Roxanne Modafferi

The Happy Warrior

Japan trip: Friday-Sunday (UFC Japan, friends, training)

Posted in cultural, family and holidays, fun on October 3rd, 2017 by roxyfighter

My trip to Japan was awesome and very fulfilling.

I left early Thursday morning and arrived Friday afternoon in Haneda. I’m always going to fly into Haneda instead of Narita from now on. I had heard it was closer, but dude! FIFTEEN MINUTES BY local TRAIN, as opposed to two hour and $34 by express train. I think tickets to Narita had always been cheaper so I went with cheaper, but for that amount of convenience and ease, I’m always going with Haneda, no matter what the cost.

I landed at 1:15 PM and got into Kawasaki around 2:15ish. I checked into my hotel and my friend and former training partner Goto-san met me there. We chatted a bit, and then went shopping to Lazona’s Daiso shop. On the way, I ate the best Taco Yaki IN MY LIFE. Mentaiko cheese flavor. maaaaan. My body was tired and it felt late, but I went to bed around 6:30 PM, exhausted. Of course I woke up around 1 AM, but went back to sleep for another hour! Then woke up, ate breakfast, took a walk, but couldn’t fall back to sleep like I often do. Oh well. I figured out that I could actually stream Netflix on my phone using the pocket wifi that I bought (BEST INVENTION EVER!), so I watched an episode of The 100. Seasons 2 and 3 have really been stressing me out. x_x Anyone could die at any minute and I’ve come to care about the characters.

Anyway, I met my friend Tsuru-chan at 7 AM at Kawasaki station and we went to Saitama Super Arena together to watch UFC Japan! It was being broadcast Friday night in America, so that means the event had to be held Saturday morning in Japan because of the time difference.

Oh man, it was such a good card! Most of the fights were so exciting. I was super impressed with Claudia and Jessica. I was surprised K-Taro won a decision, actually, but really happy for him. He wasn’t really aggressive. Okami was a samurai and fought last minute two weight classes above, but did a crappy takedown and got Von Flu choked out in the first round. x_x Yashabo won. Yay. Tsuru-chan and I were near where they walked out, so that was cool.

I went straight to Groundslam after the event, but afternoon pro practice had already ended, so I stretched out with Nori-p and a few others, and then went home. Later that evening, I met Kunioku-san, my former striking coach, in Yokohama and we ate Yaki niku together. It’s always fun chatting with him.

and Yaki niku!

Sunday was great. I ate and then went to morning class at Groundslam. Kimura-san was teaching. There were quite a few people there! I was impressed! I got a nice workout in!

After that, I showered and took the train an hour to Sagami-oono, which I haven’t visted since I went for the purpose of playing Dance Dance Revolution like ten years ago when that was the closest machine I knew. haha. There, I met my friend Midori, who was a former Berlitz English student who I made friends with. Then we met up with her husband and two kids who had become teenagers! wow. Together, we went to a city fair and watched her youngest daughter, who is four years old, do an English song and dance performance put on by her English school. It was so nice to spend time with Midori! She had been pregnant with her youngest when I left four years ago.

Then, I took the train to Atsugi city, which was kind of nearby, and walked around my old home! I love Atsugi and lived there for four years before I moved to Kawasaki. So my favorite sembei shop had gone out of business so I was sad. And my favorite bakery didn’t have the crunchy mentaiko pan I LOVE SO MUCH AND OMG two years ago when I went, I didn’t get to have it either, and last year I didn’t have time to go to Atsugi, so I’m pretty bent out of shape that they ran out and I didn’t get any. *huff*

I had really good taiyaki, though.

I went back to Kawasaki and had tea after dinner with Goto-san! He gave me models of two statues for my birthday, which was this day. It was great to chat with him and have tea like we used to frequently!!

Monday I went to Groundslam morning pro practice. Kunioku-san asked me to do warmups with him. We did like two five minute rounds of takedown uchikomis, and then I just held on and we did a round of grappling. LOL Then we put on gloves and did MMA. It was so cool! I was honored that he wanted to train with me. He kept taking me down. Effortlessly. haha it’s cool that despite me getting better, some things never change. I also sparred with Uno-san, Tokoro-san, and Shinashi Satoko san, who had started going to Groundslam lately. I had so much fun! I didn’t go killer speed with anybody and didn’t get hurt. That’s pretty much what I wanted!

Dude, Shinashi is such a veteran! Her record is 36 and 3. THIRTY NINE FIGHTS!!!! (I’ve had 38 but my record ain’t as good as that!) I was watching her fight around the time I had my debut fight in Japan!

I was actually so excited and psyched to be able to roll with her! Her grappling is slick!

It’s such an honor to train with Uno-san! He fought in first UFC I ever watched when I was 18.

Then I went to Shinagawa and met Karla, my former co-worker, for lunch. It was so great to catch up with her! She has since advanced her position and of course tried to get me to return to the company. Haha I really REALLY loved working at Berlitz. But that time has passed… Thanks for the presents! She gave me a minion hat and the hilarious thing is that I’ll probably end up wearing that out at some point…. hah!

“Don’t worry about anything during training,” Q-chan, TV shows, languages

Posted in every day, family and holidays, fight, friends, fun, training on July 1st, 2017 by roxyfighter

It’s been a good week. A hard week. “Sometimes you have to have a rough one to have a good one,” Donny, my training partner told me one day, when I was looking like hell after training.

It felt like in the previous week, every technique I tried to do, I failed to do. I know that when I first learn something, many times I can’t do it live that day. I have to practice it and drill it first to master it. But man, I was counting and I felt I couldn’t do anything I wanted! But I know I know, it’s just part of training. I just have to battle my emotions, relax, and just look forward to the next time I get to try stuff.

Diego, Captain’s black belt friend, actually took me aside (because his wife Luciana probably told him I’d been crying in the girls’ changing room -_- …snitch!) and said to me, “Don’t worry about anything during training. It’s your attitude and feelings that make good training. If you feel happy and good, you have good training.” He explained further, and I can’t remember the direct quotes, that I (Roxanne) train every day and there are other things involved, like my tiredness level or the strength of a bigger man as my partner. I told him that was upset me was when I forget the techniques I was taught. I hate when I forget what I should know! And then he repeated, “We all forget! Don’t worry about anything during training.”

That kind of made an impression on me. I feel like I know this, but it was nice to hear it again from someone other than my inner voice, you know? And it makes sense. I try and follow my own Jedi-like code : “There is no emotion, there is peace.” Emotions are not needed during a fight, or training. Once I start getting frustrated or upset, it inhibits further technique and training.

Thursday I repeated that to myself to try and calm myself down when I was having a rough session.
Wednesday, John, Jordan, and Rich helped shark-tank me.

The week before that, Jordan and Serena helped me out, and Captain jumped in when John couldn’t make it. That was sweet… I didn’t even ask him! I was in the middle of going as hard as I could and I started to hear his voice.

I’ve been doing lots of double sessions back to back lately. My weight loss has been stagnating, but if I don’t eat, I’m tired and don’t recover as well. It’s a balance! A hard one. Well, I only have two pounds to lose before I reach where I want to be.

And I was stress-eating during Serena’s fight week. LOL Our friend’s suffering becomes our suffering a little bit. I don’t think I’ve ever eaten two donuts in one sitting. haha New experiences all around….

So her family left and that was sad, but then my friend Q from college came to visit from the Boston area! It was great! She went sight-seeing on the Vegas strip when I had to train, and then we hung out together during other times. We saw a comedy show, and I was excited that Mike Hammer, the comedian, knew who I was! πŸ˜€ He saw me in the audience.

We also saw Cirque Du Soleil’s Ka, which I’ve been wanting to see for years! Thanks, Michael, for buying our tickets! <3 I took Q on the Red Rock driving trail.

We did jiujitsu together. We watched four eps of Attack on Titan season 2, and four of Sword Art Online. πŸ˜€ We ate at Skinnyfats and El Pollo Loco, my favorite restaurants, and JaBurritos, the sushi burrito place.

I have missed her, but at the same time, we talk every week so it felt natural. It was so good to show her my life and stuff I love! <3 <3 Man, time has been passing so quickly. Last week Q was here?! This past week was training as normal and it was fantastic. From Monday on, I was hitting all the moves I couldn't do last week. I kept being able to do the moves of the day. I did the back-take I couldn't do last week. I've been choking people out with my new set-up! My striking technique has been on point. I've been hitting the new wall-takedown technique. And my kid students have been impressing me. HAH Hell yeah!
Serena is back in training!

My cardio level is back to excellent! Serena ran stairs with me this week.


I adore Team Syndicate so much! Best coaches, best training partners!!

I actually ran myself into the ground Thursday, and nearly passed out. So I rescheduled my strength and conditioning with Lorenzo for Saturday instead of Friday. πŸ™ Later that day, after I fnished teaching kids, Captain said, “You had a good day of training!” I said, “What? But I didn’t train!” He said, “I know! Rest is training.”

feh. A fighter gets pressure to train their butts off, and then when said butt falls off, we get flack for not resting enough! We can’t win!! “Listen to your body!” Oh please, if I listened to my body, I wouldn’t be a fighter! haha

I’m ready for my next fight, whenever that may be! I wish I knew!! Gotta be ready!

So normally I have almost zero waking hours to lay down, but Thursday and Friday I had some time, so I watched My Hero Academia and Transformers Prime. Man, I really like Todoroki’s character!
I’m on Season 1 ep 22 of the Transformers now. I had heard that after Beast Wars (which I watched as a teenager), the target age group got lowered, but Prime feels serious enough for me to be interested in it. Optimus is so cool. *_* I love strong leaders with strong morals. I think he’s my favorite, but I also like Rachet’s logical character. Miko annoys the snot out of me! πŸ™ stupid kid!

I adore the music and just bought the back ground music cd! I rarely buy CDs so you know it’s good. πŸ™‚

Due to my exhaustion, I’ve only been studying Portuguese once a week with Thais instead of two. :/ I’ve been slacking a little on my Japanese, as well. I did a translation project listening to Japanese fighter’s interviews, which was awesome! That’s done now, though…
Speaking of Portuguese, the prodigy Brazilian BJJ kids started going to another gym where there were more teenagers their size and level. I’m sad! oh well. I wish a Japanese person would join the gym. haha.

my visit to NY and NJ to visit family!

Posted in family and holidays on February 28th, 2017 by roxyfighter

I took a trip from Thursday to Sunday to visit my other half of the family! YAY!

As some may recall, I made this big plan for Christmas to see my Dad, Mom, Aunts, Uncles, and cousins. Then I thought I would be fighting in Invicta in January so I canceled half the trip and only saw my dad so I could have enough time to train. I was gonna see my mom, too, but she FORBID me to come, stating that it was because she was worried about me driving in the a potential blizzard that never actually happened… and I think that was the most hurtful fight I’ve ever had with her in my life….

Just saying, Mom.
I would drive through a billion ice storms to see youuuuu! But then I’m a bad daughter if I worry my mother sick, right? I already worry her enough with my profession…gah!

I had fun visiting my dad and then found out I was NOT offered any fights January, so it was kind of all for nothing…

So that was an emotional time…

A fighter never REALLY knows when they’re going to fight. Some in the big leagues get fights set months in advance so they can plan around it, but also there are last minute offers to consider. My fight wasn’t being set and I really wanted to visit my mommmmmmmmmm and relatives! So I decided, screw it, and booked a trip two weeks from then (when I decided), which was last week!

It was a wonderful whirlwind and went according to plan!
“A perfect plan isn’t something where things happen perfectly. A perfect plan has the flexibility to change if need be.” ~Makishima Shogo, Psycho-pass

The plane from Denver to Newark was delayed two hours because of snow (HAHAH IRONY! grrr!).

I arrived, rented a car from Enterprise (I love them), drove to my Aunt Connie’s house! Saw my cousins and their toddler! He can talk now! That’s what happens when you visit once a year. haha

Stayed up late chatting with my cousin Joe-Joe to wait for my Aunt and Uncle to get home. I remember playing with him when he was baby, and now we talk about weight-training, fighting, and teaching together! haha! Then I chatted with my aunt until midnight.

Woke up Friday and Cousin Alison and her baby came over.

We all had breakfast and then I drove north to a small city in update NY where I saw my aunt, my mom’s older sister! I chat with her on the phone sometimes, but it was nice to sit down and chat. We met up with my Uncle for dinner and it was really nice. πŸ™‚

Saturday morning I woke up super early and drove to see my MOM!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
I can’t even express enough how happy I was.

I had lunch with my uncle, my mom’s brother! I have been wanting to meet him for an entire year now because he’s been ill, and when I went to the east coast last time, he was away from treatment. So I’m thankful he still here for me to see!! I took him out for Chinese food! I love talking to him! He’s so interesting. So creative. Then went back and hung out with mom and I took her out for Chinese food….at the same place. HAHAH I didn’t know my Uncle had wanted to go there before I made plans with my mom! lol oh well! *shrug* I like Chinese food. I would have liked to spend more time with my uncle, but I had so little time with my mom….I had like 24 hours in each place I visited. :/

I watched the X-files with my mom! That was an unexpected pleasure! We used to watch consistently all the seasons except the last one when I was in high school!!

Sunday afternoon I drove to the Albany airport and flew out in the evening. I got back to Vegas at like 11 PM Sunday, and woke up Monday ready to train!

I did my burpie set Monday morning and found my fitness hasn’t really gone down too much. I had been in great shape before I left. I probably gained a pound but whatever. I had been doing one-legged squats and other things my trainer Lorenzo taught me, plus stuff with the exercise band I brought with me.

I really liked this trip. I only missed teaching one kids class on Friday, and two MMA sessions (Thursday and Saturday). But it’s expensive for me to fly to the east coast twice in succession like this. :/

I wanna get rich so I can visit my family more and help my family.

Some of my teammates have been sick, and I got a sore throat but it went away without me coming down with anything. I have Herbal Papaya to thank…. I’ve never gotten sick while taking these capsules! They really do boost my immune system! I really recommend people checking them out on herbalpapaya.com

My 2016 in pictures

Posted in every day, family and holidays, fight, friends, fun, moving, training on January 1st, 2017 by roxyfighter

In February, I did an MMA seminar at KSA in Tennessee!

Kerry and Emma visited for a few weeks from England to train! <3

I was invited to watch The Ultimate Fighter Season 23 elimination fights, where Jamie, Khalil, and Cory made it into the house. I got a nicer picture with Dana than I had before (when I had a huge black eye), and I took a pic of the camera crew interviewing Coach John because he’s awesome. I actually got in trouble for taking this cuz somebody noticed. They told me to delete it but I didn’t. lol Hey, I didn’t take a picture of any of the actual fights!!

In March. My kids class is growing, from three kids to a small group!

I started getting treated by Teri, the most fantastic massage therapist I’ve ever met, and she made my pain go away! My training and life improved so much!

Also in March, Invicta 16 happened and I got to become Mileena!


I got to meet my good friend Patrick, who I’ve known online for years but had never met before!


I won!
My friends dressed up and it was incredibly epic.

I won!

In April I got to see my Aunt Mary and Uncle Steve, then I went to my baby cousin’s baby shower with my Dad and Marion, so I got to see all of my family except my Uncle Fran! πŸ˜€ I even got to train with my old training partner/coach Dave and see Kirik!

In April, Serena won her Tuff-N-Uff fight!

At the end of April, Mom, who I’d been living with for almost three years, moved to New York, and I moved in with Hannah.

I decided to start doing more gi. I got a beautiful black gi from Dragon do.

I started asking Casey for private lessons in the gi. He’s an incredibly excellent teacher. I’ve grown because of him.

My friend Brittany visited Vegas from Japan and stayed with me. I dressed up as Rey from Star Wars for John’s son Maverick’s birthday party.

I finished Naruto!

I settle into my role as sole teacher of the 4-7 year old kids jiujitsu class and made it 5-7. I also took over Chris’ position helping Coach Rick teach the older kid’s jiujitsu class in addition to my younger class.

Aussie Jessy Jess Clark (purple hair) came to Syndicate and decided to join!

Hannah left me for a man and moved out, so Jessy moved in to the empty room. lol !

I came to realize that Captain is my favorite jiujitsu teacher of all time, and I want to be his disciple, kind of like the BJJ version of John. <3

I’ve tried to make more of an effort to spend time with my female training partner friends.

I fought in Invicta 19 for the title against Jennifer Maia. I got to be She-ra, the Princess of Power (and rocked it, if I do say so), and John got to be He-man. But he’s always been He-man to me. ^_^

And it was a war.


She won by split decision. I had fought really well and was happy with my performance. Of course I was very disappointed I lost, but my friends distracted me with multiple birthday parties, lots of cake, ice cream, and Taco Bell.

I turned 34 years old.

John told me to get stronger and put on muscle, so I started consistently lifting weights about three days a week.
I also decided to throw myself into jiujitsu gi classes, because I felt I was stronger when I was more into jiujitsu. I promised myself I’d train double classes, which I had always avoided because it made me tired for MMA class. I decided I’d do it anyway and trained till I dropped.

Every time I started getting frustrated in class, I started telling myself that a Jedi doesn’t need emotions. And it works.

My best friend Serena also lost her fight before that, and that was devastating.

In October, I hosted a Halloween party! and became Goku for Costume Sparring at Syndicate.

I moved into a three-bedroom apartment with Serena and Jessy!

I promoted a student for the first time! Preston gets gray white! Despite being challenged with Autism, he always tried so hard at jiujitsu and to be a good person and nice to his classmates!

I tried a jiujitsu tournament, my first in 11 years, and lost both matches. I was devastated. I kept the consolation medal so when I looked at it, I was reminded that emotional pain hurts more than physical pain. I’ll throw it away when I get one that I earn.

In December, two of my students competed in a jiujitsu tournament and they both won all their matches and got first place! I was so happy I cried a lot.

My kids class has gotten so big! πŸ˜€

I went to Boston to visit my dad! He told me to retire from MMA and get a better job, but other than that, it was nice. Who listens to their parents anyway? πŸ™‚

It’s a shame people are saying “2016 sucks.” I had plenty of negative things happen to me, but while looking through the pictures, I see all the positive things that happened, plus things I don’t have room to post.

I have goals.

I will put one of these in my closest and throw the other in the trash can. To do that, I must go defeat all the other purple belts at tournaments. I need to improve more and more and prove that I’ve improved. I don’t just want the symbols, I want to get so good at jiujitsu that everybody will know my subs are coming but can’t do anything to stop them. I want people to be like, “Oh she has the back, it’s all over!!!”

I also will restate my New Years resolution: same as last year with one addition. Study Japanese for at least 30 minutes every other day. I kept that one until my fight in September! That’s great, huh? For 9 months I kept that resolution! This time I’m adding 15 minutes of Portuguese every other day. I’ve started doing a language exchange with Thais, Captain’s wife. So if I keep that up twice a week, that’ll keep my resolution covered.

Also, I will fight a lot and win all my MMA fights! Get a knock out. Just to prove I have the ability.

At Syndicate, I found a coach who can teach me striking, a feat impossible before. This year I made up a technique – The Roxycopter! (Serena named it) I found a massage therapist, Teri. I found a jiujitsu coach I commit to, who is also an inspiration because he’s a teacher and fighter, just like me. I think I may have found a physical trainer I can trust. Can he help me fix what I haven’t been able to fix for a decade?

In Syndicate I trust.

And as you can see, people made up so much of what happened to me. I met people, made friends, became closer with friends I already had, was treated well by my sponsors. Thank you to everyone for being a part of my life, whether you be my mother, my roommate, my training partner, my friend, my fan who interacts with me on social media, or the fan who has never contacted me but watches me fight and wishes me well. Thank you for your energy!

My Christmas vacation trip

Posted in family and holidays on December 28th, 2016 by roxyfighter

I had a nice Christmas vacation.

I went to Boston from Friday to Tuesday morning. I trained not a bit other than taking two walks, jumping jacks, squats, and push ups. I ate A LOT. And it was great.

Throughout the year, I don’t talk to my dad as much as my mom because he’s so busy at work, so it was great to get to spend time with him. However, the first day I was there, he gave me the anticipated speech about how he wants me to stop fighting and consider another line of work. However, this time, it was way more forceful and kind of bummed me out for most of my trip. I’m prepared for my parents’ disapproval…. what parent REALLY wants their kid to fight for a living? But kids also desire their parents approval in general, and it sucks I can’t get mine.

Hey, if I were flat broke and I came to him, “Dad, can I borrow five thousand dollars to hold me over to my next fight?” then that is a different story. If I were him, I’d tell me, “No, dear, you need to take responsibility by making do with a more well-paying part-time job, or get a full-time job and train at night.” But I’m NOT doing that.

Of course I want a family and kids SOME DAY, and more money . I don’t date because a boyfriend is distracting, and I only meet people at my gym, and I don’t wanna date anyone from my gym. My step-brother just got engaged. My two cousins are married with kids. If I have a kid, I wanna be able to quit my job for a few years to take care of the infant and have a husband who has a job in which we can make do. I will not fight. I will not be one of those parents to brings their babies to the gym to cry while everybody else is trying to train. It’s not a priority right now in my life.

whoaaaaaaa I went off on a rant there. I’m sure my dad is glad I haven’t settled down with a fighterguy.
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I’m actually not allowed to write anything on social media while I’m visiting because Dad demands privacy. I got in big trouble for posting a picture of pizza on instragram…. One of my step-siblings ratted me out by accident…. thanks. It’s just pizza….
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I’ll probably get in trouble for this blog…unless I block all my step family on Facebook. πŸ˜€

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Anyway, ate good food, got scolded for not knowing current events (excuse me for not spending my precious time and energy on things that don’t effect my life and I won’t care about in another few months), ate the best Mexican enchiladas on the planet, watched lots of football, and got included in a card game with my step-cousins.

I got lovely presents and I am very grateful for them.γ€€γ€€However, all I really cared about was the time spent with Dad. “All I want for Christmas is you!” is totally true. Just buy me a plane ticket and call it my present.

AND THIS probably topped my Christmas gift experienced and it was a gift from like 20 years ago. XD
super-nintendo
I found it when I was looking through some of my boxes that I left in the basement. I can’t wait to find out if it still works.

I missed my mom and my extended family, but you know, I accepted the fighter life-style, which means missing family for the holidays. I hope I’ll get to fight in March. That’ll make 6 months since my last fight…

I’m going to do a jiujitsu tournament in California at the end of January. The one in Cerritos college is 4-5 hours away but looking online, nobody’s signed up for my weight division yet. The one in San Jose is supposed to be bigger but it’s like 8 hours away. πŸ™ I don’t really wanna do that but I really wanna compete…. I physically can’t sit that long. My neck, shoulders, back, and knees start hurting. It’s a problem.

This entry comes across as a little negative, doesn’t it. Well, life isn’t perfect but I’m glad to be back to Vegas and a place where people accept and admire me, and where I have self-worth….

I went to Captain’s evening jiujitsu class because I had missed morning training. I seriously felt like a zombie because I had woken up at 2 AM Boston time (11 PM Vegas Time) to travel 30 mins to the airport to catch my 6 Am flight. I was so tired but enjoyed class. I got to roll with Captain a lot.
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That was fun. I love training with him.
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I can’t submit him even with a choke fully sunk or armbar fully sunk…He said one of my chokes was close. Close is as good as I’m gonna get. haha