Then she left to go work the coffee stand and I kind of lost a fraction of their attention.

Serena and I bought a new TV together! Jamie had lent us a 43 inch for a few months and I didn’t realize how much I would enjoy using it by having people over to watch fights and playing video games. We intended to go with 40 or even 39 inch to keep costs down, but for some unexplainable reason, the 42 inch RCA was cheaper than the 40 inch at $199! Plus taxes and the two year warrantee, it was $240. Not bad!

The Reen and I at Fry’s Electronics store.

People always ask us if we are sisters. Nope, just friends. Some people online have asked if we are dating. NO. Best friends. Yes, we are housemates and training partners and friends. But we are both straight and like hot guys, but don’t wanna bother with such distractions while we’re trying to become MMA champions, so we don’t talk about it or date.

That being said, I’m so fortunate to have such a great friend. I think I’ve mentioned before, but growing up I didn’t have many friends, so when I wished upon a star for my hearts desire, it was always “to have friends” and not be lonely anymore. So my heart is very happy. 🙂

Except when she calls a Super Nintendo a “SNES” (sss-nesss) which is not an actual word. 😛


XD It’s “Super NES (en-ee-ess) or Super Nintendo.” But I still love you, Serena! 😀 I did a poll on Facebook and found that after the Nintendo 64 came out, people started abbreviating the older models, so younger people tend to use the abbreviation more. Anyway. 😛 I’m so happy my old Super Nintendo works and I’ve been playing Donkey Kong Country 3 every morning for the past month ever since I discovered it in my dad’s basement. Weee.

I’m rewatching the Resident Evils so I can be ready to watch the new movie.
I took Serena’s recommendation and started this new anime Psycho-pass, which has a very interesting premise. It’s a police show, but in their universe, a computer system scans every human and reads their “criminal intent.” Most normal people read below 100 points, but violent types and criminals register higher, and then the police guns will unlock and emit a stun ray, so the police can arrest the person and give them counseling to help them and lower their number. It predicts if they are likely to commit a crime. If the person is an actual murderer, the number will be way high like 250 or 300 and then the gun will change to “kill mode” and the computer gives the cop authority to shoot to kill. So interesting.

At first the show was focusing around the woman, but then one of the cop’s backstory is kind of being highlighted now…he’s cool. *_* I’m watching it with my friend Candy now. We do that by watching a few eps, chatting about them, and then watch more. It’s cool since she’s in Texas. It’s hard when I have lots of time to watch and she doesn’t, or vice versa! I’m getting obsessed with this show now. haha

My 2016 in pictures

Posted in every day, family and holidays, fight, friends, fun, moving, training on January 1st, 2017 by roxyfighter

In February, I did an MMA seminar at KSA in Tennessee!

Kerry and Emma visited for a few weeks from England to train! <3

I was invited to watch The Ultimate Fighter Season 23 elimination fights, where Jamie, Khalil, and Cory made it into the house. I got a nicer picture with Dana than I had before (when I had a huge black eye), and I took a pic of the camera crew interviewing Coach John because he’s awesome. I actually got in trouble for taking this cuz somebody noticed. They told me to delete it but I didn’t. lol Hey, I didn’t take a picture of any of the actual fights!!

In March. My kids class is growing, from three kids to a small group!

I started getting treated by Teri, the most fantastic massage therapist I’ve ever met, and she made my pain go away! My training and life improved so much!

Also in March, Invicta 16 happened and I got to become Mileena!


I got to meet my good friend Patrick, who I’ve known online for years but had never met before!


I won!
My friends dressed up and it was incredibly epic.

I won!

In April I got to see my Aunt Mary and Uncle Steve, then I went to my baby cousin’s baby shower with my Dad and Marion, so I got to see all of my family except my Uncle Fran! 😀 I even got to train with my old training partner/coach Dave and see Kirik!

In April, Serena won her Tuff-N-Uff fight!

At the end of April, Mom, who I’d been living with for almost three years, moved to New York, and I moved in with Hannah.

I decided to start doing more gi. I got a beautiful black gi from Dragon do.

I started asking Casey for private lessons in the gi. He’s an incredibly excellent teacher. I’ve grown because of him.

My friend Brittany visited Vegas from Japan and stayed with me. I dressed up as Rey from Star Wars for John’s son Maverick’s birthday party.

I finished Naruto!

I settle into my role as sole teacher of the 4-7 year old kids jiujitsu class and made it 5-7. I also took over Chris’ position helping Coach Rick teach the older kid’s jiujitsu class in addition to my younger class.

Aussie Jessy Jess Clark (purple hair) came to Syndicate and decided to join!

Hannah left me for a man and moved out, so Jessy moved in to the empty room. lol !

I came to realize that Captain is my favorite jiujitsu teacher of all time, and I want to be his disciple, kind of like the BJJ version of John. <3

I’ve tried to make more of an effort to spend time with my female training partner friends.

I fought in Invicta 19 for the title against Jennifer Maia. I got to be She-ra, the Princess of Power (and rocked it, if I do say so), and John got to be He-man. But he’s always been He-man to me. ^_^

And it was a war.


She won by split decision. I had fought really well and was happy with my performance. Of course I was very disappointed I lost, but my friends distracted me with multiple birthday parties, lots of cake, ice cream, and Taco Bell.

I turned 34 years old.

John told me to get stronger and put on muscle, so I started consistently lifting weights about three days a week.
I also decided to throw myself into jiujitsu gi classes, because I felt I was stronger when I was more into jiujitsu. I promised myself I’d train double classes, which I had always avoided because it made me tired for MMA class. I decided I’d do it anyway and trained till I dropped.

Every time I started getting frustrated in class, I started telling myself that a Jedi doesn’t need emotions. And it works.

My best friend Serena also lost her fight before that, and that was devastating.

In October, I hosted a Halloween party! and became Goku for Costume Sparring at Syndicate.

I moved into a three-bedroom apartment with Serena and Jessy!

I promoted a student for the first time! Preston gets gray white! Despite being challenged with Autism, he always tried so hard at jiujitsu and to be a good person and nice to his classmates!

I tried a jiujitsu tournament, my first in 11 years, and lost both matches. I was devastated. I kept the consolation medal so when I looked at it, I was reminded that emotional pain hurts more than physical pain. I’ll throw it away when I get one that I earn.

In December, two of my students competed in a jiujitsu tournament and they both won all their matches and got first place! I was so happy I cried a lot.

My kids class has gotten so big! 😀

I went to Boston to visit my dad! He told me to retire from MMA and get a better job, but other than that, it was nice. Who listens to their parents anyway? 🙂

It’s a shame people are saying “2016 sucks.” I had plenty of negative things happen to me, but while looking through the pictures, I see all the positive things that happened, plus things I don’t have room to post.

I have goals.

I will put one of these in my closest and throw the other in the trash can. To do that, I must go defeat all the other purple belts at tournaments. I need to improve more and more and prove that I’ve improved. I don’t just want the symbols, I want to get so good at jiujitsu that everybody will know my subs are coming but can’t do anything to stop them. I want people to be like, “Oh she has the back, it’s all over!!!”

I also will restate my New Years resolution: same as last year with one addition. Study Japanese for at least 30 minutes every other day. I kept that one until my fight in September! That’s great, huh? For 9 months I kept that resolution! This time I’m adding 15 minutes of Portuguese every other day. I’ve started doing a language exchange with Thais, Captain’s wife. So if I keep that up twice a week, that’ll keep my resolution covered.

Also, I will fight a lot and win all my MMA fights! Get a knock out. Just to prove I have the ability.

At Syndicate, I found a coach who can teach me striking, a feat impossible before. This year I made up a technique – The Roxycopter! (Serena named it) I found a massage therapist, Teri. I found a jiujitsu coach I commit to, who is also an inspiration because he’s a teacher and fighter, just like me. I think I may have found a physical trainer I can trust. Can he help me fix what I haven’t been able to fix for a decade?

In Syndicate I trust.

And as you can see, people made up so much of what happened to me. I met people, made friends, became closer with friends I already had, was treated well by my sponsors. Thank you to everyone for being a part of my life, whether you be my mother, my roommate, my training partner, my friend, my fan who interacts with me on social media, or the fan who has never contacted me but watches me fight and wishes me well. Thank you for your energy!

new women’s weight divisions in the UFC

Posted in every day, family and holidays, fight, friends on December 14th, 2016 by roxyfighter

Dana White had said there would never be women in the Octagon. Then enter Ronda Rousey. Then the 115 lb division happened. Now he and other men in charge are saying a 125 lb division would deplete 135 and 115. (meaning they are admitting half of those people in those divisions really belong in 125 . yep! But guys, changing weight divisions isn’t like buying a donut or not. It’s years of putting on or losing muscle, having such low body fats our periods stop or our kidneys and livers panic….) Then Mr. White said that the 125 lb div would probably be next. Then they go ahead and make the 145 lb division for Cyborg. What?

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Hey, I get it. It’s a business. I’m a HUGE Dana White fan. I don’t believe “he lies,” as someone people are saying. I think plans just change. He’s a great businessman.

However, the excuse about depletion is….well, not true, I think.

If Dana White or Sean Shelby read this, no offense, I love you, you’re my heroes. 🙂 I do get it. I know it’s only a matter of time!

They found Alexandra Albu who was 5-0 in Poland. She’s hot as hell….I found out about her cuz the guys on the Underground Forum wouldn’t stop posting booty pics of her.

Looking at the UFC website now for lists of female fighters…..

Ericka Almeida I’ve never heard of but she’s 7-2 out of Brazil and seems like a bad-ass.
Izabela Badurek I’ve never heard of. 5-3 after her loss to Badurek.
Anna Elmose is someone I have no idea who she is. Looking at her record, she’s 3-2 which means she was signed at 3-0. She lost to Amanda Bobby Cooper, and before that, to Germaine de Randamine…hang on a second, Germaine fights at 135. So she went down two weight divisions. wtf?

So the point is, there are women people haven’t even heard of, plus more well known fighters that you probably could name off the top of your head. How can the excuse still be used that “there are not enough fighters in XYZ division?”

I’ve been fighting for 13 years. People like to ask me in interviews if I want to fight for the UFC. Guys, I’m signed to Invicta. When you are at your company’s press conference, you don’t say to the board of directors, ‘Yeah I’d rather be at the company next door, but thanks for the paycheck!’
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Of COURSE I want to see the 125lb division come into existence in the UFC.

Sometimes people ask me how I feel about Valerie Letourneau being in the UFC despite me having beaten her in the Ultimate Fighter season 18. I say, good for her. I got to have the public exposure and experience on the show that she didn’t have, so I’m glad she can also have a good career. I did win, though….

It’s too bad a lot of her publicity nowadays is the fact she almost died TWICE to make 115. Good for MMA that that stuff is being brought to light, bad for her. Dude, I met her at a Tuff-N-Uff amateur show in Vegas and we talked. She said that she would refuse to fight at 115 again and wait until they made 125 lbs before she fought. I was kind of excited to hear that. Someone was taking a stand, I thought!!

Then I heard the announcement her fight was set (that she just did) at 115 and I thought, “welp, have fun with that, girl….” And then she missed weight. She doesn’t have Cyborg or Ronda star-power in order to influence the UFC bosses to create a division just for her.

I know decisions are made around money. It’s a business. We are athletes but that is secondary. We have to fit into their schemes and plans. I’m not the one looking at the ratings, the profits, the expenditures. I don’t know all the contract details. Neither do guys, right? So I have my opinions, you have your opinions, but we don’t have all the information.

I’ve got people on my Facebook saying very STRONGLY “Oh obviously there aren’t enough women at 125 so 145 is obviously the best choice.” I wanna be like “Well, everyone is entitled to their opinions EVEN IF THEY ARE WRONG.” I can only name under ten 145 lb fighters off the top of my head, but tons more 125-ers.

I am a little disappointed about the creation of 145 lb division before 125, but I know it’s all a matter of time. I’m sure there is a financial backing for that decision. And hey, I’m not a huge, scary, Brazilian woman who’s one-of-a-kind in the world who has decimated most of her opponents in under a round, so I can’t demand a division be made just for me, right? Nor am I a hot babe like Gina Carano who only has to smile or wink and 1,000 men make gifs of said action. lol

Life isn’t fair and MMA life is a little less fair than normal life.

I totally get it.

I just want to fight. It sucks we fighters can’t control when we fight. We literally have to beg promoters and match makers to put us on the card. But as I said, life isn’t fair.

So, as for me, my Christmas plans are messed up now, but I’m trying to be optimistic about the holidays and about next year. My mom is a fan of the phrase “It was meant to be” or “Everything always works out.” I hate those phrases. They are very passive. I hate being passive in life. I believe in taking action to make things happen. As long as you don’t DIE, you continue with your life and do the best you can and try and find positive things, so therefore “everything works out” means that “other stuff happens that might also be good.”

I’m going to Boston to visit my dad. I’ll miss seeing the rest of the family, but wait, I gotta focus on the positive. My dad. I hardly get to see him throughout the year. I guess that’s it….

I haven’t lifted weights since I pulled my bicep muscle and shoulder, but I’ve still been driving myself through double-duty classes of gi jiujitsu and MMA. It’s better now but climbing ropes still gives me bicep cramps and I am bummed out because I wanted to work hard at that because Captain said so. ~_~; I’m improving my striking with every private lesson John gives me, and learning stuff in jiujitsu every day. I’m aiming for a jiujitsu tournament early next year. I’m really enjoying doing so much jiujitsu since it’s my favorite part of martial arts.
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I am keeping my weight down and my cardio up because I still don’t know when I’m fighting.

I had sushi with Jamie yesterday. It was a nice celebration for her UFC win, and nice to chat and catch up! Thanks, Jamie.
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Serena is gone for three weeks visiting her family. I miss her. :< [edit] I just realized I ended this entry on a negative note. That is unacceptable for The Happy Warrior. Let's see...I have a private lesson of striking with John, then a massage with Teri, who is magical, and the my kids classes! aaaah my kids!! im-so-excited

It’ll be a good day.