Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

about training last week, anime& TV, MMA nightmare , good coaches

Posted in dream, every day, fight, friends on May 23rd, 2016 by roxyfighter

(I didn’t feel super inspired to write about anything at the moment, but then I started and stuff appeared on the page.)

I had a super week. Training was painful due to shoulder muscle pain, and I think I sprained my left forearm/elbow overusing it with gi and mitts AND team practice on Monday. But I really get a lot out of training with Casey, and then John’s padwork is the best, and then team was fun.
johns mitt group

Over the course of the week I just bore with it and it feels somewhat better now. Then my hip flexor on my right side tightened up so much I was limping but I got a massage by Magical Masseuse Teri yesterday and it’s completely gone. Wow.

I feel really really motivated to work on my gi jiu-jitsu game, as I’ve been talking about lately, but actually, as an MMA fighter, it makes me develop bad habits. But I’m kind of allowing myself to get back into it at the moment. In addition to doing more gi classes, I’m getting Casey to teach me gi chokes little by little, increasing my repertoire.
casey and roxy in gi

And Vinny is making an effort to watch me roll and correct my technique. I’m so happy!
I'm so excited

On Wednesday, John and I were supposed to do padwork but he ended up answering a question about wrestling and various things off the cage, and that became a whole 30 minute lesson. However, it was just what I needed and eliminated a major problem I’ve been having. I succeeded in doing it some on Thursday and some on Saturday. 😀

I’ve been watching the anime World Trigger and am currently on ep 58. I’ve been in the mood for a darker anime, moreso than World Trigger, so I decided to rewatch Claymore. Half-human half-monster women work for an organization going around killing Yoma (monsters), by using their half-monster powers, but if they use too much of it, they turn into the monsters themselves, so they have to be careful.
I now know of a website that has translated manga, and I know the manga continues even after the anime stops, so I’m excited about continuing the Claymore series! I tried to do it in Japan by going to a manga cafe, but my Japanese wasn’t good enough to fully understand everything and it turned into a giant kanji study session, which I enjoyed, but I never progressed in the series because I wanted to look up and note down every word I didn’t know. lol Which is why I can’t read manga in Japanese.

I’m on Ushio and Tora ep 34 and just found out Tora’s back story which is kind of epic! To think, I knew nothing of this for 15 years, which is how long I’ve known about the series.
ushio and tora pic

I’m on Arrow season 4 ep 19 right now. I’m behind in the Flash. Maybe ep 15 season 2.

It was weird there was no UFC this weekend! haha so I ended up laying down and watching anime all evening Saturday and Sunday alone. I really need to that to mentally relax. If I’m running around everywhere, I get burned out easier. I was invited to a movie last night but I declined, feeling kind of unusually anti-social and needing to be alone. I watched Robocop instead. Don’t judge me. x_x And fell asleep at 9:30 on the sofa, moved to the bed at 10 PM. Up at 4:30 Am this morning thinking, WEEEE MONDAY! I love Mondays.

Saturday was fun! Hannah and Serena came to gi jiu-jitsu with me!
roxy serena hannah gi

People keep asking me when I’m fighting and I don’t know so I had a stress dream about it two days ago because I went to bed thinking about my weight. After training, which is lightest, 139lbs. Before bed (which is heaviest) 143. That’s fine, I can diet down to 135 in a month. (I cut 9-10 lbs of water) And it’s lower than when I started dieting for my last fight. But if I don’t have a fight set up, I always go up in weight because I think, “yeah I don’t have to resist that ice cream” or nachos or “time for recovery tostada!” etc x_x

I hated that I remembered this dream, but I figured it’d be interesting to other people, so I ended up writing it down. Hannah, my roommate, came and gave me a hug that morning so that was super nice. 🙂

It was a horrible Alice in Wonderland-style absurd nightmare. So I dreamed I got the title shot in Invicta and Julie K. texted me to say that and “Yes, and weigh-ins are today.” I was like WHAT?! I just had lunch. Hadn’t been cutting salt or anything. I was with Julie Luey, Serena , and Rob. “It’s in the Laox on the river.” what’s that?! There was a floating city/boat with buildings and clubs like Las Vegas, I was like, “We gotta get there!” but a boat to take us there would be hours, so we jumped in the water with our clothes on and sexy life-guards grabbed our legs and carried us to the other side. That was their job. (weird) I tried to call coach John and the signal didn’t go through. started running around asking everyone where a drug store was so I could buy Epsom salt, but nobody spoke normally! They were like “Hey! Party! yay! Dude!” It was like being in Vegas/a big shopping mall.NOBODY would tell me how to get anywhere. Serena was like “Hey lets split up and look for a drug store.” I got lost running around the stores, couldn’t find my friends, was screaming to everyone “WHERE CAN I GET EPSOM SALT! HOW DO I GET OFF THIS ISLAND?!” and then realized I didn’t even have my weigh-in costume and there was no way I was going to make weight.

I finally walked in on a college director board room meeting?!? but they were laughing and crazy like the Mad Hatter, and they had brown salt scattered all over their table. One guy was like “Here is Epsom salt, here you can have it!” (wtf?) When I gathered it into bags, he was like “$24!” I had a 20 in my pocket so I gave it to him and ran out as fast as I could. So stressed out I wanted to cry in my dream. I didn’t know where I was or where weigh ins were or where the hotel room was that I could cut weight. I would miss weight! I’ve never ever missed weight! They wouldn’t let me fight for a title! I finally got a text from John saying “Weigh ins are over already. The title shot is off. I’m worried about the state of the division. Maybe Invicta will drop it.” and I just knew I was cut. I FINALLY WOKE the hell up, wishing I had never tried to go back to sleep after I woke up with a stiff neck at 2 AM. I need a hug. ;_; I usually don’t have bad dreams, thank goodness for that… I had hoped I would forget this dream if I didn’t write it, but doesn’t look like it. So there ya go. A fighter’s nightmare.

Hellsing Ultimate anime, World Series of Fighting

Posted in amusing, dream, fight, friends, fun, training, work on June 23rd, 2014 by roxyfighter

On Thursday, I had an excellent sparring session, and worked through my pulled muscle. Pretty happy. Friday, it was killing me, so I did jiu-jitsu technique only, and then went to World Series of Fighting Weigh-ins to support my Japanese friends. My teammates Adam and AJ were fighting, too!

That took all afternoon, and I made it home in time to chill out and watch a marathon of Hellsing Ultimate.

hellsing manga image
That’s my new anime obsession, since I finished the Arrancar Saga of Bleach at 309. *_* Hellsing Ultimate is the OVA of the original 25 ep Hellsing series that I watched as a high school student in 2001. It seems darker. Alcuard, the anti-hero, seems more evil, and Anderson and everyone just seems more insane in general.

crazy anderson
I think if I had just started watching it for the first time, I wouldn’t be able to stomach the blood and guts, but I already like the series. I kind of look away if someone is getting sliced up. Which is all the time. x_x But it’s slowly getting to my subconscious. That’s what happened when I watched Attack on Titan. By the 20th episode, I was ready for the series to be over, but dying to know what happened, so I deprioritized all of my chores and marathon-ed the episodes. I seriously felt down and depressed for those last two days, though. -_-;;

Anyway, I’m on my 5th ep of Ultimate, and there are nine 45- minute episodes. I can do it!! 😀

And her boobs are too big. *sigh* oh fan service. -_-;;
I mean, look, she can’t even hold a gun properly in front of her without ‘the girls’ getting in the way!! 😀


so on Saturday, I trained pretty hard and then went to World Series of Fighting.

There’s the story of the sponsorship tickets. Emi Fujino got a last minute sponsorship, but the banner was already made, so the sponsor dropped off stickers at the hotel bell desk to stick on her banner. They were accepted at 10:30AM, tagged, and put on a shelf in the back. I arrived at 4 and tried to pick them up, but the bellhop couldn’t find them.

Um, what?

After 10 minutes of searching with me helping, he said the only thing I could do was file a security report and check cameras over the period of time to see if they fell off. I went to do that, but the security person sent me back to the bell desk. Dude, the fight was in like TWO HOURS! There’s no way! It was like 4:45 now. So I was listening to the security officer arguing with the bellhop (who was trying so hard to help) and my eyes fell on a trash can.

“Of course, someone probably just threw them away,” I thought, and started fishing through the trash. I pulled out food adds and magazines and coffee filters and icky stuff and THERE THEY WERE. I FOUND THEM. IN THE TRASH. Those were worth money, man! GO ME!!! XD

I bet they had fallen off the shelf (since they were paper) and someone thought “oh, paper trash” and tossed them. (but…there were…belldesk tickets…on them….)
emi fujino after fight group2
Emi Fujino fought a hard fight, but Jessica came out on top. Congratulations to both warriors.
AJ won by head kick, and Adam lost by knee. :/ Adam is such a beast, though. Power, speed, agility, skill. If he’s like Goku, then the other guy must be like Freeza.

Sunday, I was SO tired. More than usual. I went to the sports gym and did the elliptical machine, trying to get my heart rate up. Then I was going to go to Yoga. I decided to skip Yoga and just go home. I took a nap. Then watched Hellsing. Then took another nap and dreamed of vampires. lol Then woke up, rolled over, and took a THIRD NAP. Which is unheard of, since I only nap when I’m sick. And I mean, like fall into REM sleep, not just nod off (which I do all the time, aka Roxalepcy)

I took two SOCK OFF supplements and don’t feel too bad this morning. 🙂 I’m gonna train and then Buri-chan IS COMING! Brittany, one of my my best friends from Japan!!!! 😀 YAY SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!

crazy travel dream with Heather and carry-on bears

Posted in amusing, dream on January 10th, 2014 by roxyfighter

I had this dream that I was taking some trip with Heather to a far away place. Japan?

And we had to take plane, but there was some construction around the airport, so we were having trouble going in the correct entrance to find our gate. We couldn’t get into the airport!

We walked and walked with our luggage, and finally asked this guy in a police suit, who told us to go down this path, and turn right into this building. Then we’d find a car that would take us faster to the next entrance. We passed all these other travelers piling into cars and busses and trucks that would take them to their gate without missing their flight. It reminded me of some evacuation scene.

I’m like “Hurry up heather! We only have twenty minutes!” She was all smiles and cheerful, not stressed out at all. “This way, right?” So we go the way he said, but it was like into this abandoned warehouse. I’m like, “I don’t think this is right” but she said, ‘I’m sure it’s fine.” 😀

We passed this arcade and ran into my friend from California Rudy (Whoa, Rudy cameo) who wanted to play DDR. I said, “We don’t have time!” so we left him there trying to play. LOL

I told Heather we should go back, but she didn’t want to, so I followed her. We still had 20 minutes. We continued on and came to this scary looking basement room with broken machines and toys. It was dark, so she went over to slideing glass doors and pulled back this curtain to let in some light. It was dusty and dirty, as if it were abandoned 20 years ago. Suddenly this male-elf doll came to life and started trying to play pranks on us, and this life-size teddy bear also. Then this monster freezer started talking to us. But then Heather captured the elf, and then let it go so it started being nice. I was friendly to the bear, so it started to like us. They promised to tell us the way to the airport, if we’d take them along because we are now all friends. XD

hahahaha @my subconscious for creating this scenario.

So Heather said, “Sure, we’ll take you in our carry-ons!”
I protested, “Heather, I want to take them, too, but it’s alife-size BEAR. How am I going to carry him on?!” She said, “Get a garbage bag! :”D

So we started looking for a garbage bag. I got a big black one, put it over the brown bear’s head… looked at it….was like “It’s freaking huge, I can’t carry him!” and then I woke up.

😀 😀 😀

My dreams are really easy to understand. I want to travel to Japan with Heather (we’ve discussed this, and it’s impossible) and last night I was watching Naruto while holding onto my large stuffed brown bear from childhood. 😛

Crazy dream: aliens, bears, pancakes!

Posted in amusing, dream on December 14th, 2013 by roxyfighter

I had a dream with three parts.

First, I went home to visit my Dad and step-mother. We went out to a Japanese restaurant, but I had to use the bathroom just as the food came. Someone needed help on my way back, so I was trying to help them quickly (they were lost, or something). When I got back, Dad and Marion were almost done eating, and I wasn’t, and then the waitress started taking my food. I was like, “Noooo, stop taking it! I haven’t had good Japanese food in forever!” and I was sad.

Then as we were leaving, chaos erupted.

Tyler, Heather, Jordan, and other Syndicate/ MMA related people I didn’t see but sensed, had to fight off… invaders. I think it’s cuz I watched Man of Steel (Superman), because they had like black metal battle suits and were chasing us with guns. They were bouncing around the building and flying, so obviously not human. Some of us got killed. Tyler got shot! and we were all like NOOOOOOOOOOOOO but then this other guy (Ben, who is Bootsy’s friend) saved him because he had powers, and it took the bullet out and closed the wound) lol Random. We were running around this old school, which turned into a house. We couldn’t defeat these guys- they were just too strong, so we were running. And then the bad guys were like, “Let out the BEARS!” so these huge freaking black bears started chasing us. o_O

Then suddenly……!!! Miesha Tate, Bryan Caraway, Team Tate’s assistant coaches (Jack, Shaine, and Ricky) plus John Wood burst onto the scene and chased away all the bears and invaders with guns blazing. XD We were like “YAAAAY, WE ARE SAVED!” My heroes, right? XD

Part 3 of my dream. Miesha said, “Yeah!! Now let’s relax and cook breakfast!” so we all gathered in the kitchen and tried to cook pancakes, but the burners weren’t working. Although the gas flame was on, it wasn’t hot at all. My Mom wandered in, tried to show me and wandered out. So we spent like five dream minutes puzzled and confused as to why the flame wasn’t working. Miesha was like, “Yeah, I can’t get mine to cook! what the heck! No pancakes for us?!”


LOL Everything in my dream is a symbol. Pretty obvious ones, at that. I always visit my Dad and Marion for Christmas, I miss Japan, those coaches are my heroes, fighting, frustrating cooking with my mom around…. hahah!

my crazy dream about ice cream lol

Posted in amusing, dream on November 15th, 2013 by roxyfighter

So I dreamed that I finished training and showering and was looking for something to do. I lived in the woods in the mountains, much like my home in high school in Lenox, MA. I hopped on my bicycle and rode down a hill. Man, I wanted ice cream. I came upon this log cabin-tavern with cars parked around, so I went in.

It was like a cafe-diner, with wooden tables, and all kinds of people sitting around them. There were bookshelves everywhere. Like a manga-cafe, in Japan. (Manga cafes are places like libraries of comic books and computer cubical, so customers can sit and surf the net and read comic books)

This nice middle-aged guy with a red-brown beard smiled widely at me and offered me a place to sit on the edge of this bench, in like a booth with a family of mother, father, and like 5 kids. I was like, “Um…..”
because although it seemed to be the type of restaurant where customers share tables, there wasn’t much room at this one, and it was awkward. Plus, I hadn’t even seen the menu. I wanted to look. I saw a diagram of ICE CREAM!!! 😀 What KINDS WERE THERE?!?

So he went away, and as I stood up, the mother of the table gave me the evil eye and scooted over to where I just was, preventing me from sitting back down. yeah, it’s okay. I wouldn’t want some strange lady sitting with me and my kids randomly.

I wanted the vanila ice cream with caramel sauce on top of the waffle!! 😀
The owner came over to me and said, “Don’t you want to sit down?” I replied, “Well, there’s really no room at that table, so I thought I’d find another place….”
“Oh, I’m so sorry,” he said. “Here, let me reserve you this special booth for customers staying and reading. No extra charge! It’s on the house. So why don’t you order and then go pick out a few books?” So I did both. 😀 Yay! But I knew I wasn’t going to be able to read a whole novel, so I grabbed a few philosophy books, thinking I could pick up a few wise sayings.

A long portion of my dream involved me exploring the upstairs of this cabin, which was more like a 1800’s style house’s bedroom, refitted to look like a library.

I got my books and went back downstairs for my ice cream….and then woke up.

Without the ice cream.

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UNFORGIVABLE.

I woke up at 1:55. Hungry. I rolled over and tried to go back to sleep. My stomach went “grrrrrrrr.”
I said, “Shut up, you.” *Roll over*
Stomach: grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

;_; *cry* I drank water, but it wouldn’t shut up. I ended up getting up at 3 AM for breakfast. *sigh* But I freaking HAD my Blue Bunny frozen yogurt yesterday, so it’s not like I was unsatisfied! Maybe it was my mom asking me “can I have some of your frozen yogurt?” right before I went to bed. It got stuck in my brain and I had a dream.

Or maybe I’m just obsessed with ice cream. What do you guys think?